Teen Depression

Depression in teens: How to recognize mental illness in your child

All teenagers go through periods of isolation, but for some teens, it goes a lot deeper than a few moments of low self-esteem. For some teenagers, more than we’d like to admit, the low feelings can easily turn into depression. Full-blown depression in teens is a dangerous thing and can lead to suicidal thoughts and tendencies.

Some parents ignore the signs of depression, thinking it is no worse than the normal rebellion associated with the teen years. It can be a dangerous mistake to ignore those signs. Teenagers do not have the same ability as adults do to seek out help from outside sources. Teens depend on the adults in their life to notice the signs and do something about their depression.

Noticing depression in teens can be a difficult thing because they often act differently than adults do when depressed. The stereotypical view of the constant crier isn’t often seen in depressive teens. Teens who suffer from depression often act restless or agitated, unable to concentrate for even short periods of time. They may also experience changes in behavior. A formerly active teen will have trouble finding energy or motivation to do simple things. They may also have trouble sleeping or sleep longer than usual and change their eating habits, leading to an extreme weight gain or loss.

Depressive teens may still exhibit frequent crying, or they may become frequently angry and hostile. You also might notice the teen’s grades slip, and they withdraw from friends and family while losing interest in their favorite things. Teens will also experience things they don’t reveal, such as feelings of worthlessness, sadness or hopelessness and thoughts of suicide. Though they might not speak seriously about depression, even small jokes or comments about suicide should be taken seriously.

Another thing that might be a sign of a depressed teen is a physical ailment that has no reason or cure. A teen might complain about a stomach pain or headache though no reason is found for the pain and no treatment ever works. You may also notice your teenager suddenly loses contact with their old friends and starts spending time with a new group of people. You should also watch for an overly sensitive nature. Teens who are very sensitive to even the slightest criticism might be exhibiting a classic sign of depression.

Teenagers often do not admit their depressive feelings, and it is the adults in their lives who can make all the difference. If you think that your teen is suffering from depression, don’t wait - get help immediately. Talk to them; let them know what you think and see how they feel. In some cases, the teen knows they need help but aren’t sure how to get it. By opening up the lines of communication, you can get your teen the help they need and deserve.

By Jennifer Eblin

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My parents got devorced when i was six. Today is my 13 birthday. My dad went missing for 4 months, and then he was found on the news and newspaper for robbing two drugstores in farrugut and lenoir city, TN on december 31, 2009. I have 8 times the normall chance of getting addicted to drugs. I feel like I am depressed. I have all the symptoms on this site. I hide it from everyone. I keep myself from crying. My aunt Sandie actually said that i am the type of person who has no stress at all. She doesn't know crap if she beleives that, and one of those stresses is that I am doing this on a dsi and that it is a pain in the butt! I need help!! My email is pokefan6@gmail.com. Send me a message!!

Posted on 8/29/2010 8:35:00 PM by Anonymous

i'm a 17 year old, i think i have depression i usually a loner but now im even worst, u used to talk to my family now i feel worth less, help less, and i thought about suicide, i fell like no one cares about me, i am very stress i have no idea of what i want with my life. i have no clue of what career i want to choose i feel like there is nothing for me in this world. i feel like im alone in this and that im going to die. i cry for anything im starting to cry by just writing right now, i dont knoe what to do im afraid that im actually going to commit suicide....hopefully i wont i just need answers for my life.............

Posted on 8/22/2010 1:07:00 PM by Anonymous

me from 8-18-10 i guess its tru, i cant get help. thought itd be awesome get help on a website, bs. its been five months it turnd out since i last cut, carved,ect. still hard, but guess what, i have ppl to rely on. for those of u who dnt, this website better help u cuz if nt than this is a cruel trik.

Posted on 8/20/2010 2:54:00 AM by Anonymous

yesturday i told my parents about my eating disorder and showed them my cuts. it was one of the most difficult and scariest things ive ever done. all this had been going on for the past 2 years and no one saw it. no one evr looked. i was so sick of the hurting and sadness, i kno that not everyone is lucky enough to have the parents that i do, but there are people who want to help. i go to counseling for the first time tomarrow and honestly im so exited that im crying. help is out there and change is possible. dont give up and dont lose hope. i love you and youre in my prayers

Posted on 8/18/2010 5:57:00 PM by Anonymous

I am a young girl at the age of 13 going on 14 i feel like killing my self I just wonder if i go if people would realize me then? I feel like the things i do is never good enough! Nobody never notice when i do good stuff but always realize me when i do the bad stuff! I have a high self esteem and i just feel like if i was never born people's life would be much better without me!I just wish that i had someone who would cheer me on for everything that i do threw good and bad and if i do bad things even if i no it's wrong still come and tell that's wrong you shouldnt have done that!! I swearr my time is takein to long to come for me to go to someone who i know loves me!

Posted on 8/11/2010 7:56:00 PM by Anonymous

Im 18 and very depressed. It seems like everything I do doesnt have a purpose. Im on the verge of cutting myself and I probably wont stop. I cant take this anymore..please help.

Posted on 8/5/2010 9:08:00 PM by Anonymous

I am a mother of a son who is 20. He suffers from depression and is a cutter. I found all this out about 2 years ago. We have always been very close and still are, but for some reason he has pulled away from talking to me or letting me help him. I love more than anything and I don't understand why he pushes me away or accept my help. I know I cry a lot when I see him in pain, sad or cutting. It breaks my heart to see my beautiful son hurting so much. I feel if he would just talk to me and tell me whats going on in his head I would be able to guide him. I feel that when his dad and I got divorced it was the start of it all. It broke his heart and he blamed himself for the divorce even though he was only 8yrs. old. Of course the divorce had nothing to do with him, but he would talk with me a lot and expressed his feelings. I raised him and his sister for the next 11 years with joint custody with their father. During his high school years is when I noticed a change in this child who was always happy and always making us laugh. He was now very angry at the world and felt that we were always having bad luck. I would assure him that times were tough but we had a lot of good things to. I look for depressed signs, but did not see them. It looked more like a young teen growing up and discovering who he is and life as a young man. I know that his father was not their for him like he should have been. His father loves him, but for whatever reason just started not being around for him in his teen years. That hurts my son and still does. He has expressed that to me many times. I do not know what else bothers my son. He just says he has a lot of things going on in his head. I wish he would talk to me. I may be because I do start to cry and that makes him feel bad. I have tried and tried to not have tears, but it is who I am. I am very sensitive and so is he. Please if anyone can help me, either a young adult who knows what he might be going through or how he might feel to let me know what he needs from me. Or, a mother who knows what I am going through and how I feel, who has been through the same thing or is going through the same thing. I love him more than anything and don't want to see him sad, or cutting.

Posted on 8/5/2010 9:54:00 AM by Anonymous

Im12yr old. I'm so depressed. I cut myself constAntly and cry so much.. I have no emotional connection to my parents. They think that if they give me laptops and phones and iPods i will be happy but it doesn't. I just want some way out of this life. It has become to much for me. No one but my best friend knows about this and even she doesn't understand. Every minute is another minute in hell. Just help me out of this.

Posted on 7/25/2010 7:49:00 PM by Anonymous

i think i am depressed. ive cut my self dozens of times, ive actrually lost count, and ive also had thoughts of suicide, and well, when i dream about itsometimes, im crying but i think they're tears of joy, but when i wake up im so dissapointed. can some one help me? i hate crying almost everynight. please, contact me , my email is Lauriella11@gmail.com,

Posted on 7/21/2010 11:10:00 AM by Anonymous

Im 14 and i have a really severe depression, i have known that I had depression sincei was 7. I have tried to kill myself, or run away. I don't eat anymore, i loved to eat smoothies and stuff like that, but now, my stomach growls, but i just ignore it. I don't want my family to know i have depression, i just put a smile on my face and act like im happy. Plus it would not be worth it if i told them. Im also so Bi, so i get rejected alot. Nobody knows about my secret life, that i hide from the whole world. I just want somebody to talk to, but they all reject me. Last week my best friend moved away, but didn't tell me. When that had happened i felt like im a piece of crap. Im not important to anyone. Everyone has always told me im worthless! Even my own blood sister had told me that. I just want help! Please... i just need someone to talk to... my email > sora_rockx_out@hotmail.com. Please contact me, I can also too listen to your depression.

Posted on 7/18/2010 1:39:00 AM by Anonymous

I know it hurts. I have depression. Sometimes I just want to cry but I have to stop myself because I'll just keep crying and crying and crying. I have cried for hours straight. My family tries to help but they dont understand. I haven't tried killing myself but i have thought about it a lot . Then I realize It isn't worth dying over. You can get pass depression trust me i know. If you want to tlk just email me.

Posted on 6/14/2010 6:21:00 PM by Anonymous

I have mild depression. I've taken several tests on the topic of depression, all of them claiming the same results. I'm not going to replace internet quizzes/tests with actual medical tests. I've been aware of my depression since I was 12, it all happened after I turned 11. I've been trying to get my mom to understand, but she's making a joke out of it! I think she takes things seriously sometimes, but other times she doesn't. Making a joke about your kid wanting to kill you--not knowing how true that is--is NOT funny! I need help! Please, someone help me!

Posted on 5/31/2010 3:45:00 PM by Anonymous

Please listen to me!!! The depression you people feel I know what it s like just talk to someone else who feels it, it will help. I have a fine family situation no one thinks I'm depressed but I am. I too think of death and hurting myself but I found a girl who was depressed and understood me and we talked she helped me. I'm only twelve turning 13 but I am not clueless. I understand if anyone wants to talk find me at kyletheirish@hotmail.com the girl I met was 14. And we talked and understood each other and it helps to talk to someone who feels the apin trust me.

Posted on 5/20/2010 11:45:00 PM by Anonymous

Help me.

Posted on 5/17/2010 2:05:00 PM by Anonymous

Waking up in the morning is agonising. I walk over to my dresser, and put on makeup, and do my hair, knowing completely that underneath the products that I put on my face, there is a girl who wants to kill herself. I don't know the point of living anymore. If anyone does, hell, feel free to share. Not only with me though, with absolutley everyone else battling with depression issues. I have been diagnosed with clinical depression, and a bi-polar disorder. I've cut previously, and honestly, I think its a way of coping. A way of feeling. I have tried other methods of feeling, healthier ways, like writing and drawing, photography, and even film. Sometimes it helps, and I have a "happy" period. That's more like a one in onehundred situation. Just kill me now. I've been to a therapist a few times now, and she doesnt help. I dont understand why I can't just be myself. Our society is supposed to be all-forgiving, and all-accepting, so why can't people accept me for who I am. I'm me. Deal with it.

Posted on 5/17/2010 2:02:00 PM by Anonymous

My best friend is extremely depressed. She is on medicine and has been in a program for about a month where she has had to miss school. She has had sucicidal thoughts and has a life that just refuses to take a turn for good. She deserves so much more and me trying to prove that there is something more is a struggle everyday. I have never met anyone like her. SHe is an amazing person who has so much to give. Her biggest flaw is her lack of love for herself. It breaks my heart. She has changed my perspective on so many things and made me into a better person. She says she is undeserving of me and has given it her all to push me away, but I am not going anywhere. Everyone deserves someone. I truly believe everyone can achieve great things regardless of who they are now and that everyone deserves some shoulder to lean on. I would like to take part in a organization where I can be there even in little ways for whoever needs me. A teen hotline or something of the sort is what I am interestedin, and if anyone has any information of where I could seek doing this please post. THank you!

Posted on 5/15/2010 10:40:00 PM by Anonymous

This is to Anonymous, sent 5/12/2010. I am so sorry you are depressed. You are so young and life has only begun for you. I know it is difficult not having real friends, but if there is something you like to do, find a way to do whatever it is. Guys are a dime a dozen the important thing for you to do now is find something you enjoy and put your energy into it. Do you like to draw, sing, write, skate, swim, paint do you want to play an instrument..,. Find something you enjoy doing. Maybe there is a kids club you can join? A dance class, maybe. One thing you should not do is allow yourself to spend too much time worrying about what other people think of you. I am certain you have very special gifts to offer, you just need to dig deep within your heart and soul and be honest with who you are and what you want to do. Believe in yourself. You are only 12. So much life is still out there for you to discover.

Posted on 5/15/2010 7:33:00 PM by Anonymous

Im 12. Not even a teen. ive been depressed for about 2 years now. it all started when i started becoming depressed when a girl said i was really fat. that hurt terribly. now im skinnier and healthy. i havent had a friend over or have been invited to a girls house in about 4 years. my parents have started to wonder why im so antisocial. Everytime i ask out a guy i really luv, i get rejected everytime. I feel like my life sux. Nobody cares about me. None of my so called friends care about me. everyone in school thinks its fine to make fun of me and call me names becuz its easy to get passed me. Nobody knows i have a real heart. Im just too depressed. my parents just scream and yell at me. i want to get better! i want to become prettier and have a ton of friends. please can someone just listen to me for once and give me good advice and not lie to me.

Posted on 5/12/2010 12:07:00 AM by Anonymous

i am 14 years old, and i think i have sever depression.. i have all the symptoms that any website gives. I am sad most of the time and there is nothin that can make me happy sometimes... i feel empty and helpless, pathetic, alone...its like no one understands.. i have no one to turn to and i dont undrestand what im. everything is sooo confusing and difficult. i get mad and hurt alot lately and i feel like everything is crashing down around me, and that i am gonna breakdown. my family just thinks im moody and pissy, but.... i try to be happy around them so they dont have to be annoyed/bothered by me... i dont want to be a burdon.. i started drinkin the summer i turned thirteen and i would get dunk cuase that was the only time i actuallly "felt happy" my mo m is an alcoholic so she didnt mind... but that wasnt enough i started smoking and stealiing and getting inr troubel in school and i just stopped caring..thats when it all started... i still feel the same way, but i have learned to control my actions so that the people around me wont see how i feel or what i think.... its better when im alone.. when i suffer alone... its been a while since ive gotton drunk or smoked or even cut myself...but at night i have these cry attacks where i just feel like ripping my heart out of my chest or that im just gonna die from the pain.. i have to litterally hold myself together because i think im just gonna crumble into a a thousand pieces, when this happens i stop breathing for a couple of seconds and i feel like screaming.... sometimes screaming for help(but i dont deserve help..i dont need it..no one needs to know that this is how i feel........)and the tears dont stop... i wake up with tears on my face..i have dreams that are soooo realistic....of me dying cause of suicide and murder of me beign raped of me going to hell and being soo afraid of me drowning... i even planned out my suicide i knew exactly how i was gonna do it and when and where, but it didnt work out the way i wanted.... i cant talk about this to anyone in my family cause my mom thinks that people with depression are pathetic and that they just want attention and blah blah balh, my sister doesnt tak anything seriously, my dad would just get mad that i bothered him with all of this, my brother is to young to understand, my grandparents would just tell me to turn towords jesus! but i dont even think i beleive in all that christian stuff.. it just doesnt make sense to me anymore,: it just seems like a load of crap lately..... ive though about running away a lot lately.... i really want to.. but yaaa sorry i just needed to let that out and it anonymous sooo this was a perfect place to do it.. thx so much....

Posted on 5/2/2010 10:52:00 PM by Anonymous

im 14 years old and i dont know why im like this..... i've been depressed since i guess 3rd grade. it started with my weight and people making comments but than it just progressed to my parents fighting at home and just plain life. but these past couple of months i got really bad i cut and started think about suicide. now im not stupid and i dont have a bad life, so my parents say i need to get over it because i dont have a horrible life and should be grateful, they dont understand that i want to be normal i want to be the person they think i should be. in feb i was at my grandparents house thing were going on with the whole family and i had just got out of the shower i looked at the towel and i thought about hanging myself, i shook my head and walk into the bedroom looking at the window i thought about jumping. but i couldnt, i've realized its not death that scares me its the tears of the people i love that scare me. sincerely Rose

Posted on 5/2/2010 6:41:00 PM by Anonymous

LIfe is great. Never give up the girt that you were given without using it to its fullest. Things will always get better and you are never alone if you don't want to be. Be strong, you can do it. Believe in yourself and achieve your highest dreams.

Posted on 4/29/2010 8:39:00 PM by Anonymous

hey i just turned 15. for about 3 yrs i felt just angry and depressed. i hung out with the "popular kids" and i still do but i feel out of place. my family are alcoholics. my grandmother steals from my family. i was born on her birthday. she stole the present she bought me. i dont trust her. i cant talk to my parents because their too high and mighty for any one. my parents are really controlling. i never go out with friends or go out period. my parents are always negative. saying that im fat when im not.they complain bout evryhing about me. i feel so frustrated cause i cant talk to any one.i always act cheery and crazy. i always punch stuff trees,walls. i play loud music so that i can cry.i just feel lonely alot im the only one ever home. i just want to be normal and happy.and not think bout running away or hurting myself.i dont think im diagnosed with depression but all i think about is hurting myself. any advice

Posted on 4/26/2010 7:33:00 PM by Anonymous

i'm 15. and i really believe i myself am depressed. i think it started when i was about 12. my mom got this new bf who was abusive towards her, and i couldnt handle it so i started cutting. i dont think it was all his fault for my problems tho. when i was little we used to live in a city, my parents would fight all the time, and i dont remember much. i do remember crying all the time tho. ive blocked out most memories of my life because if i didnt i dont think i would be able to handle life upto now. i tried to attempt suicide twice. but i blacked out befor i could finish. i had a plan for it again but my new friend made me stop. my best friend is the only one trying to help me, and for him i am greatful beyond belief. i still have suicidal thoughts tho. for the past 4 or 5 years everything about me has been fake. a fake happy. my mom finally noticed the marks on my wrist. but i also have marks on my legs and stuff too. i break down crying almost everynite befor i go to bed. but i dont cry when i cut, because it doesnt hurt anymore. its twisted i know. and i want help. but i am getting help. soo many people dont understand my stories befor christmas break this year i almost felt i was in love. i have trust problems, and i told this one guy everything. he said he didnt want to date because he mite be moving and he didnt want to hurt me. and i ofcourse fell for his b.s. one day after skool i saw hime walking to his bus, but he just kinda looked at me then walked away. i was worried so i texted him and asked what was wrong, he said to stop caring about him. after that, i started talking to my old best friends ex bf, who she was in love with. we had some weird conversations, and it kinda worried me. he was depressed too so it was easy to talk. he asked me to have sex with him one day, and i said yes. i didnt end up doing it tho. i felt to guilty, and worried i mite hurt my friend if she ever found out. ive barely talked to the guys since. during that time, me and my old friend made up from a fight because of something someone said i said. we now know everything about eachother, but im starting to feel distant from her again. im feeling distant from everyone again... i used to care about everything, school, friends, my photography, writing and art. but now it just seems useless to care. i havent written a good poem in months, or drawn a good picture either. i havent even touch my camera in almost a year. i feel horrible about it too. i used to love all those thing. but now all i do is either sit in my room or watch tv. i barely go outside unless i have to. yet i love the outdoors. i know this sounds all scattered but its how my mind thinks now. i hope to oneday write my life story for other troubled teens. if i make it till that time. i want to start writing again soon,if i can..... if anyone feels like this, try and get help. i am, it took me a long time, but i'm trying. dont get to the stage im at, its unhealthy. and im not putting this up for attention. i just need people to hear what can and may be happening to them or to friends ot family.

Posted on 4/25/2010 2:33:00 PM by Anonymous

For all of you teenagers feeling so quite depressed, I was once there too. I couldn't figure out what to do with myself. I would shut myself away and wouldn't even go out with friends or family, I would hardly even talk. I felt like everyone would do so much better with out me, because nobody saw me. Finally I got tired of the negativity and never being able to sleep. I had to make myself be involved in something, something school related. Like a club or volunteering. Volunteering was one of the best things that had ever happened to me. I did not like it the first few days, but I got to feeling better about myself and what I was doing for somebody else. And that's what has made my life so much better, doing something for someone else, improving their life, and know that I did that. So please don't waist time being depressed there is so much more you can do to take advantage of the time you have right now. You need to be proud of you.

Posted on 4/23/2010 9:39:00 AM by Anonymous

Dear 16 year old that is confused, lost and doesn't care; I am the mother of a 16 year old and recently found out that she feels like you do...for all I know you could be her. If there was something that could be said to take your pain away I would but I know it is not that easy to do. Know that you are not alone even if you feel that you are. Don't be afraid to share your feelings with someone you might find that it helps. I wish I would have known sooner what my daughterf is going thru just to let her know that I was there for her unconditionally. I am certain your parents would feel the same although you probably don't think that is true. Trust someone, anyone and let them hold you while you cry and listen to you when you need to be heard. I hope you read this post and that it provides some comfort. I love my daughter and I know that you too are loved. Let someone in, you may be surprised at all someone is willing to do to help you.

Posted on 4/21/2010 12:52:00 PM by Anonymous

im sixteen. im confused, lost, and dont seem to care about anything anymore..i want someone to help though,,i dont want my time here to end, as much as i hate it i just wish someone was there, an i didnt have this feeling of loneliness..im so lost i dont even know who i am ...

Posted on 4/19/2010 4:33:00 PM by Anonymous

I am 12. I'm not even yet a teenager. I need help. I need help. I am always depressed. Always. No matter the situation. I can't live like this. Help me please. I want to be happy. But, I can't. It's not possible for me. I always feel so alone and lost no matter how great my life may seem to someone looking in from the outside. I don't know what to do. My family doesn't care. They just yell and scream at me. They would laugh if I told them and call me emo, and I'm sure they can already notice I have something wrong with me they just don't care. I don't know what to do anymore. I want out. But, I want to live for hope it'll get better. I can't leave because my parents love me, even if they don't show it often. My friends too. I need someone to help me. Just someone to talk too that won't judge. I really honestly want to be happy and I want to stop constantly thinking about hurting myself.

Posted on 4/19/2010 12:58:00 PM by Anonymous

Pain is inevitable, misery is an option.

Posted on 4/18/2010 5:46:00 PM by Anonymous

My 17 yr old daughter has been in an abusive relationship for about 5 months, he is controlling, and has isolated her from her closest friends, I have tried to advise and support her through this, educating her that what she thinks is love, is control and jealousy. Her grades have slipped, she is as obsessed with him as he is with her. After another weekend over Easter, with 5 break ups and makeups between them, and her crying all weekend, I said enough was enough and she could not see him anymore, on Thursday morning after being dropped off at her first stop to take the bus to high school, she didn't go to school, she went to his house where she was for most of the day, I did not find out she was not at school until 12:00, I was at the hospital with my Mom while she was having surgery, I am divorced but have custody and my current husband is not supportive, when she knew that she had to come home, he persuaded her to run off with him, she would not tell me where she was, and I searched through the evening to where I thought she might be, she stayed out all night, in the cold and rain with him, to spend one last night, the next morning after she did not follow through with her text she sent saying she would return to school, I was waiting there, we called the police and soon after they returned to the boys house where the school officer went to get her, we had to meet with First Call as she had said that she would cut herself and run a way if she couldn't be with him, I didn't believe she was serious, because it was not in her nature, she was never a problem. We are working on counseling, hopefully starting Monday, all contact with this boy has been broken, and she is like an addict going through with drawl it is painful to see her in such a state, but I know that it is going to take time, anyone with similar problems, and advice on how to help her I would appreciate. And never under estimate your child when they are in a relationship and have lost control of them selves.

Posted on 4/10/2010 7:15:00 AM by Anonymous

Teens, get help now, the world doesn't feel bright today but I promise it will tomorrow.

Posted on 4/5/2010 5:31:00 AM by Anonymous

My name is Justin and I'm 25 years old. When I was 14 I had my first panic attack and didn't know what to do or who to tell. I went through the first part of my teen years scared to tell anyone because I didn't want anyone to think I was crazy. As a 25 year old with 2 kids of my own now I recommend telling your parents early. I can promise all you teens out there, it does get better, as long as you seek help. Dont think you are alone out there. There is medicine out there that will help you. You never know, telling a friend just might be what you need and your friend might have the same issues and you can work on them together.

Posted on 4/5/2010 5:16:00 AM by Anonymous

But in some cases you will have parents who are stubborn and always blame you for everything and start swearing you infront of your sisters and friends too

Posted on 4/2/2010 11:21:00 AM by Anonymous

ive struggled with suicide/clinical depression/self-injury for the past two years, and i know its time to stop, but once you start it's impossible to just quit, it's an addiction, it's like a drug. Thank you so much for putting this on here. It's going to save lives, it's going to help parents of the suicidal kids, it's goin to make a difference. there doesnt need to be anymore people like me, who cant help what they do, who doesnt know what's going to happen in the next couple of days, it will help the people who still have their futures and their dreams who have accidentally stumbled onto the path that i am on. thank you for puting this on here.

Posted on 3/31/2010 7:00:00 PM by Anonymous

i am 16 years old and since i was nine i really started struggling. when i was lil i was put in a mental hospital cause i tried to killl myself at like age 6 , when my mom left and i moved wit my grandma i started fifth grade like any normal kid, then everything jus really started to get to me. i had started cutting myself thinking it would help. it did! for then... i8 still to this day struggle wit cutting and i have been in and out of hospitals for attempting to kill myseld. everyone thinks im crazy and they dont understand but that is the point exactly....THEY DNT UNDERSTAND! i think about how i can kill myself almost every day. i have dreams that i will die and i am always hoping it comes true. i hate having these feelings cause i feel like i cant be a "normal" teenager. but i try and hide it and i do it pretty well. i have a lot of "friends" but only a couple know what im going through and support me no matter wat. i still feel like the end is near ...people ask wat i want to do after high school. my answer is i wont male it out of high school....

Posted on 3/21/2010 11:16:00 PM by Anonymous

i am grateful for the honest words spoken here. thank you for the learning about what it feels like to be a teenager in pain, cutting, depressed, etc. i am a mom with 3 kids, recently divorced and looking for the best way to support, guide and love them through the years of 14, 17, 19 with anxiety, depression, cutting, pornography, eating disorders. i lost friends to suicide in my late teen and early adult years, which prompted me to get my degree in psychology and create a suicide intervention and prevention workshop for teens. this in no way prepared me for being a mom who fiercely loves her children and the truth that they make their own choices and are on their own journeys. as i listen to you write here, i want to know: what is needed? what if the adults around you really wanted to support you: what would that LOOK like, SOUND like, FEEL like?? what would nourish, comfort, heal, provide hope and inspiration? what are the possibilities?? i have had my own journey through incest, rape, promiscuity, addiction, depression, anxiety........into tremendous healing. i know for ME, and i stress the ME as it is my truth, being in nature, painting, writing, drawing, singing, gardening, talking to friends, essential oils, medication, massage, al-anon, affirmations, education about depression and anxiety were all helpful. there isn't a one-shot solution, and i believe in the power of our stories to change the world. who can you offer your story to that will hold it with respect, healthy boundaries, love and hope? who can you begin to trust? what are the resources around you in your home, school, church, community, hotlines? can you pretend to hope for the split second it takes to break out the truth and see what happens? can you dare to make a change for yourself and post THAT here? can you challenge yourself each day to: do one act of anonymous kindness for someone? (don't get caught!!) can you challenge yourself each day to create one tangible thing of beauty? can you challenge yourself each day to SMILE in the mirror--just once--and even if you are faking it to pay attention to how your body feels when you smile?? if you are REALLY brave, then try laughing out loud (it's ok if it is faked) and notice what happens? will you dare to post something here that shifts towards a SOLUTION as well? some movement towards life........... with respect and love, a woman who has been moved by the power of your stories and wants to hear more

Posted on 3/19/2010 2:18:00 PM by Anonymous

I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MY 14 YR. ONLY SON, HE IS STARTED TO SMOKE POT. WE JUST MOVED IN THE AREA AND HE DOES NOT HAVE A MALE FIGURE TO LOOK UP TO. MY FAMILY CONSIST OF 15 FEMALES AND 2 MALES WHICH ARE UNCLES AND THEY ARE NO ONE TO LOOK UP TO (sorry brothers). I NEED HELP !! I FEEL LIKE I NEED TO DO SOMETHING TO SAVE HIM... ANNETTE B. OXNARD,CA

Posted on 3/15/2010 4:23:00 PM by Anonymous

life is a blessing. i noe some of you are going through a hard time but you need to take a deep breath and live like theres no 2mrw. for the teens that feel like suiciding, you shouldn;t because there are so much wonderful things to experience. you are young you have yourwhole life ahead of you. suicide is a permanent death for temporary problems. for the lady who has a kid who doesnt care, you chould spend time with him make him feel loved show that u care, mayb enroll him in a sport or motivate him to be one of those guys who creat the video games. you can also try going to his school or ask him if someones bullying him maybe thats y he doesnt want to go to school. for the girl who thinks that she and the guy can never be because she is not skinny, you need to stop that i never had my real boi friend until i was 18. your young love comes to you unexpected. im not skinny or pretty but the guy i have been with for more than a year treats me like a princes. i am sure that you will find someone who will love you for who you are and not by how u look. just be patient if its ment to be its ment to be. for the people who like to cut them selves...why? why do it? why does it feel good? join a sport, go run as fast as u can in a school track or think why dont you think about the ones who love you, the ones who care about you, the ones whom YOU hurt when your cutting yourself. think about all the people who are starving who have no home who have no mother and father or grandparents, think of all the children who sleep cold and hungry at night, our problem is nothing compared to the ones who have cancer, who are in their death bed, who are sick or those who have worser lifes than we do, dont cut yourself. its not worth it. i recomend couseling at skols, ive been there and trust me it works. no one is here to judge you but you and only you can make a difference, no one can force you to change. GOD BLESS AL OF YOU AND YOUR FAMILIES. =)

Posted on 3/15/2010 2:16:00 AM by Anonymous

guys i know where your coming from im 13 and im soo depressed sometimes nd my mom has no idea and they only family i have and only 2 or 3 are good friends, and my real actual family is my mom and my broher and the rest of them i've never met, and i get blamed on stuff all the time and i really cant take it anymore i just wanna die, i cut myself sometimes when ever i have no one to talk to and im depressed or mad and im really trying to stop, and my mom grounds me alot so alot of the times i have no one to talk to and i never tell anyone about what goes through my head cause im scared they'll say im just trying to get attention, so i understand you guys my email is brionnahandcc@yahho.com if you ever need to talk im here cause i love making people feel better so email me

Posted on 3/3/2010 1:08:00 AM by Anonymous

I just want to die.

Posted on 3/2/2010 9:20:00 PM by Anonymous

My 12 yr old son has been dealing on and off with a low thyroid over the past year or so..I was attributing his mood swings and depression to that problem but I don't know now..it seems that he is alone. The thyroid problem is now dealt with through medication, but he is still very depressed. He has no friends (other than his xbox buddies) and has no interest in sports or any other activities. I can't get him up for school, and all he wants to do is sleeep and stay in his room all day long. I am trying to help him but he refuses the thought of going to talk to someone, and he won't talk to me about it either. All he would say is that he finds no enjoyment in things anymore and he hates school and life in general. He was always a happy person, and very sociable, but those days have disappeared. I am trying everything I possibly can to help but I feel he is slipping away from me. It is so hard to find help for him when he refuses it. I am even considering admitting him to a hospital just so he can get treatment, but I am scared he will never forgive me if I do something that is so drastic. But he needs help, and needs it now.

Posted on 2/16/2010 3:14:00 PM by Anonymous

im 15 n i never had a boyfriend in my miserable life and everytime i lik a guy i ignore him cause i think they r too cool to b loking at me n now i lik diz guy n i tak to him because we use to go 2 skool 2gether wen we were little but i know hell never like me caz im not skinny nor pretty so i alredy know dat us can never happen

Posted on 2/15/2010 4:23:00 PM by Anonymous

i'm 14, i used to have really good grades, and i loved photography and writing, i was an amazing writer, now i lost all interest in it. I am failing most of my classes, and i'm scared that nothing will get better.

Posted on 2/11/2010 10:50:00 PM by Anonymous

ITS NOT THE TEARS THAT MEASURE THE PAIN SOMETIMES IT THE SMILE WE FAKE TO SHOW OTHERS WE ARE OKAY

Posted on 2/11/2010 11:13:00 AM by Anonymous

i am a 14 year old and i have depression, i know it sucks to feel the way i do i lost my father froms suiide everyone in my family has depression i cut and drink and do other stuff to numb the pain i dont know wat else to do i hate this feeling nd i want it to end

Posted on 2/11/2010 11:10:00 AM by Anonymous

if you have a problem and no one can help you, go to youtube and put in Mikeschair and the song Let The Waters Rise

Posted on 2/10/2010 12:02:00 AM by Anonymous

My name is Krystal Marie Rogers, im 16 and i live with my grandparents in ohio. My dad moved to the phillipeanes and got married to someone else, mom now lives in Washington State my life got turned very fast i am a depression person i cut my wrist and i can't stop bc i have a sense it feels good to relieve stress this way i know its not the right way but i need help and dont know how to get it if you could could you please email me at Krystalpudding@yahoo.com and give me some idea's to help me.

Posted on 2/5/2010 11:13:00 AM by Anonymous

Hey Im 15 and im going through some hard time in my life. My mom told me to find a friend that i can talk to about anything. But its hard because im scared to tell people about my life cause they mite not like me anymore. IM SCARED.

Posted on 2/2/2010 11:34:00 AM by Anonymous

Hi, I'm 14 and I've been depressed for a while. I don't know exactly when it started, but I do know what really triggered it. Before, it had not even been an actual thought. I had slowly lost interest in things I had really enjoyed before. I had retracted from everyone and everything. I then made a friend, who I thought was my best friend, and she betrayed me. I began cutting and popping pills. It was really bad. Then, my parents sent me to a hospital. I got new friends and felt a lot better. I got started on some medication and it helps still. It took a little bit to find the right one, but I found it. I'm still in contact with my friends from the hospital and I've gained some new friends at school. I've become more outgoing and I feel happy more often than before. I'm still depressed, but it doesn't bother me as much anymore. I still feel the urge to cut sometimes, but I resist because I don't want to disappoint or hurt the people who care about me. Before, I hardly spoke and was cold to people who wanted to be nice to me. I believed they had an ulterior motive for talking to me since I didn't really fit in. I'm still like that, but it's not as severe as before. Depression is curable if you have the right motivation, but you have to want to be cured in order to be.

Posted on 1/31/2010 8:21:00 PM by Anonymous

hi. i'm 13 and this sight has got me thinkning that i actually might be depressed. even in a group of friends i feel lonely and isolated, but i dont tell them how i feel cause they wouldn't understand.

Posted on 1/31/2010 2:03:00 PM by Anonymous

im 15. i started feeling really useless and stupid about 5 months ago. i stopped talking to my friends, and thought that the world would be better without me. i kept imagining the possible ways i could die. i used to be a big perfectionist but i just dont care anymore. i dont feel like im gonna go anywhere. im tired alllllll the time. i smile and try and act happy around ppl, and i started feeling better for about a month..but its all coming back again now.

Posted on 1/28/2010 9:55:00 PM by Anonymous

l im 15. i havent been diagnosed with depression, not sure if i am depressed. its just that my parents, especially my dad keeps saying i need to know what to do with my life. like as in career wise. i really have no clue. its 2 years till i graduate and i havent got a clue. everyday i think about it and i still dont know. im scared that all my friends will move on, and i wont. i also dont even hangout with people anymore. last year i would hangout with my friends almost everyday. this year, i just dont feel like it. i have lost interest in doing most things. after me and one of my good friends got in a fight i havent really been the same. i dont talk to her anymore, it kinda made me realize that none of the people i hang around are actually my friends. they dont really like me.

Posted on 1/28/2010 2:58:00 AM by Anonymous

Well I'm 15. I used to love to draw, hang out with people and I used to get good grades. Now, it all seems pointless. Working hard...to die. I just don't care about it anymore. I do not think that I am depressed. Although, I feel as if I am nothing, and will never be anyone in such a big world. I feel like if I had less friends, less people I was close to...there would be less people to dissapoint with my lack of effort and lazziness. I hate being close to people, and I just don't care anymore. NOTHING in the world matters.

Posted on 1/27/2010 11:45:00 PM by Anonymous

im 14, I feel as if i dont care about anything anymore. Ive lost alot of friends, and my family bc of mistakes ive made that lead me on up to this point. I feel like i need a man in my life to make me happy, and i feel like thats all i need. I dont care about my friends anymore and it makes me sad, mad anger and uset at my self....i just dont see the point in living if nothing can make you happy....-Shelbyyy

Posted on 1/25/2010 11:12:00 AM by Anonymous

im 14 and feel so alone i dont know what to do any more i sleep all the time really only on the weekends and have mood swings all the time i used to love dance and am great at it but i just chande over a year or to and it got so bad that i need a fictional relationship to keep me together and cant stand it i feel so alone but im actually not and i feel like crying all the time i would love my mom or sister to see it but they just dont see it and it kills me even more - shelby

Posted on 1/23/2010 11:12:00 PM by Anonymous

ucan do anything

Posted on 1/23/2010 8:21:00 AM by Anonymous

Hi, I'm almost 13,and I haven't been diagnosed with depression, but I'm pretty sure that I have it. My sister was diagnosed with severe depression when she was my age and cut herself and everything. I don't have it nearly as bad as my sister does, but I still feel like... I just don't care about anything anymore. Does anyone have any suggestions on helping me talk to my mom?

Posted on 1/21/2010 6:30:00 PM by Anonymous

This is kind of weird for me to be honest but I have no one else to turn to really, I was diagnosed with depression. I went to therapy but now am out. Parents needed to save money & I convinced them I was okay. I was put into therapy because parents saw a change in me and thought I was contemplating suicide. Which I was and have been. I have a boyfriend who puts me through an emotional roller coaster about every month. He gets mad at me for no reason, ignores me, and to be honest can be a total jerk. But I stay cause I love him and frankly I'd rather be depressed & be with someone than be depressed and alone like I once was. Is that pathetic? Anyway. I have a sleeping disorder. I can't talk to my friends about how I feel because that just seems awkward.. & I don't wanna be judged or pitied. I can't tell my parents because it reallyyy upset my mom when I went through this before. I keep giving myself reasons to stick it out but I don't know.. I am so tired of being numb. Faking joy and that everything is fine and dandy. I wish I was back in therapy.. I'm tired of being depressed.

Posted on 1/14/2010 11:16:00 PM by Anonymous

Hello, my name is Martie. I have this problem I can't seem to get the thought of suicide out of my mind and I just don't know what to do. And I don't think the people around me do either. I feel like i should just walk til i can find something high in the air and just jump i don't know what to do anymore I HATE LIFE AND EVERYTHING IN IT.

Posted on 12/31/2009 12:21:00 AM by Anonymous

my mum thinks im crazy my sisters think im crazy. my mum thinks i cut myself but i dont i just use the knife to stab stuff i know wount hurt anyone cause i dont want to hurt them, i always have suicidal thoughts. i think ive got alot more problems than just suicidal thoughts and deppression but i have got no one to talk to know one to go to even if there was anyone i would like to talk to i wount be able to where i am..and its just so hard knowing i cant get anything right nothing goes the way i want it...my mum hates me and everyone else i can tell they dont have to say it for me to believe it...i cant do anything about nothing.. and now nothings ever going to be right. i hate it so much i cant talk to anyone i can't go anywhere for help if i wanted to...everything i need is out of reach i cant see a proffessional i cant get help im just useless and they all want me to be normal..but they dont get i never was normal even though my younge habits are gone some are still here and becoming even worse.

Posted on 12/16/2009 6:48:00 PM by Anonymous

Journal #6: Sry I havent written for a while :( So a few weeks ago I finally got up the courage to ask my parents to get me a therapist because I felt that I really needed help. I tried to explain to my mom my feelings and she said it was all normal and when i told her i have felt depressed she started to cry... I ended up agreeing saying that it was just hormones cause i didnt want to hurt her but things still feel the same. More than ever I feel alone, my friends exclude me from every thing and my best friend is going out with my ex bf, we broke up a month ago. Ugh i ended up going home from school and cried my eyes out, the thing that really sucks is that my mom had to stay on the phone with me cause i would have probs hurt myself if she didn't. My eating disorder is coming back and I just really want to stay home and sleep all day. I just want high school to be over. -ki

Posted on 12/14/2009 9:21:00 PM by Anonymous

iv been depressed for a while now and im only 12. I started cutting and then the school found out cause my friend told. It was a brutal day when i had to stay after school to talk to my dad and the guidence counsler i cried so much. Finally i got a phycologist but i still have serious issues. I have suicidal thoughts like last night. So i was planning on not eating cause i cant deal with this anymore. Im depressed cause of my boyfriend of 8 months and just life and the human race. Im not emo though. And my phycologist is probably going to medicate me on pills...hopefully ill go back to the happy person i once was

Posted on 12/13/2009 12:59:00 PM by Anonymous

"Some parents ignore the signs of depression, thinking it is no worse than the normal rebellion associated with the teen years. It can be a dangerous mistake to ignore those signs. Teenagers do not have the same ability as adults do to seek out help from outside sources. Teens depend on the adults in their life to notice the signs and do something about their depression." -- That is the most true thing I have ever read. I am 14 and I "[know] I need help [and] aren't sure how to get it." I feel positive I'm not the only one either. This article didn't help me in the least but of all the things I've read this is the most informative and made me feel there's at least one adult out there in the world who understands. :)

Posted on 11/30/2009 12:15:00 AM by Anonymous

my parents think i have bipolar, but its not like there gunna do anything about it. there never home and they could care less weather i come home every day. i could be gone for days before they notice. they hate me and i know it. some times i cut myself, but usaly i just imagine different ways to die. im giving up.

Posted on 11/29/2009 9:25:00 PM by Anonymous

Elizabeth: Hi again! I'm finally getting some help! It turns out that my aunt was depressed like me when she was my age, and she somehow figured it out over email (how in the world did she figure it out?). The thing that stinks though is that she had to go to the hospital for it, and hers was either just as, or not as bad as mine. And I'm super scared of most docters (long story), espailly(sp?) when they have pictures of monkeys in their room (that's my worst fear). And I need to go to a psyciotrist. I guess I'm a little glad because now at least I don't need to keep it to myself anymore. I don't know. I don't know how to handle any of this. I'm pretty much alone at the moment, except for my aunt and best friend.

Posted on 11/28/2009 8:55:00 AM by Anonymous

Everything in life sucks i cant remember ever being happy. no one loves me. nothing will ever make me happy.

Posted on 11/24/2009 3:52:00 PM by Anonymous

my parents are *perfect* role models... :(

Posted on 11/22/2009 3:03:00 PM by Anonymous

I think i might be depressed but i'm not sure and i'm scard to talk to people about it. help please

Posted on 11/19/2009 8:33:00 PM by Anonymous

my twin sister is severely depressed and is suicidal. can someone please help me before it's to late?

Posted on 11/18/2009 11:01:00 PM by Anonymous

my teen daughter 15 has recently been diagnosed and presribed medication parents hang in there it"s tough her depression seemed to hit a once with no warning- although there were probably signs be supportive and loving and seek professional help! Depression is real ! DP

Posted on 11/16/2009 2:26:00 PM by Anonymous

Elizabeth: Hi again! I'm finally getting some help! It turns out that my aunt was depressed like me when she was my age, and she somehow figured it out over email (how in the world did she figure it out?). The thing that stinks though is that she had to go to the hospital for it, and hers was either just as, or not as bad as mine. And I'm super scared of most docters (long story), espailly(sp?) when they have pictures of monkeys in their room (that's my worst fear). And I need to go to a psyciotrist. I guess I'm a little glad because now at least I don't need to keep it to myself anymore. I don't know. Email me, please! I'm izzy35@yahoo.com . I don't know how to handle any of this. You can email me if you just want to tallk too, I'm pretty much alone at the moment, except for my aunt and best friend.

Posted on 11/15/2009 12:00:00 AM by Anonymous

I have a 17 year old Son that needs help, I feel he is depressed and has anger issues, can you give me a name of a specialist to take him to in Chatham area.

Posted on 11/12/2009 12:00:00 PM by Anonymous

I was suicidal a couple years ago, but never cut myself or did anything obvious to parents and friends, except I wore all black or mostly black with gray. But there were also the mood swings. I could be having the time of my life, and my friend might tell me one little thing or crack one stupid joke, and the rest of my day would be ruined. I got over things with help from my father. Him and my mom were divorced and he lived in Ohio, 1000 miles from my home in Florida. He visited once in a while, and eventually he just bought me a plane ticket one weekend and said that it was too dangerous to live with my mom, as she had been using/doing drugs, alcohol, cigarettes, and many other things, and had an abusive husband, whom she broke up with for a man named Isaac, who was an entire 13 years YOUNGER then her. I got better in Ohio, but now the feelings have started coming back. I feel empty, I have mood swings, and I want to cut myself all the time instead of the couple times I'd done in the beginning. Death is becoming an escape plan again. Depression runs in my family strongly on both sides, and I'm pretty sure I have it too. The problem is that I have no clue how to reach out to my mom or dad and tell them I need help, and right now the most I can do is draw and write poetry to make myself feel better.

Posted on 11/11/2009 9:57:00 PM by Anonymous

Bad things have happened in my life but I have come to realize that these things are not my fault. I am not defined by the choices, bad mistakes of others in my life. I have found a voice, my voice and chose to live my own life not in fear but in the light of knowing I do not have to be like them. I can be me whether they appreciate it or not, I am strong, I am brave, I am allowed to be me......I may have days I cry and feel alone but I will not , I can not stop fighting for what I deserve ....A life , a happy life ......this is my hope....I will continue to move forward because I am worth it....and so are you......

Posted on 11/10/2009 9:57:00 PM by Anonymous

destiny: i also been raped 2 and im having problems with my mom i have cut my wrist 1 a long time ago what should i do about these crazy thoughts

Posted on 11/8/2009 4:23:00 PM by Anonymous

my name is destiny im 14 i got sent off for sao,selfharm,smoking,and odd i was gone for 18 months and i have only been home for 8 months im beinging to have suicdal and acting on my odd problem i been depressed lateley if you have any advice write back

Posted on 11/8/2009 4:19:00 PM by Anonymous

Im 11 and my parents are divorced. My mom is a les and i get teased all the time for it. My dad lives in a different city and he married this women who was a COMPLETE stranger to me at the time. I never liked her OR her daughters because they always talk about me in a different language which they don't know i know. They call me ugly and fat. I'm on the cheerleading team and im a flyer. Im 5'5 and i weigh 97 pounds. NOT fat at all. But back to my mum. Her girlfriend and her kids live with us. I cant talk to anyone because my mums girlfriend and kids all call me stupid and worthless. They've never abuse me. I dont cut myself but i think about it. And im about to fail out of 6th grade because im so un- confident. I also dont eat lunch. I have a 19 yearold brother that im related to but he's in rehab due to a OD. He's the only one i can talk to but i cant anymore. I need help. ***I know my story isnt half as bad as yours and im ABSOLUTELY NOT looking for attention but i want some help***

Posted on 11/7/2009 12:24:00 AM by Anonymous

i wish there was an adult around to help me

Posted on 11/5/2009 10:20:00 PM by Anonymous

Hi, it's Elizabeth again. 3 years ago I was almost raped and I can still feel the man touching me, could that worsen depression? I'm not trying to get attention, I just can't write anything anywhere else because my brothers keep finding my diary & reading it. Does anyone have any advice?

Posted on 10/28/2009 1:59:00 PM by Anonymous

Hi, I'm 13 (call me Elizabeth, that's not my real name though) and I moved very far away from my friends & family about 4 months ago. I think I became depressed last Dec. when my great grandma died. I was diagnosed with IBS 3 yrs ago. The only reason I don't tell anyone about this is because I'm the oldest of 7 kids and I'm the kid that everyone expects everything out of. They're very few people who understand me and even though my perants claim that I can tell them anything, I can't. A few weeks ago I started to tell them about how much I hate my new school, certain people in my school, and saying that I'm going to move back to our old state, they kept saying that I'm just being difforicult(no idea how to spell that) and gave me the cold sholder for about 2 1/2 wks. Now I might not be able to go back untill next summer! That means that I can barely talk to my best friend privetly until then! I keep thinking about suicied, death, cutting. I don't want to do any of those things! I don't even think that I'll ever be able to tell my parents!

Posted on 10/27/2009 11:30:00 PM by Anonymous

I am a mom of a 17 year old girls who has been suffering from depression since the summer of grade 9 she is now in Grade 12. My heart goes out to all of you suffering, family friends and especially the teens that have depression. It is not easy but know people out there love you and suicide is the most selfish thing you can do. The world will not be a better pplace without you because the world has not even got to know you yet!! Hang in and keep reaching out. We will get you throuhg this.

Posted on 10/26/2009 3:40:00 PM by Anonymous

im 15, and ive been depressed for a while. i have cut myself before , thought of suicide , and almost commited it before. I feel like my life is worthless all the time , and that Im no good. my family life sucks, and im not just saying that because im a teen and things "always seem bad when your a teen" blah blah. like its been horrible. i still feel like suicide and cutting myself , and i feel sad and stuff all the time. ive been to my guidence councilers now for years , but it never seems to help.

Posted on 10/15/2009 8:05:00 PM by Anonymous

im depressed. im 14 and recently had an 11 month relationship ended abruptly by my gf. ik she still loves me becuz she told me. however she refuses to even stay friends with me. i am suffering because of this. i want to move on but icant find it in my heart to leave her behind. this is causing me to start cutting and insomnia is taking hold. there is literally nobody who takes me seriously. teachers parents counselors friends ive tried them all. none of them listen.

Posted on 10/14/2009 7:48:00 PM by Anonymous

My son is 16 and is a great kid. He has recently been moved from the freshman football team to the jv and varsity team because of his age. His once close friends now ridcule him and he just broke down this evening. He has type 1 diabetes and his dad always promises him things but never comes through.He just feels like his world is coming to an end and I'm worried. I want to help but don't know how! Can anyone help me

Posted on 10/8/2009 7:42:00 PM by Anonymous

My name is Bailey. I am a 200 pound 13 year old girl. I am a freshman in high school so nothing about my weight is easy. I used to cut myself and I still think about doing it. I have had suicidal thoughts but I have never done anything to pursue them. I used to be on the honor roll ever report card then I started to get picked on and teased because of my weight, I still do and my grades are and have been ever since 4th grade terrible. Before reading this I thought that it was just my weight making me sad but now I have really thought about it and it is way more than that. I feel like my life is just one crap storm after another and I have no idea how to control it. I want to tell my parents that I believe I am depressed but I just have no idea how to. I have piles and piles of homework every night and I was just recently asked to a homecoming by a guy I went to elementary with and he goes to a different school now........then he found another date and told me I didn't need to go but I could if I wanted to. A family friend of mine was killed in a boat crash in 2006 then y grandpa past away of cancer in 2008. My mom is laid off, my dad has to work in Ohio, my brother treats me like crap until his girlfriend comes over. I really like someone that I have liked for 3 years and he goes from girlfriend to girlfriend but never me. My grandma lives with me now and he is paralyzed from the stomach area down, my parents have really bad credit and we have 6 people living in our house with a very small paycheck. I just don't know what to do. I always put on a fake smile and I want to be an actress because obviously I am good at playing emotions that I don't really feel but I'm not the right size for that. I just need to figure out a way to tell my parents, it could break their hearts.

Posted on 10/7/2009 5:58:00 PM by Anonymous

Journal 5# Its like there is another side of me. Like another person that comes out when I am feeling my worst. I'm usually a fun, nice girl who loves to just chill, but i get these weird outbursts. I am trying to create a great person out of myself and leave my rebelious past behind but it always creeps behind me. My boyfriend and I were just hanging out and I just got this flash where I wanted to throw all my progress of being someone Im proud of away. Like I wanted to go scream, and just run back to the person who sexually abused me and tell them that I was finished with being a nice kid and to just become what they are. I don't know what happens to me but I try to ruin my whole life. I can't control my self at times and I'm scared that I am gonna do something bad to myself... I wish I knew what was wrong with me. -ki

Posted on 9/30/2009 11:08:00 PM by Anonymous

Journal 4# Dude can I just say how amazingly strong u are. My goodness I couldn't handle that! I find that making a list helps alot, or just writing down ur feelings. It's like ur writing and pushing out every emotion and sending it to someone else to deal with (but not actually sending it). Somedays I can feel that the world is completely overwhelming, I take three deep breaths and try to plan out my day so that I can stay on track. As much as we try to connect with our parents its hard for them to relate. "No one can ever understand unless they have been there". I guess your mom cannot understand what you have been through like u can't understand what it was like for her in some instances. Power through high school as best as you can. Getting your diploma is something no one can take away and that you can be proud of. Your in control of your future never the less of your past. In some cities they will have teen clinics where you can go and talk to someone without having ur parents notified. I am looking into it as well but it sounds like a good deal. It is important that you talk to a professional before your mental health becomes worse. Talking can really help and it will let u clear ur head so that you can focus. I hope that will help. -ki

Posted on 9/30/2009 10:55:00 PM by Anonymous

One thing I'm wondering, is as a teen, what should I do. I've read this, and I've had all of these problems, and I don't really know what to do. Everything seems to only get worse and worse. I feel like I'm climbing a wall, and my hands were just dipped in melted butter, with a blindfold on. And whenever I seem to get ahead, I get sick, or a family member dies, and I slip over and over again. I mean, I'm 16 and I feel like I'm 46. All the while, I have to remain social with all of my friends, without worrying them. I hate worrying people, yet I'm always worried about them. So I put on a good face for my friends, and cover my true feelings. Which, I've been told numerous times to let out, but my mindset has always been to "hold it in, so I don't cause others problems". I try to communicate with my mom the best that I can, but sometimes, I just don't know how to tell her how I'm feeling. After reading this, I have realized that I do, in fact, need help. Psychologically, I am not well, and I know it. But it seems that no matter what I do, I slip again and again. I try to get a grip on myself, yet the butter never washes off. When I was 11, I had a whole lot of trauma dumped on me. I had watched my father and former role model, arrested by the F.B.I. It turns out that he had sent solicit pictures of himself to a minor over the internet. Then, I figure out that he had controlled and manipulated my beliefs and ways of life for the first 11 years of it. Whether it was making my mom out to be a monster, or making me believe that everybody should owe me the respect, just because I have my last name. Then he asks me if we should tell my mother or not, and me being told that she was a monster obviously said no. I held that in for 3 years, until my mother had an aneurysm (brain bleed) and almost died. I was left to take care of my sister, and had to make a decision whether or not to keep with me, or send her to her father (we have different dads). Good thing I didn't have to make that decision, because my mother didn't die (literally, thank god) After all of that is when I started getting suicidal thoughts, thinking that my dad did what he did, because I hadn't loved him enough, and that my mom's near death was the punishment. I've gotten over my mother's near death, but my dad's situation still affects me today. Plus, as high school goes along, it just keeps getting harder and harder, and I get more and more stressed, and I get sicker and sicker. I need help! And there isn't any question about it. So, as I asked before, what should I do?

Posted on 9/29/2009 1:35:00 PM by Anonymous

Journal #3 Its a never ending cycle. I can be soo excited and end up being totally depressed. I have no idea how to keep my emotions in tact. Also I never seem to be able to commit in a relationship. I seem to have some weird fear about being able to stay with a guy. Like I can find a perfect guy but find some reason to break up with him. I get these gut wrenching feelings that I should feel guilty for being with them. Also I cannot stand when a guy touches me. It freaks me out and brings back those awful feelings from when I was Sexually Abused. I dunno how to deal with my roller coaster emotions. xoxo ki

Posted on 9/17/2009 8:37:00 PM by Anonymous

Hi, my name is amanda herron and i have been suffering with depression and suicidal thoughts now for 5 years i am 16, overweight - 233lbs and i'm not popular and people judge me like crazy. It's not fun at all but i have gotten to the point where i dont cut any more and i have been cutting for 5 years but it's been since February last time i did. I have been in and out of stress centers and also jail. i am bipolar also. I still often get the erges to cut and thoughts but i learned to turn my negative thoughts around for example - i'm fat, i'm not fat i am pleasently plump. self - talk is our worst enemy we talk down to ourselves more than anyone else. But just know that you can over come anything life throws at you no matter how bad it may seem.

Posted on 9/14/2009 2:05:00 PM by Anonymous

Journal #2 Control. An emotion, state of being, something many fear yet others want more than anything. I always felt like I had no control over who I am or what my choices were (i still sorta do). Parents choose how I should act and present myself. While my friends do everything my parents are against. I am close to my parents but when I listen to them I loose my friends interest. I felt that i had no control and resorted to how I ate. It was something I could control. However the effects on my body were brutal and my depression got worse. How could one word effect my entire being... I strived for a year trying to control how my friends acted and ended up being hated for it. I guess I believed that if I could control them I could control my family and overall myself. Control, a simple word with so many definitions. I am trying to find balance in myself this year, learn that somethings are just out of my control and overall I need to only worry about myself (not being controlling over my friends lives). xoxo ki

Posted on 9/11/2009 11:45:00 PM by Anonymous

* I mean in the end when ur friends are gone u still wanna be happy with the person u are and the choices u made.

Posted on 9/8/2009 9:16:00 PM by Anonymous

Sometimes kids especially girls will do anything to get a reaction out of someone. When they say ur too skinny or ugly maybe, they wanna see how far u will go to make them happy about themselves and get approval. I mean i don't know u nor these kids but maybe they want more attention. Like if your skinny, girls would die to be like u and that probably gets to ur so called friends. Also with them forcing u to eat until u got sick isn't cool. I mean in the end when ur friends are gone Ur friends may be rebelling to you as well, Like maybe they feel they are being replaced by ur bf. Its important you make time for them and let ur bf know how much he means to u but that ur friends mean alot as well. If he's a good bf he will understand. Another thing u need to remeber is that if u and ur bf break up your gonna need ur friends. They won't always be there if u are always with ur bf. I understand that how much frustration and how lost u are feeling. But do things that benifet yourself. If u wanna dance, dance. Find something of ur own that u can always count on. Where u can grow personally and not worry someone will take it away. Things will get better, just find balance in urself, family, friends , bf and school. anyway i hope i helped a bit :) xoxo ki

Posted on 9/8/2009 9:15:00 PM by Anonymous

you ever feel trapped and wonder how did you get here, you dont want to lead on that there is somthing wrong so you eventually convince yourself that there isnt anything either. i feel like everything is toubling around me. i spend my weeknds with my amazing boyfriend who is the world to me, but i never see my friends anymore and the only time i do see him is the weeknds so its hard. i take one look at my reflection and i think yuck i cant belive i look that hidious. i know it sounds dramatic but im being completly honest. i have been teased all my life about being thin and now i think they have convinced me to the extreme of me eating so much junk food until i was sick. thats just the base of my feelings. i dont know who to turn to, i dont no where to run. but i know if this goes any longer im not sure im going to handle it anymore. ive had enough now and im struggling with everything i have left, but i can only give so much and im not sure i have enough left.

Posted on 9/8/2009 4:08:00 AM by Anonymous

journal 1# Ever wondered about the path u choose? maybe that the path u could have chosen would have lead to the same path u were at? I know I sure do. I wonder if it is destiny. That maybe everyone is put through tests like ours. I moved schools in 4th grade. Only to be sexually abused by someone i thought i could trust. However as time goes by I meet my old old friends who i find suffer some sort of depression like my own. It makes me think, if i stayed would i have been bullied, raped or anything like their own? Its an odd thing to believe that so many friends i lost, and re-found are being tortured through depression. I guess that goes to show ur not alone. xoxo ki

Posted on 9/7/2009 11:10:00 PM by Anonymous

I always believed I could convince myself that things never happened, that they were my imagination. However as the years go by I know in my heart the truth. I am finding acceptance and with that I may move forward. The road is never easy but through all this it makes us stronger. Take deep breaths. Find what is most important to you, and never stop believing in urself. I know its corny, but its so true. Depression is something all of us is clearly dealing with. But people get past it and we learn something about ourselves. I want to help kids like myself so I'm gonna try and post something every week. A diary or blog u could say like iv being doing so far. We are all strong individuals no matter our past. xoxo-ki

Posted on 9/1/2009 7:50:00 PM by Anonymous

im 14 years old and i used to be constantly depressed. i felt sorry for myself and i didnt want to take control of my life. instead i decided id rather end it. but luckily i didnt and i was admitted to a mental heath facility for kids to get back on their feet. they prescribed my antidepressants and i saw a therapist every 2 weeks. throughout the summer i stoped taking all medications and a break from therapy and i feel good about life. it takes a different way of thinking and i still feel quite lonely sometimes but happiness can be a text or phone call away. if you feel depressed don't let it go anywhere. Don't cut or atempt anything stupid for attention. its not worth it trust me and haveing someone who knows your problems can sometimes be the best cure. so talk.

Posted on 8/29/2009 4:07:00 PM by Anonymous

i started cutting a year ago and it feels good, im not trying to get any attention im just trying to be heard and i feel like i can scream as loud as i want but no one can hear me. i have so much pain bottled up inside i dont know how to get it out but cut. i have even tried to stop but i cant. i have friends that do it to and they understand. my mom is practically a slut and she is never around and when she is around she is in her room screwing some one or at his house screwing him. i was abused by my dad for 6 years and now im 13. im trying to turn my life around but its hard. im still trying but im not going to let my mom know or she will probably beat me, and that is not a joke.

Posted on 8/26/2009 8:09:00 PM by Anonymous

i was depressed a few years ago majorly, i spent every night crying over nothing. might of been my desceased father, or acholic stepdad, druggie mom even idk. but i was depressed for years and at the tipping point in 5th grade it was horrible. i felt outta it. like i stuck out in the crowd and that everyone was always looking and judging. i felt like i was popping out of my skin, i had darks thoughts and angry poetry, but i was too humilatied to tell anyone. i meen i was just another girl who was starting drama or making a big deal outta nothing. i was completely lost, but then i went out for soccer and tho it didnt help as much it helped a lil. i met some people who i flet understood me, and from there i dont know what happend but i felt better, especially with a bit of church. and i turned my life around without anyone knowing what was happening in the first place.

Posted on 8/23/2009 8:56:00 PM by Anonymous

I started cutting today, and honestly it makes me sick, but its like an addiction i cant kick. i love the pain that comes with it, but not the attention, im not trying to kill myself or anything im just getting an adrenaline rush off of it.

Posted on 8/23/2009 8:46:00 PM by Anonymous

my daughter is 18 years old and has been talking to a 40 year old on line for 2 weeks since she met him at walmart. sha says she has strong feelings for him and spent a night with him she says nothing happened, but i'm afraid for her and she seems to think theres nothing wrong because shes an adult now help!! any suggestions on how to help her understsnd?

Posted on 8/21/2009 10:43:00 PM by Anonymous

my daughter has ben seing a christian counselor for depression for about a year and has been on lexapro for two months... she is almost 16 and has had diabetes since she wa 13months old... she is a habitual liar, was caught stealing at walmart a year ago, stealing large amounts of $ from her dad and i, and lost a summer job for stealing... i originally started her in therapy because she was cutting herself... she writes beautifully but it's almost always about blood and / or suicide... she fell in love witha a guy when she was in the 9th grade (she was homeschooled until then) and he left the school after that one year. since then he doesn't give her a thought but she continually writes how much she loves him and life without him isn't worth living... she SEEMS to be trying harder to cope with being part of this world lately but her writing still insists that that is just a cover so we will leave her alone and stay out of her business... i'm worried! mostly for her living life but also for her life away from the lies and stealing... she knows that i love her no matter what and i've told her that being trusted is the most important thing we can lose... What else can i do and how can i help her to love and respect herself enough to give up this guy and realize how loved and special she is so i won't have to worry about suicide or jail???

Posted on 8/17/2009 10:36:00 PM by Anonymous

hey guys, im not a professional or anything. im a commentor 11 stories down and iv been reading the stories above my self. There are so many horrible things in life, none of the things children should be exposed too. But we cant let these awful people win. we are the future and i for one am gonna change my future. Im not going to allow these people take away something so important to me. Maybe they have taken my past, my innocence and my happiness but they will not take away my strength! but whatever doesnt kill you only makes u stronger and im living proof. Im not a chruch priest or gospel voice but im a believer. I do not think we should kill those who have wronged us though. We need to speak out people! Im scared shitless but I dont want people I know to be hurting like this. One voice can be stronger than a crowd. Im only fourteen, im a girl and I was sexually abused. I will find closure. I will find strength in my voice. And I will not let kids like myself be killing themselves because fuckers in this world are hurting us. Im going to strive to make this world a better place please join me. write back on this blog if ur with me. -ki

Posted on 8/7/2009 12:25:00 AM by Anonymous

hi my name is jeff i been felling sad and taht i want to die my heart hurts i feel out of place like im an outcast i know i need help i been cutting my arms and legs please someone help me.... my email is xixjefferyxix@yahoo.com

Posted on 8/6/2009 8:56:00 PM by Anonymous

Shygal: Sorry if I spelled anything wrong. I'm in a hurry.

Posted on 8/6/2009 12:27:00 PM by Anonymous

Shygal: Hey everyone. Sorry it's been awhlie. Ok I've seen so many "Comments" about sexal abuse. First cutting youself is not fun! Who ever posted that really needs to GET HELP! Cutting yourself is not a solution. I feel so bad for the people who have been sexally abused. It's not right. No one's a physco's, just people who want attention and NEED as much as help they can get. People, quite judgeing people like that! Please! It's not right and get s them down even more! For those people that are sexally abused, go to the police! Your own family abuseing you is not right. And you should not be living with them. get the help that's needed. Worry about yourself at this time.

Posted on 8/6/2009 12:22:00 PM by Anonymous

Hi, my name is Melissa, I am 11 years old at the time, but I plan not to make it to the age of 12. I am deppressed. I spend most of my time trying to plot ways to commit suicide. I've tried it three times already, one close to death, but not close enough. My mother commit suicide a few days after I was born, turns out that I was only put on this earth because of my dad sexually assaulting my mom. Now my dad just uses me to mess with instead of her. I have bruises from him abusing me, he goes off at the most random times, just a couple of days ago he bashed my head into the metal fauscet in the bathtub. My uncle has also tried to sexually harm me in many ways. And worst of all my brother has been molesting me for 4 years. The first time he molested me was when I was 8 years old. He took me out to the shed, tied a cloth around my entire face and, the rest, I really dont like to talk about. Sometimes he even invites his friends over to "party" with me. Just a few nights ago was my first time cutting myself, and honestly it feels good, it relieves me. Tonight though, I promise will be my last night on this earth.

Posted on 8/5/2009 1:12:00 AM by Anonymous

hii. my name is charice and i am depressed. i have been in depression for about three years now. each day i think about how i can take myself off this earth. i feel as i am not wanted and no one is looking out for me. that noboody even cares. my depression first started when i was melestad by my father. he had stuck his penis in my face and i cryed. he made me perfrom oral sex on him. when i didnt tell my mom he thought that it was okay so he would do it again. it eventually got to the point where he would rape me at night. and i was wide awake he said that i liked it becasue i closed my eyes. i told him that the only reason why i was doiing that was becuase i was holding back tears. he would reape me around four times a week. then it got worse when my mom started abusing me cause when i finally told her that i was getting melasted and raped she would get mad and not believe me so she would usually punch me in the arm or in the face. it was horrible. then i went to a mental instituion cause i tried to murder my parents but it didnt work. i got abck three months ago and my father iis doing the same thing and my mom will stab me if she is in a bad mood. but i feel better talking about this and i need it. thankks

Posted on 8/5/2009 1:07:00 AM by Anonymous

Depression is, by far, the least understood problem young adults face. It's usually wriiten off as a "phase" or just growing up but the pain is all too real and neverending. Pysch Docs like to prescribe pills until one works- if it does at all- and the terrible side effects are left for the patient to deal with. Its a racket, a money maker for people that have NO clue on how paralyzing depression really is but profit from it anyways. If you truly want to understand what you're dealing with, find someone who has walked that lonely path and seek their advice. Just because some quack got a degree in Mental health does not mean they understand what you're dealing with. Education is a wonderful thing but real life experience trumps that ten-fold. If you want real answers and advice, find someone compassionate who has/is dealing with this monster and get real answers, not pyscho babble from textbooks regurgitated by well intentioned "professionals" that see you as just another payment. I would love to help but do not have a clue as to how to get in touch. Stay strong, ride out the episodes as best you can. There is a light at the end of the tunnel, you have to trust me on that.

Posted on 7/30/2009 11:34:00 AM by Anonymous

Hey everyone. If anyone just needs someone to talk to, feel free to email me at tymiller_009@yahoo.com. I'm not another adult here to tell you how you're a beautiful child no matter what. Yes you should believe in yourself but sometimes you want more advice that just hope. Just me hope is a lovely thing too but to me that just doesn't feel enough at times. If anyone needs to let something off there back with someone to actually listen to them and understand them. Feel free to talk to me. I'm just a teen like all of you ( except for that women a few post ago:) ) and I know how to put myself in your situation and understand it. I've give through some horrible times too, and I'm actually going through a really really tough time now. But I just feel like reaching out and helping someone. Like I said, feel free to talk to me.

Posted on 7/29/2009 1:02:00 PM by Anonymous

dude this is for teens with depression! its women like u that can make us kids feel freaking depressed! you are destroying families. The guys a sleeze bag and for the record your the other women! not the wife. if ur sleeping with a married guy imagine how the wife feels. The wife must be compltley heart broken if she knows and if they have kids imagine what ur putting them through. If u think ur depressed see a doctor or a therapist at least ur an adult who can.

Posted on 7/28/2009 1:52:00 PM by Anonymous

wow you dont sound depressed you sound trashy commentor below

Posted on 7/27/2009 6:22:00 PM by Anonymous

so im always feeling sad and its anoying even when im with my friends and every ones having fun i just feel depressed and distant its extremley anoying i know suicide is not the answer ....and my boyfriend is an ass hole and cheats on me with his wife all the time and that makes me sad then the asshole slept with my sister and i was like wtf how we gonna be together if your doing my sister...and now im back dating grils how fun maybe ill have a family and kids and hide my pathetic qualities behide my beatiful childern my life rox

Posted on 7/27/2009 6:18:00 PM by Anonymous

im 14 years old and i was sexually abused. I was about nine years old at the time and i had no idea what had happened. The worst part is that it was by my best friend who was also a girl. Im not a lesbian or anything. She told me never to tell anyone and when I finally found out what was going on I told her that I wouldn't tell anyone if she got out of my life. She's my next door neighbor and goes to my school. Everyday I see her and I want to scream and tell her how she's made my life a living hell. My parents still don't know and I have no idea how to tell them. I get these awful depression cycles its like im on a rollar coaster. I tried killing myself when i was younger and i often feel so worthless and stupid for letting it happen. All of friends, teachers and family see me as a happy teen. i don't drink or do drugs, i get average grades and im asst. captin of both volley ball and basket ball teams. I'm an up beat person on the outside but i just have these awful break downs. Ive made myself sick at school, and gone days without eating. I think i have depression, or bipolar but i have no idea what to do. My parents think of me as the greatest kid in the world but all i see is this stupid naive girl who is dying inside. I really need help, some advice. thanks.

Posted on 7/27/2009 1:01:00 AM by Anonymous

Im 14 and just feel horrible like a gunshot to the heart i dont know why i start the day happy and crash latter angry and suicidal.

Posted on 7/26/2009 3:19:00 PM by Anonymous

To all of you beautiful young people, I'd first like to say that I came to this site to read about teen depression because my son (16) is displaying behavior that I'm unable to understand. I am not posting this to help with him though, I am posting this because after reading all of your entries I became so sad. I am only 33 yrs. old, I gave birth to my son at 17 and I've done the best I can, graduated high school, and even went to college, altough it was a challenge. I'd like to make an attempt to shed some light on why you are confused, as I am still young enough to remember the confusion and pain of being an adolescent, yet old enough to have some wisdom. While growing into adulthood, things I have realized is that (and parents will hate to see that I told you this) ALTHOUGH ADULTS HAVE MORE LIFE EXPERIENCE THAN YOU, AND CAN OFFER SOME ADVICE...WE DO NOT KNOW EVERYTHING AND DO NOT HAVE ALL OF THE ANSWERS ABOUT LIFE. I frequently tell my kids (1 boy, 1 girl) that I don't know. I'm not all that much different than they are, I just have to work really hard and I've lost the ability to be carefree. I often find myself wishing that I was young again, although I hated it then, I realize that I had time on my side then. IF YOU ARE SUFFERING AND ARE IN PAIN, PLEASE REALIZE THAT YOU BELONG IN THIS WORLD. WE ARE ALL A PART OF NATURE, WE WERE ALL BORN THE SAME WAY, WHETHER YOU ARE PHYSICALLY BEAUTIFUL OR NOT YOU HAVE A PURPOSE. TRUST YOURSELF AND TRY TO GIVE MORE THAN YOU TAKE. I PROMISE YOU THAT IN LIFE (MAYBE NOT RIGHT NOW) IF YOU CONTRIBUTE POSITIVE ENERGY, IT WILL COME BACK TO YOU. TAKE ENJOYMENT IN SIMPLE THINGS (PUPPIES, SUNSETS, THE OCEAN, THE MOON, KITTENS...JUST NATURE, ECT...) DON'T LOOK SO HARD FOR PEACE, AS IT LIES WITHIN. YOU CANNOT CHANGE THE WHOLE WORLD, BUT YOU CAN START WITH YOURSELF AND RUB OFF ON OTHERS. DO NOT JUDGE PEOPLE WHETHER THEY ARE GAY, STRAIGHT, FAT, SKINNY, BLACK, WHITE...YOU GET IT. BE GENTLE WITH YOURSELFS, YOU ARE CHILDREN OF THE UNIVERSE AND YOU HAVE PLENTY TO OFFER. FIND YOUR PASSION AND MOST OF ALL....LOVE YOURSELF

Posted on 7/24/2009 12:25:00 PM by Anonymous

k ppl i am clinically depressed so i know what alot of you are going through, but suicide and cutting is not the answer! so those of you doing that..... STOP!!! RIGHT NOW!!!!!! i know how embarrassing it is to have to admit you have a problem, and how hard it is to get through to your parents that you really do have a problem, but you need to get help. tell your school nurse. thats what i did when my parents didn't believe me and now i have anti-depressants that can take. i don't tke them anymore but when i did they helped sooooo much. i can get by without them most days now but if i had never taken them at all i don't know if i would still be here. so even if your scared about being addicted or whatever, don't worry. you can stop taking them. just make sure you get permission to stop taking them. so get help!!!

Posted on 7/21/2009 5:50:00 PM by Anonymous

I'm 11 and have HUGE thoughts that I am going through puberty because I keep arguing and yelling at my parents- mostly my mom. I've always had a hard life - ever since my parents got divorced when I was 4- and I don't think m,y mom understands that it's puberty. Maybe this website will help. I thank God for this website!!!

Posted on 7/17/2009 9:14:00 PM by Anonymous

ok so i just wrot that thing down at the bottem and i had not read that thin up at the top and i just read it and i forgot to say that like in the first parragraph it says that teens may have waigh loss and not sleep and that is SOOOO true i cant eat a lot with out fealing sick and i dont sleep i sleep like 3 or four hours a day. and that thing about suicide is so true i keep telling my friends and they just laugh and so no that im too full of life.i just wish that my parents could get a clue about this.

Posted on 7/17/2009 3:00:00 AM by Anonymous

ok so you dont need to read this i know that there are so many and i just really need to talk so you can or cant it dont matter to me but thank you for reading if you do and thank you if you dont.My name is robbie,im 15 years old and i really dont know what is wrong with me i want too die but i just cant do that too me family and as well my self. im a gay teenager and i live in a small town were i am one of the most disliked people here i cant stay here anymore i just wish that i was never born and i was sexual assulted when i was really young. over and over and then that man passed away and then i was assulted again by a diffrent man and no one knows that i just cant tell anyone with out them getting mad.my life really sucks i just hate it and then i go and see my friends going out with someone and here is me alone. i...i just feel unwanted, unloved, and not cared about and i feel like i have no care about anything and i just have to make myself go do something and then sometimes i will just breakdown and yelll and start crying out of the blue. i love to make people happy and i know that i can do that easly and its killing me to see them say oh my life sucks and blah blah blah when only something little happens when they have no idea what went on with me. i cant handel it any more they all want comfort and wont give me any i hate it i hate it i hate it. i need someone to be here for me so bad.

Posted on 7/17/2009 2:53:00 AM by Anonymous

i forgot to post this on the one below- I have a disease called Cystic Fibrosis could knowing that there might never be a cure be why im depressed & cystic fibrosis is not contagious it runs in the genes so please dont judge

Posted on 7/13/2009 12:16:00 PM by Anonymous

Okay im going to be 13 in september, ever since my little couin died when he was one (almost a year now) i have been feeling like i dont belong here and i shouldnt be in this house my life is pointless is the thing that runs through my head when some one is yelling at me in my house there is frequent yelling even though i have a new boyfriend now i feel empty should i tell my boyfriend?? I cry myself to sleep at night sometimes or break out crying at school dances.i havnt told my parents how i feel becuase they wont understand.7/13/09 i know i need help

Posted on 7/13/2009 12:05:00 PM by Anonymous

Honey, I know you don't see why your here but I guarantee that you will find your way, I am a mother who has suffered from depression from when I was a teenager till now. and I know how hoppless life can feel and I watched my teenager go through it too, with someone to talk too and me being there he is now 18 and he is better and is finding his way. Hang ON Take one day at a time. You may feel no one cares but they do and I do, I feel your pain and understand it and know how you feel . I care Chris(mom)p

Posted on 7/3/2009 8:43:00 PM by Anonymous

i wiish that there was more to life than thiis...i wish i knew why i was put on this earth..for what purpose? my dad definantly doesnt know why~i am consatnly being shut out~sam (sammy3xo)

Posted on 7/2/2009 2:00:00 PM by Anonymous

i want to be heard i want everyone to know how i feel and think~i am always so frustrated and i am always thinking of just jumping off a cliff~same person as 7/2/09.......dont kill yourself...please...if you want i am always here to talk i am a good advice giver~Sammy3xo

Posted on 7/2/2009 1:10:00 PM by Anonymous

Im 14 years old and I am always depressed but I cover up the pain all the time. If you asked my teachers or friends, they'd all say I'm enthusiastic and happy. I am happy and I am grateful but all my life I've been feeling like I'm wishing on a broken star. Like theres no hope or strength left in me. I want a different life and i never discuss my feelings so i dont know what to do anymore. I cry at night when everyones asleep, I try to make my father proud of me so much. My brother gets all the attention in the house and i feel like I'm a doormat. I cant explain how i feel but I feel like my life is like a ticking time bomb. I am grounded all the time its like a hobby for me but if I tell someone why im grounded, they'd look at me like i had two heads. I cant even blink the wrong way without getting grounded for a month, and im not happy. I feel like my life is broken or something. I cant explain how i feel so why try? I am so depressed and i dont want to tell my parents or friends.

Posted on 7/2/2009 1:01:00 PM by Anonymous

Im 14 year old and belive it or not. I have been depressed since the age of like 10. I have tried to kill my self at least 6 times. My grandpather sexually assalted me. And is not in jail for it. I get so upset sometimes. It gets so bad that I wont talk to anyone And I will sit by my self in my room For hours at a time Crying. I do have alot of friends. But those that arnt my friends hate me. I cant walk out my house inless I have someone with me or else I will get jumped. My life went from good To Really bad.The one person that I trusted with everything. Told the cops and CAS what my grandpather did to me. I cant keep a constant relationship with anyone.. I dont want to live with my mom. But I have tryed to move out. And it was worse where I moved. All I feel everyday is that I dont want to live. One part of me wants to kill my self. day after day. But the other part wont let me. Im scared of my self. Because if I find sompthing that I can hurt my self with. I will. The one night about 4 days ago. I had a hammer in my hand. and I allmost smashed my self in the head with it. But I was scared that my sisters would see what I might have done to my self. I dont want to go on and on about everything I have done. because Im sure you guys dont want to hear it. But I need help And I deffently Need to get out of where Im living now. I just Have no where to go and I dont know what to do. Does anyone know what I can do to help myself? Thankx for listening -Ariel

Posted on 6/30/2009 6:54:00 PM by Anonymous

Tm: Ok, I'm in a really screwed up situation. I'm 15 about to be 16 in 4 months. About 7 and a half months ago I met the girl I love today. Our parents introduced us. Our parents were starting to date. From the first time we say eachother we could feel something was there. That night I called her and we talked for 8 straight hours until the sun came up. We went against our parents wishes and dated ourselves without them knowing anything. Her dad never sayer with any of his exgirlfriends so me and my girl didn't think they were even gunna last. Her dad cheats on my mom when she isn't there and she doesn't believe me. Me and my girl r perfect for eqchother I know we are, but it seems like it is impossible fir us to really be together. I get to stay the night over there aometimes with my mom and we have to put on a front so they don't suspect anything. All of our friends that know about us think we r destin for eachother. I never want to lose her. About a month ago the parents found hickies on her neck. Yes, we had sex, we thought we were ready. I had to leave and stay home. The parents had serious talks with the both of us individually and wanted us to "quit the bullshit." So we stopped talking for about 2 weeks. But we just couldn't stay apart. I'm serious! Like these feeling are way to strong for me to just hide. Just yestirday the parents talked to us yet again. I'm punished for 2 weeks atleast and they say I can never call her again. But we talk through email. We want to get through these 3 years of school and when we are 18 go off and do our own thing. Her dad has threaten to kill me if I ever get back together with his daughter. But we just can't stay away from eachother. I just want this to blow over in three years so I can be with her again. And not to long ago we found out she was pregnant. She is about three and a half weeks pregnant and she wants to get and abortion because we really aren't in the situation for that. The parents well her dad would try to kill me, I can get a job anywhere to help support us, and we r only 15 and still in highschool. I don't know what to do. I wanted to go move in with my dad 1000 miles away but I just can't leave her like that. Never. Someone give me help. And I'm doing this on wifi so it is slow. If u want to contact me to give me help talk to me on my email at tymiller_009@yahoo.com. Please and thank you....

Posted on 6/24/2009 3:17:00 PM by Anonymous

I really need help. I know it sounds stupid but its making me feel really sad and depressed. My boyfriend doenst talk to me and he always hangs around these other girls. I stand right near him and he doenst even notice im there. Once he say me crying and didnt say or do anything he just kept walking by. I really do love him but he makes me feel like a dog toy and i really hate feeling like this. It makes me feel so dead.

Posted on 6/20/2009 9:59:00 AM by Anonymous

well there is one person who cares and that's the 1 that takes pills 4 her depression

Posted on 6/19/2009 6:54:00 PM by Anonymous

ShyGal: Ok first everyone has someone who cares for them. Your mother is worried and dads are just...weird. Not long ago, my mom asked if I was depressed. And then just yesterday my dad did the samething. I think they're going through my stuff in my bag cuz I also write poems. Some are good but most are about depresstion. Younger siblings are also another thing you just have to get over. Parents pay more attention to them because they're not like you who knows more then they do. You always have to clean after them and make sure they're not getting into trouble. That's why it seems that your mom and da dont care but they do. Find new friends, ones that want to talk to you about depresstion and will listen to you everytime you need someone to talk to. Or you can find a guy who likes you and you'll have someone who will care and ask questions about your cuts. It's hard finding someone like that but not impossable. Go find that someone! PLEASE stop cutting youself! Like I said before, I don't get it! Cutting yourself does nothing but get you deeper in the hole of darkness. Explain to your parents what's going on! I know it's very hard to but please talk to someone about it. It WILL help a lot! Remeber you can always reach me at "shygal24.7help@googlemail.com" signed ShyGal

Posted on 6/18/2009 1:51:00 PM by Anonymous

If anyone needs just sum1 2 talk 2 contact me at kelsitherabbit@yahoo.com . Btw same person who posted at 5 am or so.......

Posted on 6/17/2009 11:22:00 AM by Anonymous

This is the same person posted June 17 at 4:57:00 am. I know I need some sort of help. I have friends who are depressed (one takes pills) but none of my friends have actually attempted suicide. Three of them used to cut, but they stopped, two of three cuz the counselor found out. I feel alone because no one understands. One of my friends talks about suicide, but never attempted it. My parents and half of my teachers have seen my cuts, but no one cares enough to do anything about it. My dad questioned me about my cuts once, and I said it was marker. He's seen them since, but never asked. There's an infomercial about knives on, ironically. I use a pencil sharpener blade, which is in a pokemon case that I am holding. But I need help because I might be depressed. Actually, I think I am. Not that it matters much anyway. I'm upset about everything, as I have been the last 4 months, I eat way less, and I normally eat a lot, I either sleep too much, not enough, or keep waking up, I'm always tired, though I am constantly doing something, and often plan how I'm going to commit suicide. My friends get pissed every time I try talking to them about depression, and there is no way I'm telling my parents cuz they'd think I was lying to get attention. I'm stuck in the same hell over and over, and there's nothing I can do.

Posted on 6/17/2009 5:39:00 AM by Anonymous

I am barely over 12 years old, and already I have attempted suicide twice. I live in a house where my sisters can get away with anything, and their worst punishment is having to stay inside for a day. I have had to deal with my dad trying to ship me off to a boarding school and, more recently, his threats to hurt me. My mom acts like she cares, but, of course, my sisters are far more important than me. She asked me one time if I was depressed, so, unthinkingly, I questioned why she thought that. It was because of a notebook of suicide poems. My dad blames my "emo, depressed friends who hang out with their boyfriends all day." I have one friend who has a boyfriend, and last I heard, they were in another fight. Honestly, at this point, I don't know what to do anymore. Cutting doesn't work, both my attempts at suicide were close, but failed(the car was two inches away from my side!!!!!), my friends don't really care, and the only counselor that I've talked to (school counselor) almost gave me detention for something he knew my friend did. I'm pretty sure I need help, mostly due to the numerous depression tests that say I'm severly depressed, but no one else notices or would ever think I am like this.

Posted on 6/17/2009 4:57:00 AM by Anonymous

ShyGal: Everyone feels like they're nothing, but the only thing is, they're wrong. Everyone is someone and that's why the LORD put us here. Sorry for bringing religous stuff in but it's true. You are not no one. It's hard being somone who thinks no one love's them but thats a wrong thing to be thinking of. The world seems like eveything and everyone hates you. But you're wrong! Like I said before, there is someone out there who will care for you, you just haven't found them yet. Lighten up yourselves and got find that someone who will be there. Parents, like those, are the ones who you shouldn't have to put up with! But sadly you have too. But just think, you can help them get out of that hole of darkness! And killing youself just makes everything else go wrong. It's not very helpful. And to be a 15 year old who has 3 jobs to support the family is tough. But that means that you're stonge in the head and is more in likely to get a better job and end up being very successful in life.

Posted on 6/16/2009 11:47:00 AM by Anonymous

Ive had a tramatic childhood...doesnt that just sound lame but for those who can relate to my story maybe it doesnt sound so insignificant. Ive been beaten by my father, molested by a stranger, abandoned at 10 years old when my parents divorced while my dad lost his mind and my mom chose drugs and sex over her numerous children. Ive been screwed over by any friend or family member Ive ever lent my trust to. My ex boyfriend is blackmailing me because I refuse to be in an unhealthy relationship with him. My only true friend just abandoned me when I needed her the most because she cant stand how miserable I am all the time. What a good friend huh? I have Bipolar Disorder, PTSD, and Severe Anxiety which Ive suffered from since I was 8 years old. I have done everything in the book to try to make myself feel better. With negetive coping mechanisms I have done massive amounts of drugs, started smoking at 15, started binge eating, later became anorexic, banged my wrists, cut my arms, and tried unsuccessfully killing myself 3 times now. My mom laughed when she found out I started cutting at the age of 14 and my dad thinks that despite my diagnoses, that Im just being an overdramatic teenager. When I turned 18 I decided to help myself. Ive been seeing a therapist for the last 6 months and while talking to someone whos unbiased is comforting, they cant be there to hold your hand once you leave their office. I started taking prescriptions for anti depression and anxiety but have recently stopped because they made me sick every morning after I took them. I have lost out on an opportunity to love someone as well as a close friend to fall back on. I dont have very many friends and pretty much no family so in light of recent events I feel like a 19 year old loser whose suffocating in her own emptiness. Im screaming, begging for help yet its just silence all around me. I am a wallflower, a whisper in the wind. I am nothing.

Posted on 6/15/2009 10:34:00 PM by Anonymous

I am 15 almost 16 and I just do not want to be here anymore. I feel like everyone I cared for either left or passed away. Now I am working 3 jobs to support my family and I am trying to keep my grades up. Taking care of my 11 year old sister and I am sick of it. I just don't know what to do. I see no point to life. What is the purpose seriously can someone answer that for me? What does it matter? Eventually I am going to die so what does it matter if it is tomorrow or 20 years from now or 50 years from now.

Posted on 6/14/2009 3:22:00 PM by Anonymous

ShyGal: To the 18 year old. Right now is a hard time. A highshooler moving on to the next level. Since the guy you like does not wnat to date you, he's propably not for you. When you get to Callege, You'll met new people and more in likely oyu'll have the best guy friend you can ever have. Then most in likely he'll get crush on you. As for home, it's hrad living with a new family that you don't fit into. Your stepmother and siblings are so much different then what you're use too. But as long as you know that your dad is always there, then start making him someone that can be your best friend for now. In college, you'll have new friends that will care for you and help you get through this. Just keep your faith and hope too, You'll get through this soon. Signed ShyGal

Posted on 6/10/2009 8:54:00 AM by Anonymous

Im 18 years old almost and its the summer between highschool and college i should be happy but im not . I hate everything. Everyone annoys me. I recently got into a huge argument with my best friend I cant remember the last time I was happy. My parents got divorced when I was 13 and me and my mom have always been close but the last boyfriend she had was her boss and he was abusive and almost killed her they are in a big lawsuit and our house recently got foreclosed because my mom is a relator and the market is really bad due to the recession so ive had to move in with my dad who pretty much has a whole new family that I definately dont feel apart of I also just feel out of place because I dont have a boyfriend when all my friends do and the guy I liked told me that he couldnt date me because of my ethnicity and even though I have many supposed freinds none of them know anything because I know they will judge and I have too much pride to tell anyone and have them pity me I mean ive always had money and now I dont have enough money to do anything and I just try and cover it when friends want to come over because they cant anymore also Ive had severe chrons diesease ever since I was little and its really stressing me out because its just getting worse and I cry all the time which is just making it act up more I mean I do great in scool I got two full rides to different colleges and I act happy but I stay in my room and cry all the time and I never sleep I feel like im depressed but i dont want to burden anyone with my problems because my parents are already going through a lot and I dont want to talk to a therapist but I just want to vanish or die all the time and I feel so dumb and worthless and ugly inside and out and Im just so afraid that im never going to be happy again and that its just going to get worse and that all this darkness will follow me to college and I will mess up my future Im really sorry about all this I just had to get everthing off my shoulders

Posted on 6/10/2009 5:19:00 AM by Anonymous

ShyGal: If you need any advice, help, or if you like my opinons, email me. I just made this email address for anyone that thinks they need help. EMAIL ADDRESS: shygal24.7help@gmail.com. Signed ShyGal

Posted on 6/9/2009 11:09:00 AM by Anonymous

ShyGal: If you go now, you'll lose your old friends and boyfriend. But if you don't go, your life will be perfect. Life is hard, but soon it will get better. There's no resone to worry about moving. Once you move, you get to make new friends and get a new job. Just keep in contact with your boyfriend. At least you can keep in contact. I never spoke to my frist kiss, ever again. He lives somewhere in Tennessee. I live far away and forgot to ask for his number. See! Life gets hard but it will all work out at some point. Signed ShyGal

Posted on 6/9/2009 10:50:00 AM by Anonymous

-- :( Im 15 going to be 16 in 6 months. My parents are forcing me to move with thems to Toronto when we live in Timmins, I have my school here my boyfriend and a job. i have been strssing out crying everyday just thinking about it always staying in my room since not geting much sleep at all. Not eating much puking because im so sad that I get headaches and stomach aches., The moving will begin in late July. I really do not wanan go I love the way my life is at the momment. I just don't know what to do anymore. I told my mom, if I go im goign to hate you and do anythign to not go even kill my self if I have to. I siad that there was no way that im going to want to go. :'( This is not something i would open up to, to people but I just don;t know what to do anymore. I hate my life!

Posted on 6/9/2009 12:10:00 AM by Anonymous

ShyGal : Sorry, I wasn't done. Anyway like I was saying. I know for a FACT that you know what I'm talking about. Your family cares for you. LADIES. Who feels like a "Cinderella" right now. You clean the house, and your family abondons you. That's what's going on in my life. It's hard, I know, but LADIES in the "Disney's Cinderella" she finds someone who cares. Doesn't she?... Right! She does! Ladies go find that someone! I know I have. So GO! MEET YOUR PRINCE CHRAMING! GUYS! Go find someone! Someone who will cares and loves you! There's got to be someone out there right? So go find her!!!!!!! I may be 14, b ut I know what I'm talking about! GO FIND YOUR PRINCESS! She'll care for you. STOP CUTTING YOURSELVES AND GO FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL HONESTLY CARE AND LOVE YOU! Signed ShyGal

Posted on 6/8/2009 9:29:00 PM by Anonymous

ShyGal : Ok I just got done reading through some of these old "comments" and MOST of them had cutting involed. Why? Why does everyone cut themsleves? I don't get it. It does NOTHING but the loss of blood. And if you don't cut far, it hardly bleeds. So, why scar yourself? I'm not trying to be mean or rude but how come? It really makes no sence. Like I said before, CUTTING DOES NOTHING TO HELP. My advise for those people would be to think about the people around you, and think what they would do. Ask yourself. "Would mom (dad, grandma, best friend, ect.) do this to themselves? Scar themselves to do nothing?"

Posted on 6/8/2009 9:16:00 PM by Anonymous

ShyGal: Listen. I'm a teen going through a lot of rough times right now too. I'm only 14 and I've already tryed dieing, but it doesn't help one bit! Believe me, dieing is not a solution. My great grandma told me "Faith is faith, hope is hope, do is to do, and to try is to try, but giving up is not an option." See everyone knows life gets hard, but it's better to live it out than to give up. Does this help at all?

Posted on 6/8/2009 3:48:00 PM by Anonymous

ShyGal: Don't do that. There's no need to. I know life is hard right now but there is no need. Dieing would just make everyone you love in to depression. Would you want that?

Posted on 6/8/2009 3:39:00 PM by Anonymous

i really just want to die nd put life behind me

Posted on 6/8/2009 1:46:00 AM by Anonymous

Listen, I know what you are feeling. This is going out to the 16 year old that posted a comment on the 4th of June. I have already posted a comment that is below. I am a 14 year old girl and know what your going through. my advice would be...start making new friends in your school and once you feel comfortable enough, talk to them about you depression. It helps so much. I have maybe about 5 friends and they all care about me. Or you can talk to your old friends about your depression. I feel bad about your dad and I'm very sorry about it. My dad has verys of chances of heart attack and is not paying attention to those facts. I very scared that my dad may end up dead :'(. My depression will worsen. But I know that if you get friends that care for you, you'll have no probalem getting out of this depression. You need to tell your mom that your not just going through a "teen thing" and that your step father is wrong. There is a chance of getting help. Unlike me who can't. Parents may seem busy but if you tell them that it is important, they'll listen. Try to caught them before they go to work or something and have them sit down and they'll listen.

Posted on 6/7/2009 7:43:00 PM by Anonymous

I'm teen and need help. I found this sight by trying to look for help though this depression. I need someones help. I have tryed talking to my parents but they seem to be busy with younger siblings. I really need someone's help and I don't know what to do. Can any one help me?

Posted on 6/7/2009 7:17:00 PM by Anonymous

My baby, my fifteen year old daughter, has run away. She has been gone for three weeks yesterday. She left school during lunch and nobody has seen her or heard from her. I just found out that she has only three main friends all from different social circles. She has become a loner this year and I had no idea. I consider us close but I feel such pain that I didn't see what she was going through. Her father molested her when she ws just in fourth grade and visited him out of state for th first time. After many years and a strained relationship with her father the truth came out and now the other states courts are invoolved. She is terrified! I know she met a boy recently and is having sex and I am worried she might be pregant. Her friends tell me she has also been experimenting with prescription pills. I ak so mad at myself for not seeing the pain and confusion she was going through. I wish thqat I could just hold her and let her know that I am here to help her. I miss her so much! PARENTS PLEASE PAY ATTENTION! DON'T DISMISS DEPRESSION AS NORMAL TEEN STUFF! DON'T ASSUME YOUR BABY WILL COME TO YOU LIKE WHEN THEY WERE YOUNG. GET TO KNOW THEIR FRIENDS AND DEVELOPE RELATIONSHIPS WITH THEM!

Posted on 6/4/2009 11:10:00 PM by Anonymous

I'm 16 years old and I am so confused. I was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes when I was 11 years old and my dad died when I was 12, he was my best friend. My parents also divorced when I was 8 years old, so when my dad died of a heartattack he was home alone, I felt horrible. I felt so depressed that I felt just like leaving my life then and there, but I just couldn't do it. I felt so helpless, my mom tried to be there for me, but all of our conversations ended in fighting. My grades started to slip and I found myself cutting myself on anything! Then my mom found out and my stepdad told her that it was just a "teen thing." I knew that I had a problem and I did not know how to handle it. For that last year I have been happy, I have no idea why or how my mood changed. But now I have found myself more sad and irrated as ever with my mom and stepdad as well as my friends. My teachers at my old school treated everyone like crap and called us failures saying that we were not trying hard enough. I'm sure that that was one of the factors for the change in mood. But...I have found myself stressing more than ever on all the little things in life, my parents say that I'm probably going to get an ulcer in the year. But I have no idea how to handle it. My mom threatens me by saying that she will take me to a therapist, but i know that she won't do it. I am also going to a new school a much bigger one than my old one, who's junior class had a total of 50 people. I feel worthless, and sad, and angry all the time, I even find myself crying all the time and I don't know what to do. I know that I am suffering some type of depression, I want help. I know that that sounds really weird to say, but I am so sick of feeling like this. I need help/advice on how to tell my parents and have them take me seriously, and not say that it's PMS or a "teen thing." Please just give me something.

Posted on 6/4/2009 4:48:00 PM by Anonymous

I actually try to tell people how I feel but NO one even listens to me.... especially my family. I know it's just cause i'm going through so much, but i honestly don't beleive theirs a single person in the world who loves or cares about me....I don't even like going to school cause people there are just so mean and don't care, not even my "friends" I know i'm heading down the wrong road here and that's why i need help so if anyone can help me, please do so.

Posted on 5/30/2009 2:00:00 PM by Anonymous

i know there are better options. its hard though to think of any when you have this type of thoughts in your head. i understand that there are people who do care, i just forget about them because it is rare that anyone comes up to me and listens to my feelings.i still suffer from depression but i would still like to tell everyone that there is help it may not be anti-depressants or counseling, but there are other ways. like writing here. no one knows you but just know that whoever is reading it does care. just like i do. I've gone through all the feelings and also felt like suicide was the only way, but i finally found out it isn't. we depressed teens must speak up though. it takes a really brave person to ask for help when they need it. specially when it involves your feelings.

Posted on 5/30/2009 1:57:00 AM by Anonymous

im 13yrs old. i can really relate to the person who wrote on 5/27/09. i write poems and i am writing a book called The Red Oranges. i know it sounds lame but it isn't. if you're stuggling w/ thoughts of suicide, you should keep a diary, or a ''feeling book'' or something like that

Posted on 5/30/2009 12:47:00 AM by Anonymous

Im 15. And i just wanted to say that there are better solutions to your problems than suicide. At times i felt like there was no point in trying anymore, but i didnt give up. Things in life can be really hard and i know that. But there will always be something that will help you through those tough times. A friend, a family member, a pet. Someone or something will help. I found writing to be helpful. I love to write poems. That was how i got my anger and sadness out. Please dont give up on life. It could really hurt others who do care, even if you feel like no one does. Life will get better, You just have to hang in there and believe that you can do it. i dont even know who will be reading this but i would like you to know that i do care! So please dont hurt yourself, there are better options. <333

Posted on 5/27/2009 5:45:00 PM by Anonymous

i lost my mom to esophagus cancer when i was 10(in 2005), almost exactly a year later, my best friend and grandpa has a stroke, and for the last 3 years, has been living with little memory and in a living hell, he has dimentia and soon will have alzheimers, later that same summer my grandpa on my mom's side died... now my dad has kidney stone that wont pass, his sciatic nerve is screwed, he needs to lose at least a 100 lbs and he and i fight nearly all the time, but he cant walk and now my grandma who's husband is in the nursing home with dimentia has the same leg problem as my dad, and my other grandma has parkensins and severe arthiritis.... and this is going to sound dumb, but to top it all off i've had 3 girls in the last 3 years break my heart... the girl part doesnt bother me as much, but it sucks too because i cant find anyone to spill all of these feeling to, ive never considered suicide too much, because i dont want to hurt everyone around me with my mistakes, but i honestly dont know wut to do, i just want everything to be like it used to be... help me plz

Posted on 5/24/2009 6:49:00 PM by Anonymous

Hi i'm not saying my name but i am 12 years old, and sometimes I feel like doing Suicide, I always try but i just cant do it.

Posted on 5/23/2009 11:56:00 PM by Anonymous

Hi, I'm not going to say my name, but I will say I'm a 13 year old girl and in 8th grade. I had panic attacks when I was about nine years old, and I'm pretty sure I've had major anxiety issues ever since. Lately I've lots my appetite, and I either feel really happy or I feel like there isn't a point in living anymore. Numbers are always racing through my mind and I have thought about hurting myself. Is something wrong with me? Can somebody help me? please? I'd really appreciate it.

Posted on 5/21/2009 9:16:00 PM by Anonymous

well not much to say i am 14 years old i lost my girlfriend a mnth ago i loved her very much n still do.nuthing feels the same any more,ive been cutting myself since then i feel lonely,the cuts get deeper ans deeper every time n i cnt stop.i have a therapist i dnt wanna tell her nething cuz i dnt want my mom to kno.im scared im guna hurt my brother or my now ex girl friend thru my actions n i just dnt rlly care nemore.i cant tell ne1 sept few of my good friends including my brother.

Posted on 5/20/2009 8:04:00 PM by Anonymous

thanks that really helps. im Posted on 5/18/2009 10:48:00 PM and i was hoping someone would respond. my parents want me to go to a theripst, but i cant find one in my area thats a woman. and i wouldnt feel comfortable talking in a group. any other suggestions?

Posted on 5/20/2009 9:56:00 AM by Anonymous

Your thoughts are normal for someone who needs help. Please, please all of you seek out a friend, counselor, grandparent or your parent and start a conversation such as... I think I need help I'm afraid I might harm myself or I need someone to talk to. It may be hard to start the conversation but don't avoid it. I was a troubled teen and luckily had parents who recognized I was acting out because I was depressed and although I fought and resisted the help they provided I wouldn't be here today if they didn't force me into treatment. If you need to, call the suicide hotline in your area or look for self help groups at a local hospital or behavioral health clinic. I assure you life can be awesome and you just need help getting past some of the issues so you can experience true happiness.

Posted on 5/19/2009 10:03:00 PM by Anonymous

i've never been to this website before but ive found it very helpful. i've taken over a dozen depression quizs but almost hate myself for thinking im depressed when theres people out there with real depression and real problems. ive told my boyfriend who is also my best friend that sometimes i wish i could get dementia, and forget my whole life, and ive told him i just want to run away and start a new life where no one knows me. ive lost intrest in everything and have violent nightmares of rape and dieing and being tortured. sometimes i want to die just to escape everything. when drive by myself i sometimes want to ram my car into the guardrail. i just want to know if anyone else feels this way. and to all the girls who cut, i hope you've found help. the things posted on here seem so genuine, i wish i could talk to and help each one of you. please if someone can tell me if my thoughts are normal.

Posted on 5/18/2009 10:48:00 PM by Anonymous

I am a parent of a 17 yr old that left home 2 yrs ago. When he sees me he gets full of anger punches things and is out of control. He doesn't remember what he is angry about, but can't stop it. He won't phone or visit. I love him so much, but I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FIND HELP. We tried a councelor and he refused to go after 2 times. He won't say where he lives or share his phone number. I recognize by this site he is depressed, angry and taking drugs to numb the pain, and I recognize it because i too am in so much pain I want this to be my last day, just not sure I have the guts to do it. Don't know how to heal this family.

Posted on 5/18/2009 5:32:00 PM by Anonymous

well we will say my name is nicole. im 17 yrs old and when i was five yrs old my dad started molesting me and it continued until i was nine. one morning my brother(18 now) woke up and went and told my mom that my dad was doing bad things to me. well my mom believed him and she came and woke me up and told me that when i got finished getting ready for school to come to the living room so that we could talk. my dad had always beat my mom even before they got married and he even almost shot her. well i went into the living room and she asked me if there was anything that i wanted to tell her and i told her NO even though i knew what she was talking about. So she said ok and drove us to school. when we got there i broke down crying and i told her that dad had been hurting me for several yrs. so then she took me to the police station and they took me to the hospital. then we left there and on the way home we stoped at chevron and there was my dad he started yelling at us. well we kicked him out of the house and he tried several times to hurt us again. we began taking him to court but my counselor stoped the trial. then he moved to north carolina so that was it for about 7 yrs. then my grandma his mom found out that she had cancer and he moved back. i had blocked out everything that he had done to me becuz i was young and didnt understand any of it. when he came back he kept talking about my breasts and my butt and even tried to start touching me again. then everything started to come back to memory. in october of last yr i started having what they call pseudoseziurs which is from your emotions i was hospitilalized for almost a month. i began cutting and not eating then they put me on medicine for my bi-polar disorder. i also had ptsd. well everytime that my dad would come to visit me i would get worse so then i started seeing several counselors and pschys. and still do till this day. then they put me in a mental institute twice. i came out and i had stoped cutting but now ive started back again im severly depressed im failing school i have only one friend my mom thinks i do all of this for attention now we fight all the time me and my brother no longer talk and i only live across the hall from him. im getting ready to be put in a mental institute again. i just want to be normal and not cut anymore PLEASE HELP ME!!!!! MY NAME IS ASHLEY N

Posted on 5/17/2009 12:04:00 AM by Anonymous

i have the same xact problem with the girl who is 15 and posted 5/9/2009 xcept im only 11. i dont know what to do! want to kill myself

Posted on 5/16/2009 5:36:00 PM by Anonymous

Before I got injured(herniated disc) I was outgoing, athletic, basically an all around happy person. At school with my friends I feel as if I have a mask on hiding my true feelings. It hurts, not only am I in physical pain, but I am also In mental pain as well. I never want to do anything anymore, I don't want to hang out with my friends, my grades are going down, and I'm starting to cut back on food. I'm dropping the weight the I didn't even need to lose. My mom thinks I'm depressed and I can see the pain I have put her through. I'm slowly falling apart. Please help me.....what should I do?

Posted on 5/11/2009 3:34:00 PM by Anonymous

God bless every one. Iam a single mother who I just find out that my daughter of 14 yrs is cutting herself and she is depressed, and doesn't know why. Im a mother who always "well I thought that i was there for her" but she doesn't like being with me or every talkin g to me about anything, and Im trying to find out help for her or program she can go to and I dont find anything.PLEASE TO ALL THE PARENTS HELP YOU'R KIDS PLEASE .... I love my daughter so much and I dont know what to do.

Posted on 5/11/2009 12:09:00 PM by Anonymous

Im 17 years old about to be 18 last year i lost my boyfriend he was my best friend it was hard for me to deal with i was so depressed i used to cut every day my parents paid no attention to the cutts until one day they saw them all the way up my arm, they thought i was crazy and psychotic. I calmed doen eventually and just cried myself to sleep everyday its been a year i have a new boyfriend but its not the same i want my old one back im so depressed still and my parents dont think i need help they think its just a phase help??

Posted on 5/10/2009 7:13:00 PM by Anonymous

Im 15 years old and in only a month the way i look at life changed dramatically. Im an A+ student and still am. But every day i start to cry for no reason in school, home and on the street. I feel that i dont belong in this world and that i should die. i have constant headaches and stomachaches for no reason at all and feel tired even when i have done NOTHING the whole day!I barely eat and not because i think im fat but because every time i look at my plate i feel like im gonna faint and just get sick, one meal a day has become enough for me. I feel like im stupid although my grades are extremely high and i just dont see the point in living at all. I feel like im just not good enough for this world and that i am a horrible person. I dont want to believe i have depression because maybe its just temporary sadness, since im not going to tell anyone how i feel my friends say i look sad but they say its probabaly because im tired and my parents...forget it im not giving them more of my problems. and it's been like this for 2 months.Even if its just temporary sadness i really wish i could change this.please help

Posted on 5/9/2009 7:10:00 PM by Anonymous

I am 16 years old and have never been so unhappy in my entire life. I am the least assuming person with depression. I am outgoing and generally happy on the outside.I am a three season varisty athelete. I make people laugh and cover my unhappiness up with a smile. I have plenty of friends and one best friend who is suicidal and I will always be there for her and love her but with everything she goes through I would never want to burden her with my problems. I don't talk to my parents and when i get home i go up to my room and dont come down. I cry almost everyday when I get home and everynight before I go to sleep. I have awful grades and i just don't seem to care or try. People say I can do better but I know that I can't. I have been living a lie since i entered high school and no one understands the pain i go through inside. There are days when I wish that I were dead. One, to get away from all the stress of life. And two, for people to feel the pain i have. I realize how selfish that is and I dont know why i think that. I do not have a horrible life and i should be happy compared to the lives of others but i cant seem to be happy. I am tired of living a lie and dying on the inside. It hurts even more to pretend that I am happy. I don't ever want to say i have depression but i hate being unhappy. I need help.

Posted on 5/8/2009 8:20:00 PM by Anonymous

To the single mother who posted on 1/29/2008 2:24:00: Here's what you need to do. For the next thirty days, every morning when you get up, the first thing you do is wake your daughter up. Maybe crawl in bed with her. Maybe hug her. And look deep in her eyes and tell her you love her. That you think she is beautiful, and she is the most important thing in your life. Don't even make like there's anything wrong. For the first five days or ten days it's gonna be tough. But in 30 days, or 20 days or 25 days, it will change your life. And it will change your daughter's life. It's unconditional love.

Posted on 5/7/2009 11:14:00 PM by Anonymous

i am 16 years old, seventeen in june. i know all too well what its like to be suicidal or depressed, all last year and all my freshman year i was so horridly depressed that i didnt even recognize myself, id like to say that i am happy now, but, i cant without lying. in the past year ive lost a best friend (gained a new one) nearly flunked out of highschool and am feeling ever increasing pressure from my parents. so i recieved my junior paper and immediatly decided to do it on suicide. i thought maybe, just maybe i can reach out to someone through my paper, like my friend and ex-pastor, mark, did for me i dont exactly know the point in which i stopped wanting to die but, i know now that suicide isnt the answer, EVER! i wish so hard every day that things would get easier for me, but so far no luck....im absolutly head over heels in love with an amazing guy and my friendships are stronger than ever. yet still i feel as if something is missing! although im going through sort of a rough time right now i just wanted to let people know that they arent alone in this f-ed up place called earth!!! remember that no matter how bad things seem no matter how much it seems like things will never get better, there is always at least one person that cares. and if you commit suicide you never know what it may do to that person....it could drive them to kill them selves too...so. remember. no matter what , you always have SOMEONE!!!! <3 <3 <3

Posted on 5/7/2009 12:42:00 PM by Anonymous

i am doing a project on teen depression, easy topic for me because i have had alot of experience with it, not for myself but for a friend of my and family, i know when people say "i have a friend who..." this isnt the case i really do have a friend who was just like everyone else who left a comment, she tried to kill her self so many times, and it scared me, i couldnt do anything because we lived in two totally different towns. and i didnt know her address to call the cops. i could have lost her so many times, i didnt know how to help her but to just listen, i didnt know about the national suicide prevention help line. i had a friend help me with her, it couldnt handle it, it was late and she was going to jump off a bridge, the other friend talked me throught it, i knew what to do but this time was different...she was TOO serious. another time her grandma called a friend to find her and i was the only one who knew where she went, to the bridge, i told the friend who came on her computer where she went and she found her by a tree throwing up, no where near the bridge, i was happy someone found her and that she was still alive, but its not like i can keep her safe all the time, im scared im going to lose her one day before her time is up. and im scared for all of you who want to commit suicide, here is one person who WANTS YOU TO LIVE i dont care that i dont know you, i want you to live, life is a special thing dont waste it.

Posted on 5/5/2009 2:25:00 AM by Anonymous

last year i spent the first three months of my school year, laying awake for several hours, crying and finding everything wrong with my life and never focusing on what was good in my life. at school im loud and overly energetic, so nobody will notice anything. i just tell people im tired. still, this year i'm doing the same things. no matter how long i sleep, im always tired. and i've become so angry with everyone and everything this year, its unbearable. i've found i hate people and the society in general pisses me off so much. the only thing i get joy out of these days is playing volleyball, but even today i find that when i go home from a tournament, the only things i can focus on are the things i did poorly. my grades are incredible compared to most of my school, but they never seem to be good enough for me. i lie to my parents about small things, because im always afraid of being yelled at. im a good kid. i dont drink or do any drugs. and i dont sneak around or exhibit sexual behavior. i know i need help, but im not willing to talk to my mom, because i know she'll yell at me about it...what do i do?

Posted on 5/4/2009 1:01:00 AM by Anonymous

well....I am a 15 year old girl with a lot on my mind. I've been depressed for a very long time. I remember trying to drown myself once when i was either 8 or 9. I use keys or something kinda sharp to scratch my my wrists when I'm feeling hurt or mad. I don't want the pain of actually making myself bleed or I would really cut. I was very close to killing myself tonight. In fact I was considering getting a gun from my dad's gun cabinet. I have calmed down by reading stories from others like me on this website. To know I'm not the only "freak", as many people would say helps a lot. What doesn't help are my parents. I am always getting screamed at for doing nothing. I came home crying today and my mother asked what was wrong. When i said nothing and went outside to get my lawn mower (to do something to get my mind off kiling myself) she screamed at me to put it away and get in the house. When i came in I got screamed at some more. S ocurrently I am not allowed to go anywehre for 2 weeks. I was the closest i ever was to kiling myself tonight. When you're sitting in the dark in your closet with a razor in your hands, you truely know how far over the edge you are. Only one person knows I'm suicidal, but he can't really help me much. I just need someone to talk to. Some form of help. So I decided to try this.

Posted on 5/3/2009 9:30:00 PM by Anonymous

The below comment is not funny. Depression should be taken seriously. One out of 6 teens is depressed. My son has all of the symptoms, has had therapy and it is a constant battle to have him do his school work. Depression is a very common problem and should not be taken lightly

Posted on 4/30/2009 3:18:00 PM by Anonymous

so... i have a feeling that i am depressed. and recently was told by my best friend that i was bi (bisexual). i had thought about that for a really long time and came to the conclusion that i was in love with my bestfriend..... :( my other friend told me to tell her. Because my bff was bi too i thought that maybe ew could start dating. so i told her. after i did everything changed. she didnt talk to me as much, wouldnt answer my txt messages and was constantly telling me about this mysterious girl she liked ( i always hoped it was me ). then me and her got into a humongous fight!!! it was horrible! i felt that it was all my fault so i started to cutt my wrists. they were really deep to. i lied to my parents and said that i hurt myself on my locker.... and now, all i think about is the fact that i wanna get with my best friend ( were not fighting anymore) and that i have the urge to cutt, and think alot about killing myself. i just hate my life. im also fat.... 220 pounds and 15 years old. IT DOESNT HELP!!!!

Posted on 4/28/2009 6:48:00 PM by Anonymous

HI my name Cookie. My life hasn't been going to well. My mom thinks i'm depressed and says that i need to go see a physciatrist after meeting with him. My aunt says the sameand that i have the symptoms and i'm getting fat.. but they haven't talked with eachother about it. I think i am ... I've lost complete intrest for photography the one thing that used to keep me going. Now it just doesn't matter. During Spring Break i met this guy online.. im not supposed to have a Myspace but i have one anyways.. i met up with him once and we text all the time. Hes really nice. But sometimes he doesnt talk to me which maKes me think he doesn't like me .. when i ask him he says he likes me.. it confuses me. SO on top of my depression this confusion makes me go crazy. I dont know what the bright side of life is anymore. I'm not sure if there ever was one.

Posted on 4/28/2009 3:11:00 PM by Anonymous

I don't really think I have any reason to be depressed, but I'm starting to think I am. Almost everything -- and everyone -- irritates me; I don't like spending time with my friends or my family; I'm starting to hate things I used to like to do, like drawing and writing; it's hard for me to get to sleep and I don't like staying still for too long; and sometimes, I feel like my life's pointless and I already know how it's going to end (I'm not suicidal, I just don't know what to do anymore). I don't know how to feel anymore, and I'm afraid of getting hurt. Why can't I just get over it?

Posted on 4/26/2009 11:38:00 AM by Anonymous

Hi, I am a 13 year old girl in the 7th grade and my life has been hard since the last year or so. . . First of all, I am a mormon and, if you don't know what that is, we are a religion like you. There is nothing different! Why can't people understand that?!? People assume and think we are different things than what we really are and think that since we are different, some people think we are bad people. I go to a school that has 6th, 7th, and 8th graders. There is one mormon in each grade, but I don't think they're really into the church. . . I love my church so very much and I sometimes think that there's no one else out there like me. I want to know that there is SOMEONE like me. At least one! And as much as I love my church, I hate foul language, or as some teens say, cussing. I hate it! It makes me uncomfortable. I'm called terrible names and cussed out and flipped off just because I don't like it. No one has respect and I practically cry myself to sleep every night. I feel like no one understands me or my problems. I feel addicted to a song I recently discovered called, "Never Alone" by Barlowgirls. I feel I can relate to it easily and I think that's why I love it so much. Does anyone know what I can do? I can't run away from anything and I'm falling apart. I can't mend my broken heart. It's shattered in tiny pieces scattered all along the floor and no one can find all the pieces to fix it up. . . Does anyone understand at least a little of what is happening? I don't like the changes that are happening and sometimes I feel like there is no point to this world. I can't find anyway to feel better. What can I do?

Posted on 4/24/2009 9:54:00 PM by Anonymous

The the 12 yr old girl and Dezirai Rollins - I'm a mom of 2 daughter 12 and 16 yrs old. I just found out about my oldest daughter cutting herself, 2 days ago. It is very disturbing for a parent to see their child to go through stress and anxiety. And even worse to see self harm/cuts on her body! The best way that I know how to help as a parent is definately to listen to my child. If she is not ready to talk to me, I suggested that she talk to the school counsellor. All conversations with the counsellor is confidential...and VERY VERY HELPFUL! PLEASE girls...keep trying to talk to someone!! That will be the only way to help yourself. There are people out there that want to help! I want to help my daughter very much... I also suffer from depression but I talked to a proffessional and now I'm feeling much better for it! DON'T GIVE UP!! KEEP TRYING!! A mom who cares!! Mo

Posted on 4/23/2009 3:42:00 PM by Anonymous

hi im a 12 yr old girl and i feel that i really shouldnt be on this earth. because my life has sucked since i started 6th grade. my friends ignore me and when i do something to help them they take the blame for it.my mom says when me and my bro leave the house she is goin 2 divorce my dad. cuz she is in so much pain right now. i think of the life i want to be and how strong i can dream i am. i really try to cut my self and yes it feels good. but i get angry easily and i just start yelling I WANNA DIE I WANNA DIE. and since i cuss alot at school since my parents wont even let my say freakin i have to hold that in 2 which puts even more pressure on me i really dont have anyone 2 talk about what i really think this has really helped alot. cuz my friend in febuary went 2 a mental institution cuz she lost her memory cuz her doctor overdosed her. life has been hard but i still want 2 full fill it.

Posted on 4/23/2009 12:18:00 PM by Anonymous

I have a 17 year old daughter that was molested for 2 years of her life (7 years old -9 years old), she kept it to herself until she turned 15, prior to her telling her older sister about the molestation, she was "cutting" and now she is a very rebellious child. I am not sure what avenues to take to help her out. I have taken her to psychologists and she did not "feel comfortable talking about it", this is a girl who loved to rodeo and now has not rode her horse in a year. She lies everytime I ask her where she is and what she is doing, I know that she is indulging in drinking and smoking pot, perhaps taking other drugs,this is a far cry from who she was. At times I want to confront the person who damaged her, he was 15 when he first begin to molest my daughter, he was someone I have known since he was a baby. I want to make him "pay" for destroying my daughters' life!

Posted on 4/21/2009 1:50:00 AM by Anonymous

To...I have a question...I'm the mom of a seventeen year-old who is very depressed. Please, call your friend's parents and let them know. If you can't do that, call your local Contact Crisis center and let them know and they can call his parents. This is not a question of loyalty or betrayal. It is life or death. Choose life. Take care and you are a good friend.

Posted on 4/20/2009 11:20:00 PM by Anonymous

I have a question....My friend is 18yrs old and just had a horrible breakup with his girlfriend, who he loved more than anything. He wasn't in great emotional shape to begin with, but she helped lift a lot of his depression. When she left he became more withdrawn and even more depressed. He was sleeping all the time and constantly "sick." I have clinical depression and I'm on medication, so I know how it feels and how it looks. Then I got an awful shock. 2days ago he texted me saying that he tried to commit suicide. He told me not to tell, that he was fine, and that he stopped himself because he realized that it wasn't worth it. When I talked to him face to face he told me everything was fine, that he wasn't going to do it again, that i should relax, and just forget about it. He told me also that he felt better, happier that he attempted it. I don't know what to do. If I tell his parents i fear i will lose his friendship, and being depressed myself, i can't bear the thought of that but i don't want to miss a crucial cry for help that hes trying to cover up. Please help me! i feel like its a lose/lose situation if i say something and its not really that serious then i will have betrayed his trust over nothing, but if i don't say anything and he does kill himself i will lose my best friend and would never be able to forgive myself. Please help!!

Posted on 4/20/2009 8:15:00 PM by Anonymous

how do you tell your parents you think you might be depressed?

Posted on 4/19/2009 3:01:00 PM by Anonymous

my sister is depressive and it is hurting our whole family. Im so sick of having her do this to us, and sometimes i just want to hurt her, she yells at us and hurts us and never eats and her grades are getiing bad, i dont know what to do and as a 13 yr old i dont feel as though i should have to do anything. But my mother cries all the time and my dad has a extreme temper and so im the only one left. Both my mother and my sister have been visiting a counselor but it hasnt gotten any better. THey always talk about getting another counselor but so far nothing has happened. I want to call someone and ask them for help but im just too scared to do it...im scared that i might become depressed too and then there would be noone left

Posted on 4/18/2009 11:19:00 AM by Anonymous

I'm depressed. It all happened so suddenly. Worst of all, I handle it with food. I hate myself everyday.

Posted on 4/17/2009 6:16:00 PM by Anonymous

I'm depressed. I'm a teen. My mother thinks I'm over dramatic and constantly lowers my self esteem with her words. If you were to look for me in a moving crowd, you may never suspect I'm a depression victim. I seem bubbly and happy, but I cry everyday or what I cannot change. I only wish I were prettier, had better grades, or even had talent. I want someone to help me. No one ever seems to do. When I speak it out to my mother, it only makes things worse. Just a moment ago, she told me I was fat and ugly, it hurt so much. I'm crying now. I don't want to die. I don't want to give up. But, what else is there to do when the person that is supposed to help you, completely ignores you?

Posted on 4/17/2009 6:11:00 PM by Anonymous

I read through all these comments and I am amazed of what some of you have gone through and what some of you are still going through right now. I am a firm believer that some people should not be allowed to have children. Every child deserves a loving, safe, nurturing, and educational environment. Depression is not something easy to handle, however, I want you to think about something. There are millions of children out there in this world who have it a lot worse than you might have it. We always think that our situation is the worse and that everyone elses is so much better. There are children in this world who live in wars, who die of malnutrition, who are being sex slaves to grown men, who work for 2 cents 12 hours a day. Open your minds and believe that each one of you can make a difference in this world. This post might sound nothing to you right now, but don't let things get you down. Have faith and believe in yourself. We all make choices in our lives that we live with, make your choice and let it be a good one.

Posted on 4/16/2009 8:12:00 PM by Anonymous

I started with burning. I made a brand out of wire and stuck it in the flame of a candle until it glowed. I pressed it on my wrist and I really didn't even feel it. I was twelve when I did that. Then I used a wood burning tool. Then I started cutting, but I cut on my palms, which was actually not very noticable. The object was pain, not a suicide attempt. It was like a test to see if I still felt anything. Recently when I've been driving to school at night, if I just didn't turn and went off the hillside, would it work? Would it kill me? How long would it take anyone to notice on that winding road? When they did notice, would anyone care? I'm a good student, an athlete, an artist, a pianist, but why do I feel this way? I don't understand. How did this all start? -Seventeen and Going Insane

Posted on 4/15/2009 9:37:00 PM by Anonymous

I have all of the symptoms of depressioin listed here and then some, i cut myself and can stop. I think I have depression, but idk if meds willl help me. I have gone to numerous therepists and often think about suicide. none of my old friends take me seriously, they judge me, and are worried and scared of and for me. i need alot of help, but idk what to do- a teenage girl

Posted on 4/14/2009 4:59:00 PM by Anonymous

hi.im seventeen. ive been suffering from depression since my grandmother had past five years ago. the first two-three years i lived in shock, it hit me around the fourth year... pritty hard. at first i wasnt shure if i was depressed, but i knew something was up. i researched more about depression and several other physcological conditions. I showed symptoms of depression and some others. Im not sure bout the others but pritty shur about the depression. no one advise me of even though of me having this conditions. i found out myself. i've also concluded that no, its not all in my head, its real and i am depressed, not because i want to be or think i am. I've had no help whatsoever. ive made a little theory of trying to solve it on my own.

Posted on 4/13/2009 11:17:00 PM by Anonymous

i have been cutting myslef for over 2 years now and no body know but i can't hide my depression anymore it's just not fair that my parents don't care about me because of the way i dress and i way my makeup looks they just push me aside like some old toy or somthing my mom and dad say i'm worthless on a dailey basis it hurts alot because they are supposed to be the two people you can trust the most but not in my case the only person i trust is my boyfriend and i only trust him because he cuts him slef too

Posted on 4/13/2009 11:43:00 AM by Anonymous

bless the beast and the children for in this world they have no choice, they have no voice

Posted on 4/12/2009 10:08:00 AM by Anonymous

Yo dude i was like the best person before this girl showed up in my life nowsince i ben with her i cant ever get her off my mind i love her soo much, she treated me like crap during the first part of our relationship then i started to gradually slip away then one day i wanted to break up because my parents were not letting me do anything at all and would scream at me for being with her, so me and her went on a break then she all of a sudden starts seeinga foreign exchange student. My heart is so broke she promised tomarry me my parents havent got much better to the point to where they are trying to pick my gfs and wont consider me, i have thought about suicide many times recently i wake up every hour and puke my stomach and chest hurt my heart always beats fast and im really tired of this idk what to do

Posted on 4/11/2009 7:23:00 AM by Anonymous

Heyy im only 13 but i am still a teen and i have run away a few times and do have thought of suicide my parents always abused me no mwtter who was watching i hate it so much and most of the time i need a break but cant find one family to me isnt family they may think they know me but all they really know is my name and where i live WOW that sums up Rachael eveyone and i have to cry myself to sleep eveynight it hurts to talk sometimes and i wake up with eyeliner everywhere and its hard to deal with my family rejects me i cant go anywhere with them they hate the way i dress and the way i do my makeup i just want to escape...for the people that really do love me thank you for being there always when i nedd you also my mom yells at me for listening to the music i do...all of my friends think they have it bad but they dont because they have everything they could ever ask for and i dont Rachael, 13

Posted on 4/10/2009 2:54:00 PM by Anonymous

Hi, I'm 15. I live with only my mom. I grew up with two older siblings who were running away and fighting drug abuse constantly. We moved constantly. I always said I wouldn't be like them, but I find it really hard to keep my promise because I really feel like my family is not really a family. They know my name but they don't know anything about me. They think that I write and draw really bad things, and listen to bad music. They don't ever really ask me questions about how I'm doing. I think maybe they think I'm weird and that I'm just like every other teen. I don't even feel like my mom has a right to make rules for me because she doesn't take the time to care for or love me. My favorite place to be is in a dark car when it's raining, and I can just cry all I want with no one knowing. I spontaniously cry a lot and I never know why. It's not like I'm thinking of anything. It just feels really good to cry. I know that I'm extremely lonely! I don't feel like I'll ever find love in my life and even my friends who say they like me only like something about me that isn't really there. I guess I act like someone else around my friends because I don't think they would like who I really am. I would be really boring to them. I have cut myself once. It was ok but nothing exciting. I would never commit suicide because I believe in God and I think that suicide is considered murder. Therefore I can't die, but I can't live either. I'm stuck in a completely emotionless state of being. A dark, lonely void! All I want to do is LOVE someone! I will find my refuge in GOD..... Since he's beyond human and doesn't love like a human, maybe He'll love me with a love beyond my understanding. Leah, age 15

Posted on 4/10/2009 10:09:00 AM by Anonymous

Hey guys im 16 years old going tobe 17 soon im a foster kid and i suffred from depression my whole life i had it when i was 6 i been threw alot in my life first thing my mom and dad got a divorce when i was 2 years old my dad didnt see me born my mom is bipolar she gave me up when i was 3 she didnt want me she put me in foster care i was raped and molisted by my foster parents my foster dad was a drugy and my foster mom was a sex addict i live in a small town wit drugies and hard drinkeres i hate my life so bad i been kicked out of high school for fighting and selling weed i still have depression i tried to hang myself in my closet wit my belt it didnt work i cut myself i have 30 scars on both arms my life aint getting better high school is bad im back in school but its not good i have depression cause i was born wit it it wont go away my firend jessi did suicide right in front of me wen i was 7 she cut her neck i witnessed it i tired killing my self alot i cant sleep i cant eat i suffered from mental illensse my brain doesnt work right im bipolar i dont talk to anybody my unlce john did a overdoes on bunch of pills caus his wife lieft him when i was living wit him my sis nd my cuz both have aids they got that last month my brother is in jail 4 rapping a 9 year old and having cocaine and weed and crystal meth in his car and stoled a engagement ring from a person in washington my lil brother died from cancer last year and my big brother he was 18 did weed but killed himself cause he couldnt take it im a female and rite now i have a bf thats helping me threw this and getting threw life and i take pills 4 sleeping i did my first overdoes last year over bunch of pills whatever i can fine i have done 35 overdes over the past last year and this year got any questions just text me and talk to me my numer is 1740-350-0515 my bf is 18 and amazing we been together for past month and is heling me threw this pain and i had a bf name tj conners that hurt me badly let me tell ya he cheated on me everytime we dated and did horriable things to hurt me but now i have amazing guy well lata text me if u want to.pece. he made me do a overdoes in virgina beach when i was away and he is in marietta later my name is amber.

Posted on 4/9/2009 2:25:00 PM by Anonymous

Hi there, I am almost turning 17 and I live with my two younger brothers and my mother. I suffer from depression almost everyday, and I always isolate myself in my room. I am sensitive from light and noise. I play the piano, which calms me for a while, but I start crying for no reason. I don't know how to talk to my mother, she doesn't understand one thing of how I feel, that's why I keep everything inside my heart. I've cut myself once, not long ago, I have scars now. I look at them and I remember how sad I was. It's hard not to cry while writing this comment... My father left us when I was 6 years old, and didn't care about anything but his own matter. I visited him a few times every week but I moved to another province, so I am not seeing him nor calling him. My sister that was 1 year and a half older than me was a really depressed teen, she had suffered so much from the break up between my mother and my father. She didn't know which way to choose, or what was good for her. At the age of 12 to 17, she never talked to my mother about how she felt, she was always disrespectful and rebelious. I wanted to be with her all the time because I felt like she was the only one who would understand me, but she would rather stay with her friends because she thought I couldn't understand. She tried to kill herself more than once and suffered from bulimia for a while. She is now 18 and lives byherself, far from me, far from everybody, but now I understand what she had been through, she suffered a lot. As for me, I listen to gothic rock when I'm depressed, I do not talk to my mother often, I do not hang out with my friends. I avoid them or people...often, but I love them, I just think I am not entertaining them enough and I don't talk much I've had many suicidal thoughts, but I thought that if I did that, I would hurt my family. I try to think positive, but it's always coming back. I suffer from bulimia, and sometimes and stay without eating 2 or 3 days, my mother thinks I stopped doing it, but I just can't, it's too hard for me. I am lonely, never had someone to love or to hold, and tell them that I loved them I just want to be free. I know there are so many teens going through what I've had been trhough. I hope you guys have a better life in the next coming years, I feel your pain. *Much love*

Posted on 4/6/2009 11:14:00 AM by Anonymous

Im not one that is suicidal or anything like that but to me, life has no meaning. I think that we just live to die so why even go through all this pain if one day we are just gonna die, and nothing is even gonna matter anymore. The people in your life now are just going to forget about you until they are telling a story starting with 'remember when..???' Everyday, someone else screws something else up and causes me pain. I have cut my wrists before and yeah, it made me feel so much better... for the moment. But now everytime I look down at my scars, Im reminded of what everyone stands for. So the pain just keeps coming back. I am 14 years old, almost 15. and I would say that I lived a pretty goood life, my siblings we in and out of jail and rehab as i was growing up, but i have learned from theyre mistakes. I just hate life and am tired of living it.... :(

Posted on 4/3/2009 3:32:00 PM by Anonymous

This could help lol, my email... caroleyesa@sbcglobal.net

Posted on 3/31/2009 6:49:00 PM by Anonymous

To all of those who have posted about their lives, I completely understand. I was raped and molested at the age of 10-13, I lived with my single alcoholic mother who was never home and cared more about her looks then her children. I became pregnant at the age of 15, and just wanted to end it all ! What was the point no one cared about what i was going through or how I had felt...They looked at me as if I was nothing more then a loser. Then I realized something.....I was put here for something other then ending it all at the age of 15 ! I had a purpose even if the world didn't seem to think I did...Screw them ! this is my life and I will prove(not to them but to myself) that I can make something of what I was given no matter what! I am now 34, the baby I had @ 15 is turning 18...By the way I raised him on my own... I also have 3 more children that are thriving...I work with troubled youth in the school system...And the best thing of all>>> I found that even though life cuts you down and rubs your face in the mud>>>You can still stand and brush it off ! So for all of you who are thinking that no one cares>>>> well you are wrong! Not only do I care about you, but you care about yourself or you would not be here posting..... You are your future....not those around you! I hope this helps, please think about what you will have 10-20 years from now, and not what you will have tomorrow! I would love to help who ever I can...If you want to chat or just need a pick me up, send me an email. I will answer them all...it may take a day or two to get back...but I will! I wish you all the best for your future! Love Carol

Posted on 3/31/2009 6:45:00 PM by Anonymous

I am thirteen. I have had a screwed up life. from when i was a infant to 8 years old my "dad" raped and abused me. My mom has shingles in the right side of her head and tends to take EVERYTHING out on me. Half of my family cant stand to be around me. I am Extremely bi-polar. I am depressed everyday and it never gets better. I put on a fake smile to convince my little brother & sister, and myself life is worth living. Bbut im not so sure anymore. I dont see he point of me being alive at all. But i want to be strong. I always put myself down and i have had my heart broke millions of times. No one wants me. Im not good enough for anyone. I am about to give up. no one hears my call for help so it seems i dont need it. I am going to take matters in my own hands. To write love on her arms!!!!!!!!!!!

Posted on 3/31/2009 10:33:00 AM by Anonymous

I am the one who made the most recent comment please if you have any suggesstions that can help me email me irvin_adams@tmail.com

Posted on 3/30/2009 9:23:00 PM by Anonymous

I am thirteen years old and depressed for multiple reasons. My whole life so far has been in my words screwed up. From ages 3-7 I was told that someone was my father and I called them daddy because I was an adellescent.at age 12 I had to take a DNA test to know for a fact who was my dad. In that time my mom and my grandmother were fighting over my custody. From ages 9-13.3 years of age my mom was dating . Just last year I saw in the front yard my mom suffer from domestic violence. They went to court a restraining order was filed then dropped . By then I started cutting myself. Now, my mom just recently told me that she is back with this human he is no longer a man in my eyes because a man does not hit on a woman. And also just recently I tried several acts of suicide and rethought some of them. But I also cut up some pictures of my mom because she did not have to back with him. She didn't have to.! And now mainly because of the last several years I am now hurting myself both physically and mentally.

Posted on 3/30/2009 9:15:00 PM by Anonymous

I am fifteen years old and do not have a good relationship with my parents at all. Everytime i turn around it seems that one of them is yelling at me for something. I am the oldest kid in the house and I have 3 younger siblings who get all my parents attention. Nothing seems good enough to them and I'm a straight A student who wants to get into law school. F.Y.I... to anyone out there that is thinking about cutting themselves DON'T!!! I did. and it helped,yes but now it's something that I have to live with. I went through and am still going through a depression phase. I can't stand being around my parents or my siblings. I wouldn't wish this scenario on my worst enemy.

Posted on 3/30/2009 7:47:00 PM by Anonymous

I am depressed and I'm 18 almost 19. I feel like I don't belong in this world. I have alot of problems in which i'm going to tell you about. When I was 7 or 8 I caught my dad cheating on my step mom, and not but a few months later they got into a devorce. So my siblings and I moved in with our new step mom and lived with them for a while. But one day when I was 9 years old I was laying in bed and my two step brothers would not be quiet so I sat up and told them that if they didn't they would get into trouble. Then my dad opens the door holding a belt with huge metal pieces on it. He went and hit my older brother and than he came and hit me. I got hit by one of the metal pieces on my rigtht thigh. The next day I got up to go get dressed and there was a bruise. So later on I moved in with my real mom and step dad. I didn't know at the time but I would soon come to find out that the reason I have gone to 7 high schools in the past two years is because my mom smokes mary jane and so does my dad, but my dad also pops pills. The stress and depression is affecting my school work and my happiness. When I was 13 I was trying to commit suicide I even took up cutting my arms. I have pretty much moved everywhere in the United States do to the fact they can't keep a job because of their addiction to drugs. But when my parents are off of the drugs they are aggressive and mean. My step dad has left bruises up and down my arms before and my mom just does the normal screaming at everyone and anyone. I cry myself to sleep everynight wondering what I could have done to change my life to where it would not end up like this. I'm even thinking of becoming a counciler due to all the stuff I been through I could probably help someone else that might be going through the same stuff I did. I always get flash backs of the past when I sleep and which changes my sleeping paterns. This is my life and I think that no one deserves to go through the stuff that I did.

Posted on 3/30/2009 10:41:00 AM by Anonymous

so useful thanx

Posted on 3/27/2009 3:13:00 PM by Anonymous

Im am depressed and i am only 15. I feel i have my whole life ahead of me but i dont see the point in living it i make everybodies life a living hell. Even my mother hates me The Barbiie

Posted on 3/26/2009 9:19:00 PM by Anonymous

I love life DEEP inside all these other pointless things mainly in school. Next year ill be 13. I feel like my childhood is sliping me because im so focused on school allt the time every day

Posted on 3/24/2009 10:22:00 PM by Anonymous

so i have OCD and im 14 years old. right now my life seems to suck i am in two plays so you think i would be lucky. but all of a sudden i feel like plays are taking me no where,and i want to take up cheer, but my ocd is killing me. a lot of people think im annoying moy olnly real friends dont go to my school and the boy of my dreams is a dick. tipical high school. i am afraid my ocd is turning into depression. i really cant tall anyone this so this blog is really helping me get it out there.

Posted on 3/23/2009 6:38:00 PM by Anonymous

I think that i am starting to become depressed. I am 15 years old and I don't feel comfortable in my own skin. I feel that I'm overweight when people tell me that I'm not. I sometimes want to cut myself. i don't know why. Can someone give me some ways to help me lose weight so I can stop suffering.

Posted on 3/21/2009 5:27:00 PM by Anonymous

I stumbled on this website. I am a songwriter/performer. I was looking for statistics about teen depression & suicide, etc., for a song that I sing. Then I got wrapped up into reading all these posts. I'm 42 years old, and when I was a teenager, I experienced many of the things I'm reading about here. I was lonely, just moved to a new place where I was a loser, my dad was an alcoholic, my mom had various mental illnesses, I wanted to die, etc. But somehow I made it, and I have to say that I'm REALLY glad I didn't killl myself. Believe it or not, things do get better. They started getting better a long time ago--you won't have to wait until you're my age! Being a teen can be really shitty. Then it gets better. Just hang on, listen to music, find friendship in animals (they're great friends), and hold on. You'll make it. ~Kris

Posted on 3/19/2009 1:30:00 AM by Anonymous

i just moved to a area and i havent made any friends. No one talks to me . i miss everything of what my life used to be. My mother and i have been fighting all the time over little things. to her i am a failure she even said it aloud ive been crying too many times. i dont have a drive to go on anymore.my grades slipped and i am beginning to belive i am a failure . ive been cutting and just getting angry really easily. when im angry i eat . a little too much.i have a hard time sleeping and sometimes i cant wake up and i dont want to wake up.whatever mymom does it irritates me. and i just want everything to end. help.

Posted on 3/17/2009 2:05:00 AM by Anonymous

I suffer from depression and I wear rubber bands on my wrist to help me out. I just pop myself. It works usually. i gotta pop alot sometimes. i hardly cut anymore. I didn't realize i was depressed at first. i thought it was a stage. but i went to the dr. and was indeed suffering from depression. i've got medicine, rubber bands, a counciler, and most importantly GOD. i've learned to see that i am a temple of GOD and if i harm myself..... well you get it. My name is Lizzie.

Posted on 3/16/2009 12:51:00 PM by Anonymous

Bless everyone who writes all of those nice comments..... They saved my life

Posted on 3/11/2009 9:31:00 PM by Anonymous

Im scared. I get made fun of a lot by my friends but I take it because there all I have. I often get thoughts of suicide and self harm. HELP I FEEL ALONE!!!

Posted on 3/11/2009 9:24:00 PM by Anonymous

For the person who feel depressed but doesn't want to tell your parents. You can start with the school counselor,or even go to a church where there is a trusted pastor available. Even a youth minister would be good. Or if you have an adult friend you feel you can trust,that could help you find the help you need. Good luck.

Posted on 3/11/2009 3:03:00 PM by Anonymous

I often feel depressed and have thoughts of suicide, Hpwever there is NO way I could tell my parents. It just wouldn't be excpeted. Plus they are part of the reason I feel this way. Where should I go to get help? I'm scared and don't know what to do...

Posted on 3/11/2009 2:42:00 AM by Anonymous

Hey to all of you who care, which is pretty surprising if u do... My name is Kayla and I am afraid of being alone. If I'm alone, I'll do things like: planning my own death, ways of committing suicide that aren't obvious, and writing a will and also cutting. I don't know why I'm so depressed.I cry all the time and I feel so strongly about ending my life. I'm almost 14 soon and I already have a guidance counseller/therapist. If you can think of any possibilitiesthat might helpmy negative self esteem, I'd really appreciate it. contact me at emo.scene.queen.69@hotmail.com or orangekitty77@hotmail.com you may want to e-mail both bcuz im on one and the other on and off. thanks for caring. you're a great person.

Posted on 3/7/2009 9:49:00 PM by Anonymous

im almost 13 iv been cuttin since about 11/12 cant quite remember.i find my cuts gettin worse as each day passes,i find myself cutting EVERYTIME im upset/pissed last nite i cut myself for the first time in about 2 weeks,me and my mom havent been getting along very well at all,my sister enjoys getting me in trouble.ive been crying since tuesday because my sister got my clothes taken away.yesterday i got my phone shut off and got phisically/mentally abused my mom bit me and her bf hit me my mom also hurt my jaw,i attempted suiside,it didnt work,i find my grades being horrible my mom also called her bf my father last nite which made me cry harder,HE WILL NEVER BE MY FATHER!!!! i have been full of empty promisis all day and im finding myself not eating,i need advice someone give me help my emails kendrathedork@gmail.com

Posted on 3/7/2009 7:59:00 PM by Anonymous

Each and everyone of you are beautiful and life can be hard, you win some and you loose some you might fall but you have to get back up again. If your man or women leaves you then that is there lost. Yes it will hurt like heck, but at the same time it happened for a reason, for someone who deserves you to come along. As far as your parents, do what you need to do especially the young ones so in a few years you can get out... go to school get your grades get a job and get out.... Love is beautiful and it should between two people you can never make someone love you, actually have you ever asked yourself do you love yourself, because if the answer is yes then you should never be DEPRESSED, smile even if it hurts, you never know who may need it. Life is also a blessing live it to the fullest while you can... Tomorrow is not promised to anyone, and also watch what you ask for. Cutting yourself taking pills to harm yourself will never be the key. If its not your time to go then you may end up off worst then you were where and have to live with the scares and pain for the rest of your life. LOVE YOURSELF FIRST !

Posted on 3/6/2009 2:44:00 PM by Anonymous

Life is a learning experience and you have to take control. Don't blame other people for your actions. Life is hard but God will never put on you more than you can handle. He is challenging you. He wants you to seek him and no one else. When times are heard call on the name of Jesus and believe in him. Don't let the devil have victory over you. He wants you to be weak and depressed, why ? because is you have faith in God and believe that if you call on him that you won't be unhappy and that is what he wants you to be. Jesus loves you and whenever your feeling down and out call on the name of the lord and watch how things work out. I am not a church person but i have come a long way and wanted to give up, but i asked myself why am i so weak and cannot take control, and it was because i didnt have God in my life. I am not a saved person but as long as i have faith and leave it in Gods hands i have learned that i will let him fight my battles instead of taking it on alone. Luv Ya

Posted on 3/6/2009 2:28:00 PM by Anonymous

Ok, I never actually tried cutting myself because I thought it was stupid, but I used to think about killing myself. Pretty knife, right? Haha. I eventually found out that much of my depression stemmed from some ADHD medicine I was taking, Concerta. If youre taking some kind of medicine or drugs or something, cut it out for a while. Unless you REALLY need the meds. Drugs don't count. Take some mediine for depression, though. It might help. It might seem like your life is "over," but really it's just starting. Also you shouldn't get depressed over other people because it's YOUR life. You are you. They are them. Life goes on.

Posted on 3/5/2009 9:09:00 AM by Anonymous

I've been having a rough time lately I was recently dumped by my girlfriend that i loved so much. She says that she became scared around me because of my anger I did not realize i came across this way I trying this as a last resort to get back with I need help to control my anger so i dont hurt the ones i love anymore

Posted on 3/3/2009 12:25:00 AM by Anonymous

To anyone who may be reading this, I am not a member of this website. But I thought that I did have depression for a couple of months, i wasn't very sure. I myself am a teen, 14, and I HAVE thought just a LITTLE of it. Let me just tell you, if you are not SURE that you are depressed or if you are THINKING of suicide, than here are a couple of tips: -There will ALWAYS be one man that loves you, Jesus -Take DEEP breaths, and imagine ALL of your problems being exhaled out of your mind, and then take a deep breath and think of the ONE thing that used to ALWAYS make you happy -Consider the fact that if you DID commit suicide, than just think of all the people who KNOWS that they hurt you and how bad they WOULD feel. That being, since you SHOULD know that they would feel guilty, than that makes you more powerful than them, your not worthless! I hope those REALLY help you. Follow these tips at ANY time you get worked up or think of suicide. And if you don't know how to tell your parents or your gaurdian, (which is my case, your not alone), than just try to give them SIGNS so that they will eventually talk to you. One more thing, if you think that they don't care, or that your friends don't care, than consider trying to talk about someone you don't know, but don't RELY on them. I hope you get to feeling better, I love you!

Posted on 3/2/2009 7:55:00 PM by Anonymous

I have a daughter that just turned 15. I just found out she has been talking to a man (30?) she meet playing a game on the internet.(he lives in another state) we had been without a computer for a while so I guess they started takling on her cellphone. For the past 2 years her grades are sometimes barely passing, she is angery all the time and just seems so sad, unless she is talking to him! I feel like I have failed her. Why would she turn to such an older man? My daughter is also type 1 diabetic. I have asked her to stop talking to him, but now she is sneeking her calls. Maybe the police should be notified but I cant tell that he has done anything .

Posted on 3/2/2009 4:33:00 PM by Anonymous

My name doesn't matter for this. Here is my story. I know it may sound dumb, and childish, but i knew when i first laid eyes on this boy in grade 4, i knew he was the one. Yeah, we started dating, haha. It didnt matter that we were young. We loved eachother. But one day, it ended. No, the love didnt. But, there relationship did. That was in grade 5. To this day, i still do not know why. Anyway, without him, i thought i would die. Later in the year, gr5, he found another girl. It was horrible. By grade 6, i was still in love with him. I still am today. But when i was at the age of 11, i started to get depressed. I told myself, i didnt want this. I tried to stay away. I tried to chase him, tried to make him mine. I thought it would make the saddness go away. And boy, i was wrong. The harder i tried, the harder i fell for him. So, grade 7 was when i first cut myself to get the pain i felt inside to go away. I thought it worked. And it felt like it did. But i realized, it didnt. I got hooked on hurting myself. The last time i cut was in grade 8, when i was told to let out my feelings for this boy. I got really depressed, remembering the memories. So i did the thing i could only think of-the blade. I carved a heart into my wrist. It did not hurt, physically. What hurt was the reaction i got from him. The sadness in his eyes. It hurt me more. I knew it was wrong. I have not and will not cut anymore. I have a scar, and everytime i look at it, i feel horrible. People who are depressed, and cutting, thinking about suicide, starving themselves etc, should look for a way to make yourself happy, and hold it close to you as long as you can. Everytime i get a negative thought about the world, or myself, i think about him. I make myself stop because the love i have for him overpowers the pain i feel. Before, ive thought about suicide. But i realized, it would hurt my family and friends. And him. Just the thought of him crying, hurts me. Ever since the day he kissed me, he kissed away my cutting days. I have now found my way of getting out of hurting myself. If you do not have anyone to look to for joy-try a sport. Or a pet. Or some hobbie. Read, draw, write. Personally, when im feeling down, i usually draw and sing to get the pain out. That is, if thinking about my love doesnt work. My story may not have helped. And that's fine if it didnt. But, it feels good to get things off your chest. Maybe, depression can be eased by talking to someone about it. Anyways, im done here. If anyone has any questions, ill be glad to try and answer.

Posted on 3/1/2009 8:53:00 PM by Anonymous

mane teens are dieing everyday of harm to themselves and that i have tried to do and mane did it hurt my mother and father to see me try and do that stuff to myself

Posted on 2/27/2009 7:24:00 PM by Anonymous

so i want to commit suicide

Posted on 2/27/2009 12:14:00 PM by Anonymous

If anyone out here is thinking of suicide, please stop and reconsider. My 15 yr old daughter has a friend that just committed suicide. It has been so hard on all the friends of this person. Just stop and reconsider and give your self one more day. Now my daughter is depressed and she wishes she would have known her friend was in trouble she would have done anything.

Posted on 2/23/2009 8:05:00 PM by Anonymous

Hi I'm Mona , I dont exactly know if i am depressed or just really lonely but i have trie to kill myself on a umber of occations and have cut myself , i even stopped eating because thats the only thing i could control. I have alot of family problems at home and everyone sees me as this perfet happy person when all i can think about is offing myself and i really dont think anyone would care . I'm that happy , sweet, innocent girl everyone loves but they dont know who i really am. My mom is dealing with depresstion right now. Do i ahve a problem ? DO i need help ?

Posted on 2/23/2009 7:33:00 PM by Anonymous

Okay im not saying im depressed but im am sad, i do admit i have tryd too commit sueicide but thats bc i hate my life and it seems like nothing is going right, guys just want me for sex, and girls just call me a whore... my own sister calls me a slut and a whore.......It really hurts me. I dont know what too do i when i think about death it makes me feel great! like when im gone so many ppl will miss me and see that they casused me too commit suicide...... i hate life and i dont want too go talk too a doc. or a phys.... bc all i will do is get agravated...........i dont know what too do.??

Posted on 2/16/2009 5:19:00 PM by Anonymous

Response to Carver from Feb 1 posting; my son is 13 years old and I would like to learn of teen groups or meetings because he is cutting himself too. It brought me too tears to find over 118 cuts on his arms yesterday. Please for anyone doing this, talk to someone, try another outlet like a punching bag or running. I know it's hard and we also appreciate any ideas or references on help in this area. He's diagnosed ADD but they are starting to doubt that diagnosis b/c of various symptoms and lack of response to meds. It would be nice if these teens could get together and vent about this and alternatives that help.

Posted on 2/14/2009 8:46:00 PM by Anonymous

my son cries alot is whimpy, lets other kids pick on him, won't stand up for himself , is afraid of challinging himself or try something knew. Is this signs of depression?

Posted on 2/12/2009 8:02:00 AM by Anonymous

the last person that commented. i know what you mean to a certain degree... i have noone to tlk to aswell. if you ever need some one... ill be here for you. heres my everyone msn.... portuguese_princess@live.ca

Posted on 2/11/2009 11:03:00 PM by Anonymous

I have depression and anxiety and I told my mom two months ago. She didn't believe that it was real and thought it was my hormones. I went to the doctor recently and I'm taking two medications. But the medicines only help to a certain degree. No one understands me and my friends are afraid of me now. I have no one to talk to!

Posted on 2/8/2009 6:10:00 PM by Anonymous

This is a message response to a posting on 1-19-09 @ 7:01. You can't feel that you are to blame or that you have no alternatives. Most of us become depressed throughout our lives but when you have thoughts of death, crying, etc., you MUST get help! You may not think that your parents care because they are dealing with their own problems, but you must tell them or tell another adult at school who you can talk to. Please get help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am a mom and a behavior analyst, so I work with many students...there is hope and you CAN change.

Posted on 2/8/2009 11:17:00 AM by Anonymous

you know what some people may think that jesus is the only way to get help, but my medication is WORKING so its not the only way out! ya it may help, but medication and therapy help to! and no matter how much jesus lovesus what if we are non religious and that DOESN'T MATTER?!?!?!

Posted on 2/6/2009 10:24:00 PM by Anonymous

keep holding on

Posted on 2/5/2009 1:09:00 PM by Anonymous

I was a carver. i never cut my wrists or anything like that. I carved words and pictures on my hips and below my stomach. I just told my parents there so upset i didnt mean to hurt them. I stopped, but sometimes i think about doing it. People dont understand that its not about having pain, it doesnt hurt actually its just something in my control i guess. I have a wonderful family and a great life but im still unhappy. I dont know why. Is there places i can talk to other teens like me?

Posted on 2/1/2009 10:43:00 PM by Anonymous

In response to: what if u are nowwhere close to being christin? (i don't know how 2 spell it) Posted on 1/28/2009 10:03:00 PM by Anonymous What is your definition of "nowhere close"? If nowhere close means doing bad things and not going to church, it doesn't matter. I think that a lot of the time i get this picture in my head of a huge, angry god with a long white beard sitting up in heaven with a clipboard, marking down all the things we do wrong. And that is the god that is shown everywhere you look. So you think "well, i'm not good enough to pass His rules - He wouldn't want me." and then we just give up. But the truth is different than that. God loves us, no matter what we have done - lying, cheating, rape, murder - whatever. and as hard as that is to believe, it's true. Although WE can't love those people unconditionally, God does, because he made them (haha don't get me wrong - God made them, but they CHOSE to do what they did). And now you are probably like, well, that's great and all but i'm not a Christian. He doesn't love just Chirstians - before I became a Christian, He still loved me. so even if you are nowhere close to being a christian, God still loves you. want to hear more/vent/talk to someone? email me: george_rules751@hotmail.com

Posted on 1/31/2009 12:32:00 AM by Anonymous

Have your parents died yet? Hope Not

Posted on 1/29/2009 3:00:00 PM by Anonymous

I almost have the whole bible memorized. I love it so much

Posted on 1/29/2009 2:59:00 PM by Anonymous

Christian is spelled C H R I S T I A N. I should know caz i am one

Posted on 1/29/2009 2:58:00 PM by Anonymous

what if u are nowwhere close to being christin? (i don't know how 2 spell it)

Posted on 1/28/2009 10:03:00 PM by Anonymous

Everyone on this site i have your answer it's Jesus. He's the only one that can HELP you no pills doctors or medications can help you. His love and His love alone is all that can help you. Please cry out to Jesus He sees the pain your in and knows what your going through. No matter what you've done His love is so much greater than it.

Posted on 1/28/2009 4:48:00 PM by Anonymous

Hello, My name is Marz and I am a research assistant at Canadian Institute of Natural and Integrative Medicine in Calgary, Alberta, Canada. Currently, we are in the process of developing a web-based program to help depressed teens. We are looking for 6 young adult volunteers (15-18 years old) who have experienced depression in the past, to give us their feedback/ideas about our proposed program. The activities would include reviewing YouTube videos, site designs, selecting music and choosing jokes. If you are interested or know of anyone who would be interested, please contact Patti Paccagnan at 403-220-0022 ext. 111 or p.paccagnan@cinim.org. Deadline is February 3rd, 2009. Help us make our program fun and engaging! Note: You must reside in Calgary, Alberta to participate in this volunteering opportunity.

Posted on 1/28/2009 2:33:00 PM by Anonymous

my granddaughter is having a very difficult time and i need her to go somewhere where she can get some help for her lying,stealing and just not being honest. i think she's bi polar or just downright depressed. i need to help her. can you help me help her? where are you located and what are your prices. sue garavaglia

Posted on 1/27/2009 2:07:00 AM by Anonymous

I have a 13yr old daughter that cuts her wrists and the tops of her arms... we took her to several doctors and finally one ER had a psyciatrist come in to evaluate.. She called my daughter a 51/50 and had her admitted to a behavioral medical center.. She was on a 72hr watch that ended up being 7days... She came out of that place with more ANGER and she is still cutting... alto now she is doing it on her thighs where I can't see it... I need some advice,, or someone who has gone thru this... My daughter is now having thoughts of suicide, and asks lots of questions about the effects of pills.... please someone who knows how I am feeling contact me.... I don't know what else to do... email me at somebodysbaby03@yahoo.com

Posted on 1/26/2009 12:09:00 PM by Anonymous

My life is to be spiraling downward. I want to get away. I've thought about suicide before, but I could never come to actually do it. I'm so depressed because I feel like I am living a lie. I know I am gay, but I am too ashamed to admit it to anyone. I don't want to be more alone than I am now. I have a lot of friends, but I feel like they would all hate me if i actually came out. I always put on a cover, no one knows the real me. I decided that suicide is not the way to go. I feel, now, that it is a easy way out and even though I feel like no one will understand me, I don't want to hurt anyone. I've decided that instead of suicide or other harmful measures, I am going to move out of my small town and live in a big city where people are more excepting. I have never been as low in my life as I have right now and it makes me sick to my stomach. I hate how people treat gays and that is what makes me depressed, that I can never be myself.

Posted on 1/25/2009 11:31:00 PM by Anonymous

Im 16 and i have cut many places on my body such as wrists, legs and upper arms so my parents wouldnt see. I mainly started because i found out that my parents are dying, pretty fast and they only had a year to live. I didnt know how to deal with it at all. Now they are dead, i went to therapy, didnt work. So my aunt (which whom i now live with) decided to put away the sharp objects until i could relax on my own. I havent cut for about 2 months now and all u have to rly do is put ur mind to it and realize that there are people out there who want to help you

Posted on 1/25/2009 3:07:00 AM by Anonymous

im 13 and my name is natalie. ive been having a really hard time since my grandma passed away...my parents dont notice me and my mom called me a fucking little bitch because i didnt let my sister borrow something and whore when i wear eyeliner. my grandma was the person who was more a a mother figure life than my own mother and now that shes gone..i have no one to look up to. ive been cutting since it was ten stopped when i was 12 and then started again but now i dont cut anymore and it makes me feel a bit better of my self. my parents still hate me though and it makes me want to kill myself, ive tred committng suicide about 17 times now and i feel as if im going to lose.how do i get my parents to notice or start caring about when in reality they would rather have me dead?

Posted on 1/22/2009 7:10:00 PM by Anonymous

As a teenager, I was depressed, I cut and thought of ways to end myself. Lukily that never happened. Now I have gotten past that and I have a wonderful husband and three awsome boys. My life has so much joy now. Now, I want to help teens that struggle like I did and feel all alone. You are not alone. There are people who care! There are teen help lines and suicide hotlines that can refer you to get help in your area. Rest assured. There are people out there who care! I am one of them.

Posted on 1/22/2009 7:04:00 PM by Anonymous

i have depression and nobody knew it until recently when i started crying for no reason, lost interest in eating, and started cutting. my parents had been trying to block out my problems for almost two years, but then my dad finally couldn't stand watching me suffer anymore and took me to the doctors. i am depressed and i am going to start anti depressants, but i am scared that i will be addicted. I HATE THIS!!!!!!

Posted on 1/19/2009 9:05:00 PM by Anonymous

Ever scence my great grandma moved in I have not been feeling right. I cry About nothing my grades droped I got a c in LA class and that is not like me. I took 2 test so far and they both say I have depression. I am scared to say anything to my parents. I here voices that are not there and I am so scared to say hey mom i think i have depression. What should I do I am only 14. I have been going to bed early cause I am tired. I have no clue what is going on. I just cant beleave that i may have depression. One thing for sure is I need help. I am scared to say anything to anyone cause they will think I am crazy. I am so stressed with changing schools next year and it is going to be a AP+ program wich is for people who are smart. But I just dont know. It seems like every one is yelling at me and I need glasses I feel like my parents are trying to block me out. Please if you have ideas just say them. I also am into death all of a sudden I dont know why it just seems to apple to me is all. I try to figure out how I want to die. But I cant figure out how. I also have a short temper. My grandma sets me off all the time but I keep it all bottled up and I feel like I am about to explode. I cant stand living right know. I have felt this way for a long time but know i am taking action alittle bit at least. like this and the tests.

Posted on 1/19/2009 7:01:00 PM by Anonymous

im 12 years old my mom dosnt even know this article explains me crying alot suffering weight loss grades slip i cant tell her id brake her heart what do i do? i want to die just get it over with. ive been depressed scince i was 5 my life was toen apart by everyone i get adrenalin rushes when i think about i i want to stop it!

Posted on 1/16/2009 8:58:00 PM by Anonymous

this is d...i am 17 and i have struggled with depression and self mutalation for going on 4 years now... alot of times when people tell me they understand what im going through, i think ''how can they possibly understand''... people who are depressed tend to be selfish... i know i have been because all i worry about is my pain and hurt... i have been hurt by the people that i love most in my life and at times i just want out of the world... But taking ur own life is selfish because whether u can see it or not at the time there are so many people around u that care about u and wanna c u overcome this battle ur fighting... i know its hard and sometimes u feel like no one in the world understands or even cares what u r going through... i started cutting when i was 13 first on my wrists then on my back where no1 could see... i felt like that was the only pain i could control.... it wasnt until jus recently that i started to understand that this way of dealing with my depression was only making me hate myself more & more... lately i have been trying to see things from a more positive perspective and think of what makes others happy... when u feel like you cant go on talk to the Lord and he will open doors for u... he may not handle the problem like you want it to be handled or right when you get ready for it, but i promise he will work it out for you in the long run.. dont hurt yourself because that helps nothing!!!!

Posted on 1/16/2009 2:48:00 PM by Anonymous

Well, guys [and girls], reading your stories is breaking my heart. We (teenagers) feel so alone sometimes, and think that our parents don't/won't understand. And although our friends care, they may not know how to help. Jesus, I know that You know the individual needs and wants of each person on this site. You know them inside out and backwards. You understand our feelings, even when we don't ourselve, because you made us. Thank you for the precious gift of LIFE that You have given every one of us. However, Lord, sometimes it's hard to see the "gift" of it - life seems harder to live than to lose. But Jesus, suicide hurts other people in our lives and it hurts You, who made us for a PURPOSE. You have promised in the Bible: "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." You have promised that, and God, I am holding You to Your word. When we cry out in our hearts for You, pick us up and show us Your LOVE. Thank You for being One who loves and understands when no one else does. AMEN.

Posted on 1/15/2009 11:36:00 PM by Anonymous

My mom called be a bitch when i wouldn't give my little sister my stuff, a tramp when I wore high heels and she has told me to go to hell. Whenever she says these things I want to kill myself. I soon as I work of the courage I am gone. You have not idea how much words can hurt especially out of someone whom is supposed to give you unconditional love.

Posted on 1/14/2009 5:18:00 PM by Anonymous

Let him know you care. I was like that all last year and my mom ignored me. I constantly asked to talk to her but she said he never had time. Don't smuther him or tell him you understand but it is hard uprooting especially in high school. mY thoughts are join a sports team, a musical or talk to one of those two teachers and ask them to be an advisor on a new club. If he starts a club foro his own inerests it might be fun for him. Don't worry it is hard just keep caring

Posted on 1/14/2009 5:12:00 PM by Anonymous

I've been reading all of these posts and it scares me. I'm a mom. My son is 14 and just in the last month he has gone from being this constantly happy kid with a wonderful smile and laugh to this big sad boy. He is a freshman in high school and had to switch from the school his middle school would have fed into to a high school where he knows people but doesn't have any close friends because we moved a couple of miles out of his old district. He says that he is unhappy at school and that he has friends but they aren't the friends he really wants. He also says that there aren't any kids at his new school that he would even want to be great friends with. He isn't involved in any activities and he hates all but two of his teachers. He says there aren't any clubs that he is interested in joining. I would love some advice from kids who feel the same way. How can I help? What can I do? How should a parent let her son know that he is everything to her? I tell him all of the time but I don't think he feels it. My advice to you kids is to talk to your parents or to a teacher that you like. The adults in your life want to help, we just don't always know how. If you ask us we will do anything we can to make things better. Love, A Mom who is worried

Posted on 1/13/2009 4:31:00 PM by Anonymous

how can anyone help if you dont have friends? no one can help you fit in.

Posted on 1/11/2009 4:14:00 PM by Anonymous

My name is Chris im 15 the last month or so ive been having a rough time and tring to make my parents notice but seeing that they dont look close enogh just makes me feel even more depressed i dont wanna say anything to them cause they dont really listen that makes it worse and i read this thing above and everything in it explains me the last few months and i dont know where or how to get helpo i think i do need it though and they dont care for my friends they think they arnt a good influence but i dont drink or do drugs and they helped me from tring to kill myself and tring to kill someone else the othere day from hittin on my girlfriend without them i wouldnt be here i think i should let my parents read this page

Posted on 1/10/2009 11:20:00 AM by Anonymous

my name is nicki and i'm 16. for the last three years i have been going through a hard time. my parents don't really notice me much anymore. i stopped spending time with my friends and started to read a lot. the books made me happy. when i was 13 i started cutting. it relieves a lot of the numbness and i get to control the pain. then i lost my appetite. i lost over 20 lbs in two months. thats when my parents noticed that something was wrong, but it only took them a year to figure out that i stopped eating. that was two years ago. i started hanging out with a new group of kids. i've started doing some drugs here and there. i started drinking and am now on a first name basis with all of the cops in my small town. my parents think that i'm a freak and can't stand to look at me. they don't like my friends, but they are the only thing that keeps me sane. i don't know what i would do without them. they literally make my world go round.

Posted on 1/8/2009 7:04:00 PM by Anonymous

Please mind my spelling, im only 14. :P

Posted on 1/7/2009 8:01:00 AM by Anonymous

most teens like me dont want to tlk about whats wrong because they dont want to burdon others with our problems. and they dont want to hear the truth and they dont want people to know their weakness. two years ago i needed help too and someone who used to be like me who had weaknesses of their own helped me through it, and i relized that i wasnt alone, that i had others in my life who could help me. i depended on this person and i got throught my depression, when he died i went back in to depression but soon decieded that he spent the last 7 1/2 months of his life trying to help ME out of depression, why would i throw away what he did for me? everyday i fight deppression, and everyday i win. i live everyday, one day at a time because life is hard, but im not the only one living it, the people in my life that i hurt when i was in depression, i feel guilty for hurting those people by pushing them away when they wanted to help me, but they have forgiven me and only want the best fro me, they help me fight every day, its hard to go on, but i do. and im proud of myself!

Posted on 1/7/2009 7:59:00 AM by Anonymous

just testing this out

Posted on 1/6/2009 11:59:00 PM by Anonymous

Alot of your knowledge on teen depression and understanding of the endless questions we as teenagers ask ourselves { WHY ? What does cause us to interact with other teenagers the way we do and who is responsible for our actions, Is it a learned or devolped seperation from people different than the home life we are raised in or labeled by the social structure the way we section housing in County Zoning [ meaning if your family is not in a social brackett that it doesnt matter who you are if you are not accepted in a upper-class society not even if you uphold yourself in an ethical manner. if you live in a trailer you are trash even if you had millions you are zoned out of upper-class communites. JUST NOT GOOD ENOUGH!!] Well the answers aren't in medication because the problem is from missplacement in our society's way of placing a child in a social brachett that is learned from their own up bringing

Posted on 1/6/2009 11:55:00 PM by Anonymous

I'm brittany and i'm 15 i just started researching about emotional abuse because me and my mom every time we have a fight i cry myself to sleep because i can't do anything else. And once i found an article about it, what they described as the abuser was my mom and i was the one suffering. I can't tell any of my friends but i want someone to help me, i just don't know where to go for help. No one is goingto believe me because my mom will deny it. I estimated i'v been emotionally abused for about 11 years and i fell like i can't do anything about it.

Posted on 1/6/2009 4:46:00 PM by Anonymous

my name is Charlotte. i am a 15 year old girl and im not exactly sure if im really depressed or not. ive never had something extremely dramatic happen to me in my life. i did move when i was twelve and left my best friend and now my other best friend has left my school and i feel completely alone this year. i have two pretty good friends but they just dont understand whats going on with me. people have pointed out that im not as "happy and excited" as i use to be and ive been isolating myself a lot. but my moods change often. like during the weekend ill be very happy and then school starts and i feel horrible again. ive thought about suicide and ive had talks with my mom about being "sad" but she just thinks its because im a teenager and its not really depression. at school i cant pay attention and i dont have the strength to do my homework well anymore, little things have turned into a nightmare. i also have different eating habits, i skip lunch at times and then eat tons of junk before i go to sleep. i also have trouble sleeping because i stress out easily. ive seen a therapist a couple times but i wasnt really willing to talk to her. theres also a lot of fighting going on in my family but its not terrible so im just not sure if maybe its just pms or really depression?

Posted on 1/6/2009 3:07:00 PM by Anonymous

this is kay again and at first i was scared to talk about the assault but after reading koda's comment i will say that it is so hard being around the person at school everyday that has assaulted me. He still can overpower me and its not the first i have been assaulted by 6 different boys and all of them live on the same road and they are friends they tried a group thing one time and i got away i have been raped. They tried a group thing again and they did it i cried for months and its hard having them look down on me everyday. what do i do?

Posted on 1/6/2009 2:45:00 PM by Anonymous

My name is Kay and I sometimes feel like i dont belong in this world. My family and friends think i am crazy but i think about suicide alot. I sometimes cry and dont know why, i want help but i dont kno how to go about it. My sister has been through the same thing and it helped her. She doesnt want me to go through it and i dont want to be hurt and school is making the whole situation worse one boy picks on me all the time and talks about and tries to force me into to doing sexual things with him that i dont want to do. I tried telling my counselor and the school but they do nothing i just want to be helped.....what do i do? and how do i get the help i need?

Posted on 1/6/2009 2:39:00 PM by Anonymous

From a parent that has a 15 year old daughter that used to be a cutter-putting you away is definitley not the answer but support and understanding. When I first found out my daughter was cutting herself I was so hurt, afraid and confused. All I wanted to do was get to the root of why she was cutting herself. I never gave up on her and as much as some of the things she was telling me was a complete shock I prayed and prayed hard so I could be there for her and before I knew it she stopped. My advise to you is if you can't get through to your parents please, please find someone you can trust and depend on to help you through this because your life is valuable and don't you let anyone tell you differnt. You are not a mistake but a blessing; stay strong - if for no one else do it for yourself.

Posted on 1/5/2009 6:34:00 PM by Anonymous

dear joann i am a 16 year old recovering self harmer i started harming myself when i was 11. yes it is really hard to stop but you can do it. a good way to help is to write whats going on thats upsetting you down in a journal, or maybe even keep a blog. or find another muse when your upset. for example in the summer if something upsets me i go for a run or throw on my roller blades and just go. alot of the time i have no idea where im going but just being away from it all helps and calms me down. i also have OCD and it sucks because that adds to the anxiety. have you talked to your dr about your anxiety? you dont have to tell him your self harming if you dont want to but you may have an underlying condition, like my OCD, there are many different things that can cause the anxiety that you may not know of. and on my personal opinion if your meds are making things blurry and if you just dont feel like your self stop taking them. my best advice for you tho is just to talk to some one. someone who wont freakout and will listen. maybe when you get to college go down and talk to your councler. or find a good therapist. dont worry it doesnt mean your crazy and it does help.

Posted on 1/4/2009 4:49:00 PM by Anonymous

my name is joann. im 18 years old. nothing makes sense anymore. ever since the 8 grade i have been cutting. depression has just taken over ever since. i dont know how to help it. i have been on medication but it didnt really help but make things blurry. i dont know what to do. im about to start college so i dont want to get put into an institution. im too scared for that. my parents are too scared to really see whats going on. they just freak out and try to put me away. what do i do?

Posted on 1/3/2009 6:24:00 PM by Anonymous

From One Concerned parents....Please, all of you, hang in there! Teenage years are the toughest in life. But you can pull through. And life gets a lot easier, life becomes a lot more enjoyable-please believe me that a bright future awaits you-just hang in there!

Posted on 1/2/2009 10:29:00 PM by Anonymous

koda u have to realize that being assaulted is something beyond ur power and is in no way ur fault. what u need to do is accept what happened to u and move on, no matter how hard it may seem. i can't rightly say i know how u feel though i understand where substance abuse comes in. i too use it as a way to get out. anyhow my advice to u is to find something u've always wanted to do and pursue it like there is no tomorrow. This at first will seem hard but shortly after it will give ur life direction. it helped me immensely to help beat back my depression and OCD. u see i have OCD at its worst. when u obsess about things beyond ur control and ur brain locks on to it because of OCD. and so it was when i saw a movie about child molestaion. I hated the movie and i found it repulsive. but simply because it was so discordant with who i was my brain locked on to it and because of this i began to question if i was a child molester. this though repulsed me and scared me and i wanted to commit suicide so i could get rid of these thoughts. i aslo thought of suicide as a retribution for having such evil thoughts. anyhow one night i was having the thoughts so bad and i told my mom "im going to commit suicide" so she brought me to childrens emergency and through that they suggested me to the CART program. the CART program helped me immensely and im now ready for the transition to going to a West Side team to help me get better. anyhow i soon realized that the fact that i was so repulsed meant i could never be a child molester. EVER. and so i began the gruelling task of slowly exposing myself to children where as before i couldn't look at them, listen to them, or be near them. the exposing process is painful but it is helping me now. I began to realize, through, exposure, that im not aroused sexually by being around children and i don't find them attractive and i don't want to moleste them. because of exposure i am slowly unlocking the brain lock. anyhow by pursueing my hobby through all the depression and OCD it has helped me to no end. I play guitar and it is what i want to do with my life and it gives my life a direction out of wallowing in depression. i have to admit i do cut myself sometimes as a retribution on myself for having such bad thoughts. anyhow i wish u all the best koda and i hope that u get a lot better really soon. Max

Posted on 12/29/2008 9:35:00 PM by Anonymous

I'm koda. i'm 15. im not happy with the way my life has turned out. i have spent a couple months in an institution because of 2 suicide attempts. i hide myself in my room, away from judgement and expectations. i've been on medication for a couple years now and still, i don't feel it's done a lot of good. i still have frequent thoughts of suicide and death but now i don't act upon it. i want to be able to feel as good as i used to.. before the sexual assaults. before i gave in. i turned to substance abuse. it helps me feel better for a bit. that's what scares me. i'm scared of guys because i know what they can do. i hate being afraid and never being able to trust people that actually give a shit. my best friend.. she won't talk to me. i don't know why but im not willing to fight for it. i wish i was and i wish i could fix the mistakes i've made. i need help. i can be patient.. but i know i can't do this alone. Any suggestions..?

Posted on 12/23/2008 4:07:00 PM by Anonymous

I think the problem is we dont like to admit to having problems. We want to make our parents happy and so we just supress it. Our parents don't know because even though we'd love to scream out for help, we can't are mouths are sewn shut in the eternal smile that pleases everyone else. Im a self harmer. Recently the guy I was sleeping with found the inflictions. He told me two nights ago that he didnt see us going anywhere, and he still wants to be friends.It hurt. He found the cut marks and now he feels guilty, so instead of just leaving and letting me get over it he feels he still needs to be involved in my life somehow. I lost control the other night and had enough control to hand over my knife beforee I did something serious I dont want to keep involving him, I need to move on, but tonights really hard, my knife is sitting beside me and it's just calling me out. Id love nothing more to jab it into my throat. The thing is I have control, I know when Im going to lose it, Ive been a self harmer for a while and my mum just stays in the dark both because I want her to and she wants to. No one wants their perfect child to be the oneharming themselves, and no one wants their parents to worry. There really need to be more crisis hotlines, because as of now it looks like Im calling 911 before the steel finds a vien too deeply in my skin to regret.

Posted on 12/17/2008 3:14:00 AM by Anonymous

Don't give up lanna. There was this girl in my art class who said those same things. You to sit all by herself and wouldn't talk to anyone. She killed herself one day. I have never been able to forgive myself. If only I had tried harder. I still can't talk art classes or even look at one without crying. There is hope lanna. I am so sorry you were raped. There are people who can help you. Don't let all the bad things beat you. You can win. You are strong and an important person and you can make something of your life. Please don't give up. <3 Hope

Posted on 12/11/2008 4:12:00 PM by Anonymous

Hi, I'm a 13 year old girl named lanna and I hate myself. I have been cutting myself for 3 years and Nobody seems to notice. I hate myself and everybody hates me! MY PARENTS DON'T UNDERSTAND! i'M BULLIED ALL THE TIME AND THEY DON'T CARE!!!! I HAVE BEEN RAPED IN THE PUBLIC WASHROOMS IN WAL MART! i JUST WANT THIS TO END!!!

Posted on 12/10/2008 3:07:00 PM by Anonymous

this article is really great. it really shows the signs really well. I wish parents cared enough to read it. If they did they would know how depressed i am. Maybe they would start to care

Posted on 11/30/2008 1:29:00 PM by Anonymous

i agree with this passage. i am always depressed. i cant even get above a D in a lot of my classes in school also i have recently gone emo due to my depression im not afraid to admit this because i want others to no how i feel and my mom doesnt like the songs i listen to because she thinks it sounds depressing DUH!!!!! get the pic mom! no she doesnt parents can b so stupid a lot of times!

Posted on 11/28/2008 12:48:00 AM by Anonymous

if you are looking at these comments you should give them some thought....there r so many ppl who needs comfort asap and if you just let it go on noticed you might lose someone....so stop, look, think and act NOW!!

Posted on 11/25/2008 3:21:00 PM by Anonymous

my mother, who should notice anything, just doesnt notice im depressed. i sit in my room and listen to the same song over and over... ive gone to her for help but she says its just hormones, ill be fine. i dont care about anything anymore. as soon as im good at it, i dont care. my old gpa? 4.0, while my new one is a 2.6.... if you even notice the slightest change in your kids, plz, help them...... i feel lost, and not even my closest friends can recognize me anymore......

Posted on 11/25/2008 12:50:00 AM by Anonymous

this all makes total sence . like , some parents don't even notice or they start making their child(s) problems to be what they see it to be in their eyes and just assume the worst of them . i've noticed , obviously they don't understand but that gets me sooo mad . like , depression is a serious thing and esspecially if the person is younger , wouldn't you want to take care of it and get help before it starts getting worse ?

Posted on 11/23/2008 12:45:00 AM by Anonymous

This is quite interesting. I am glad there are websites like these to help stop teen suidide. its also very well writen

Posted on 11/22/2008 9:12:00 PM by Anonymous

i think my older brother was depressed a few years ago. he had a lot of the symptoms that is stated in this article. i knew he had problems and i think my parents knew too, but we didn't do anything about it. i didn't know what to do and i am not sure how serious it was. although it has passed (he got a girlfriend that has really changed his life), my little brother is starting to get like my older brother used too. this time i am not going to ignore it like i did with my older brother. i hope none of you ignore anything that you know to be true, because trust me it will eat at you later as it has done to me.

Posted on 11/21/2008 10:11:00 PM by Anonymous

it is true that us teens go through depressing times but some of us go through the pain everyday infact when you are depressed every day you think suicidally infact thats happened to me and most of the pain has been inflicted from family and bad surroundings and never being excepted

Posted on 11/7/2008 9:24:00 PM by Anonymous

To all who are depressed or thinking self inflicted injury,,,,,,You Are Not Alone. There are people you can talk to. I personally lost someone in 2006 due to severe depression. It is the worst kind of pain a person can live with. If I knew then what I know now, he might still be here. So please Talk to someone who will listen. I have met many people who are willing to talk. Self injury is not the answer. John (dreadlockraven).

Posted on 11/6/2008 10:06:00 PM by Anonymous

I think im depressed but like i dont wanna kill myself or anything i have a very low pain tollorence so i cant cut myself but me and my dad fight all the time and my mom is ok but just idk dosent listen and the boy i like has told me that he dosnt like me back now he wont talk to me and im do lonly like i have my friends but even they dont understand must of the time the only way i can get throught the day is bc of music i can always start randomly singing about how i feel and i feel a little bette3r but i want that like feeling of like totol sadness to go away anyone know what i mean?

Posted on 11/5/2008 2:50:00 PM by Anonymous

I'm away at college, about 2 hours from home and I'm totally understanding where you are coming from. My parents don't understand the seriousness of my problem either. I tried to tell them yesterday when they came to visit me, I even showed them the antidepressants I was prescribed by the doctor, all they said was to not take them and to try to get better on my own first. What they don't understand is that I can't get better on my own, I've been trying for awhile now and everything is getting worse and worse. I talked to them today on the phone and it was like nothing happened. The one time they asked me how I was doing, my sister was in the room, and they whispered to me. It seems like they might be ashmaed of my problem. Thats the last thing I need right now. I need someone to support me and to tell me that one day I'm going to be happy again, but I don't have that at all, not even my friends here at school can give me the support I need. If I had some support, maybe things wouldn't seem as hopeless as they do.

Posted on 11/2/2008 8:18:00 PM by Anonymous

I use to cut myself to but I got out of it bc Its not worth hurting yourself over your parents or any boy bc one day believe it or not you will get through it and you will get away from it...like me I only have 3 years left with my parents and there way over protective but in 3 years Im gone and Im not coming back!!!!! and hopfully I will still with the great boyfriend that I have had for over a year now!!!!

Posted on 10/31/2008 12:13:00 PM by Anonymous

I have started to cut myself last week, cause everything in my life just keeps going wrong and i hate it. My parents are way to overprotective so i live a double life, my boyfriend just borke up with me yesterday and dosent have a good reason, and it seems like people arnt really my friends. I get anxiety attacks and theve been happening more and more often lately and now i just dont know what to do.

Posted on 10/31/2008 12:07:00 PM by Anonymous

I guess to all the teens that say they need help I guess the way to get it is....find a really good and close friend that will just listen and not judge you for anything and just tell them everything that is on your mind and if that doesnt work then I know that for a fact when you write it out on paper and tear it up or burn it....it really helps! ive been through alot and Im only 15 my parents split up Ihave step parents and me and my dad dont really have a relationship but I trust in god and I know he is always on my side and through him anything is possiable and im glad that I have him....ohh and find a really good church to go to!!!!

Posted on 10/31/2008 12:06:00 PM by Anonymous

beileve in something to get you through this life, wether its your boyfriend, your friends, a favorite food, a sport, even GOD, find strength in something because when you do THERE IS HOPE, and get help talk to someone because talking to someone helps you sort out your confusion, and emotions that you cant express freely!

Posted on 10/30/2008 10:05:00 PM by Anonymous

i will talk about 11:00 tomorrow and the after noon during goodnight and rember wat i said daown there i will always be!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Posted on 10/30/2008 9:19:00 PM by Anonymous

well is there a friend you could tell anything to. if therre not i here for you bro because the only people i tell is people have problems like and just want to tell someone there felling and get it of their chest and want to have someone to talk to and fell there pain and belive me i fell your pian deeply and their no one on this earht how make you change your mind about your opion about your life and rember i all was be here sto tell my life and story

Posted on 10/30/2008 9:16:00 PM by Anonymous

yeh i understand your hear its just i wishh i could tell my freinds or one of my realatives but im afraid

Posted on 10/30/2008 8:31:00 PM by Anonymous

to 10/30 7:55 well i fell your pain you not the only one i am with you don't worry it won't last long if you doing what you do

Posted on 10/30/2008 8:03:00 PM by Anonymous

yea im 13 and i cut myself because i feel angry about everything and i cant tell any one but a few of my freinds i am afraid of dissapointing my parents i feel they would beat me if they found out its like i live a double life i hate it but i dont want them to hate me i hav a picture perfect life but i feel like im an out sider when i get in big crowds all i want to do is sit and huddle in the coner for fear that i will do something wrong, when i cut myself i feel like i can fly above the world and gaze into unkown ......i know nobody will care but it helps to hav somebody read this

Posted on 10/30/2008 7:55:00 PM by Anonymous

I am very depress 12 year old loves his family but think they hate me. the other night i got yelled at they started asking me qeastion and stuff about do I hear thing that tell me to cut my own trought and my wrist.i said no because i think if I tell them they will send me away and i dont want that i am a confuss little boy boy who already got a girl pregent and been to the hoosptial for five attempt to kill my selif i got srace all over my and still trying to kill myself and think i wont stop and till i get it right and just die. to my mind off the pian i write poems about running away killing myself sometime i think if i kill myself things will be better for my family and me i fell like their no place for me on this earth ~AJ

Posted on 10/30/2008 6:50:00 PM by Anonymous

It's really scary when you're all alone i the world, with no family to tell you too put put that sh** down. Surround yourself with people, don't go down that road. It's hard being a survivor, too.

Posted on 10/29/2008 10:04:00 AM by Anonymous

Ive wanted to kill myself plenty of times! but the only thing that is keeping me from doing it is my family and God! i think God wouldnt let me in heaven! I want to be home with the lord now! but it is a sin to kill urself! I just wanted to let yall know ive been through the same crap!

Posted on 10/24/2008 11:17:00 AM by Anonymous

the only thing that keeps me from suicide is the knowledge of the pain that it would cause my little brother and mom.

Posted on 10/24/2008 12:28:00 AM by Anonymous

i was goin through a very hard time my pregnant girlfriend moved then all we did was fight then that was followed by a miscarriage and a break up.we are back together i was at the point multipile times of hangin myself i was cuttin eat pain killers like they were gonna run away and drinkin which i hid from every1 occasionally i wanna kill myself or alot of the times someone else my moods change constantly and their all to the extreme to i was diagnosed with bipolar when i was in rehab but i never followed through with meds when i got out the past 4 years of my life was one addiction to the next i barely know my dad he never calls me or sends me a letter or anything i once drank myself to the point of death then i was brought back but when i was on drugs i was fine nothing bothered me and i had not a care in the world can someone talk to me here

Posted on 10/21/2008 4:09:00 PM by Anonymous

i do wanna killmyself

Posted on 10/21/2008 2:14:00 AM by Anonymous

Please ask a pharmacist, doctor, or call up a psychiatrist about anti-depressants if you are feeling sad all the time, or angry, irritable, or overly sensitive. I started having these symptoms as a teenager and it took me 20 years of suffering and alienating many people that I cared about, before I finally got help. Therapy and behavior modification also help but medication can really allow you to get control of your feelings and your reactions. You can feel better and live better! You have nothing to lose by trying this and everything to gain!

Posted on 10/7/2008 1:21:00 PM by Anonymous

My almost-13 year old daughter has been experiencing a lot of the symptoms mentioned in your article. I recognized them and have had her seeing a psychologist for several months. She just started having even more severe problems, so I am also getting her in to see a psychiatrist who works in tandem with the psychologist. I had hoped to avoid medicating her, but I think that is what we will need to do. This is a very sensitive subject; she has been able to articulate her feelings and describe physical symptoms to me, but cannot seem to do this with anyone else. She is very worried about her classmates finding out what is wrong with her, yet she can't continue to hide her symptoms throughout the whole schoolday. It's heart wrenching to see your own child having to deal with this miserable disease. I am thankful that there are many professionals who are available to help us and that there are now some pharmaceutical solutions that have proven helpful in young people. Thank you for your article.

Posted on 9/30/2008 2:14:00 AM by Anonymous

The fact is that teenagers are very sensitive, because naturally if that sensitivity were encouraged by society(parents), then these teenagers would become sensitive, caring adults. You know, it's good to be sensitive, affectionate, and thoughtful, but we live in a war loving society, where ambition and competition and thus comparison are given the green light, and so schools teach children only to be efficient little machines for the economy and thus the whole field of life is ignored. Parents, if you want to help your kids, first read books written by Jiddu Krishnamurti. He spoke of the need to raise children where they're taught about the whole spectrum of life, not just making money and being "successful" corporate robots. When kids are pushed around in this lifeless, striving, greedy, ambitious world, then obviously they will become depressed, because a child's gift and strength is their love and compassion which is second nature to them, but if you discourage this growth in them for the sake of psychological security, you turn that gift into an inward conflict for them, and then the inward battle begins. If one clearly looks into things they will find that ALL ambition is fundamentally wrong. In a loving, sensitive world, people are not ambitious, they don't compete, they don't envy what someone else has. They live just to live, work for the sake of work, and love without judgement and direction, and thus there is no fear, and when fear is absent, a child feels at ease, inwardly secure and thus in time they will choose a livelihood that's right FOR THEM, and at the same time, they will not be attached to any choice. Kids are so scared in this treacherous world. They need to be told that they're loved, and they need to be encouraged when they utilize their inherent gift of awareness, even if that awareness comes across adversity.

Posted on 9/22/2008 9:06:00 PM by Anonymous

I personally think that poetry from teenagers that is depressing should be recognized a lot more because how many times are you going to find a teenager that is that into their writing? So my full opinion is you really should recognize their emotions

Posted on 9/22/2008 4:23:00 PM by Anonymous

Hey, I know how "teen depression" feels, been through it a lot! I almost killed myself a few times, but had second thoughts, thinking suicidal now is like nothing, i'm glad i'm getting through with my problems as for now, i'm not trying to say i'm better, but i know every teen goes through it, and it will hurt. I just hope you all feel a lot better than how you are now!

Posted on 9/21/2008 12:56:00 AM by Anonymous

I am very worried about my 18 yr. old son who appears depressed. He is very moody with our family and has nonchalantly hinted at suicide on a few occasions. We make every attempt to talk to him and offer help, he has two very supportive sisters as well. It is upsetting the family - I suspect he may have an eating disorder as his eating habits are odd. He would live on junk food rather than home cooked meals and he often takes aspirin for headaches because he hasn't had a decent, healthy meal. I'm a very worried mom.

Posted on 9/17/2008 9:29:00 PM by Anonymous

i have no idea whats going on. sometimes i fell depresed for no apperent reason, maybe it's the past. my parents are divorced and my dad thinks im sleeping around with my best friend. but sometime i will just wake up in the middle of the night and cry or i have to cry myself to sleep. i might have depression but i cant tell. when i do have thoughts of suiced (like 3 times a week) i think highly of actually doing it. i dont know whats wrong with me but, who really does?

Posted on 9/12/2008 7:05:00 PM by Anonymous

I love this site, But I have learned that I had to TAKE ACTION to bust through the cage of depression/anxiety. Inaction made me slide deeper. My solution: Get out of my head and into the world. This worked more than anything else. I came to understand that ONLY I could really love myself the way I wanted to be loved -- hard but true. I was taught that I can re-direct my destructive thoughts . I can say no to negative thinking by REPLACING negative thoughts with positive ones. Stay away from negative people, places and things. Leave the room, leave the house for a walk to get away from demeaning people for awhile. Avoid violent movies, depressing friends, music and books. Computer use is VERY isolating and wastes so much precious time from satisfying and important activities. Now I take care of myself by eating healthily, keeping a regular sleep schedule, looking for beauty in the world (it is limitless when you look for it) stretching and exercising each day if I can. I made myself get out: exercising around other people (even in a park), the library -free events - donating blood, cooking a treat for someone who os going thruogh a tough time. And organized religion was created to help people deal with life! Members are good, positive people who will help you even if they hardly know you. Many churches have resources for depression. Churches are free. Others have needs I can help with. I can tell family members or good friends "I love you". Writing grandma who may live alone. Helping a neighbor with shoveling. Giving free babysitting to a single parent now and then. Giving love to any child you have contact with (they need it the most of us). Suicide: This is NOT AN OPTION, EVER! We were all made to enjoy the natural world, be creative, help each other and perfect our world using our numerous abilities and talents. Replace suicidal thoughts by keeping too busy. You can make a life for yourself -- plan now -- you will not live at home forever. Al-ANON and ALATEEN (see the web) have been INVALUABLE to strengthen me to turn my life around. The meetings are free and all that is said is kept "in the room" - confidential. Getting to these meetings no matter how "inconvenient" saved my life. And, you may actually help someone else just by making them see that they are not alone in struggling with life. Love to all and Make a Great Day, one day at a time -- Grace

Posted on 9/10/2008 11:41:00 AM by Anonymous

I am a teen and I do not know if what I am going through is depression or PMS. I am confused but I do not know what to do. I lost my grandfather to cancer, my boyfriend to a car crash and myself to heartbreak. All my friends are gone because I moved, and I lost my love in guitar and writing. I am sick to my stomach everyday, I get dizzy, faint, and feel like I am going to throw up al the time. I sleep three hours instead of seven and I eat only a small dinner, I have lost over four pounds in the last week and I do not drink enough water because I forget. I can hardly ever feel my face move or my feet and hands. My zits have gone bazerrk, cuz I forget to wash my face and taking a shower makes me dizzy but I take one anyway. I can not sing anymore without sqeaking and feeling dizzy. I never feel like I am all there, and my family is not as comforting. Whenever I eat I have to fight to keep from throwing it all up and I lost my dad and four of my friends to cancer from tabacco or drugs or suicide. The only one I talk to is my God. I am sensitive to light and sound. I do not have a doctor cuz I will not go to one. Flavors of food are always mixed with barf flavor and I am starting high school where I know no one. I gave up excersizing but still lose a considerable amount of weight. I am freezing even if it is eighty degrees and when I sweat it is cold. I see people that should not be there, I am scared.

Posted on 9/2/2008 2:42:00 PM by Anonymous

good info

Posted on 8/25/2008 12:42:00 PM by Anonymous

I've found a wonderful book about a woman who suffers from depression, it is raw and dead on, because I suffer from depression. It is called "Dorie's Daughter" by Kim King and is available on Amazon.com for about $15.00. Read it, it'll change your life

Posted on 8/21/2008 11:59:00 PM by Anonymous

wow. Thank you so much for posting this. I didn't know I was depressed, and having 3 people in my life commit suicide, I will pay more attention to my other friends. We try not to hurt ourselves and we try not to withdraw ourselves from... well, everywhere but we are not isolating ourselves, people are isolating us, and as a girl, those prettier and more popular girls make me feel left out. I will seek help. I don't wanna miss out on watching my friends grow and change

Posted on 8/4/2008 10:55:00 PM by Anonymous

Thanks For Putting This Up I Knew I Was Depressed..........Thanks For Helping With This. Im Going To Start Getting In Touch With Old Friends And More Time With Family Thank You

Posted on 7/26/2008 5:03:00 AM by Anonymous

To : "hey there." I know exactly how you feel. I have tried to kill myself the slow and painful way, neveer just an easy way out. But then i guess my friends saw something was wrong, and they never left my side. My advice to you is to stay close to your friends or family and please, please, PLEASE tell your mom or dad, or even your best friend. I promise they will try to get you help. I will pray for you tonight until I hear from you again. ~dani

Posted on 7/7/2008 7:55:00 PM by Anonymous

hey there. i could get what you're going through cause i have depression too. i'm not usually used to talking about my problem but ever since my birthday i have been sad for weeks i cried to my self and told no one . I soon started crying for no reason and stopped enjoying , hanging out with my friends. i have started to avoid them more now and is now always lonely having negative thoughts to myabout myself feeling guilty and worthless. i feel so numb right now not feeling like doing anything i thought that was fun anymore.around may or april i found out i had depression i told no one not even my friends or my parents. I'm secretly having suicidal thought haunting me i actually tried several times and never succeded i feel like i'm all by myself most of the time.

Posted on 6/20/2008 7:39:00 PM by Anonymous

Hi to all of you! Depression and anxiety are difficult to determine when you are young because of all the things going on in your life. But if you feel or think bad thoughts such as suicide or difficulty in facing daily challenges, PLEASE seek help. One person in your life can make a huge difference. Dont be afraid to bring it up because most of us have been there. NAMI is a wonderful agency (go on line and find the closest one to you) and they help adults with children with problems and even have peer group meetings for the mentally ill. i cannot say enough about it because they are so comapssionate and understanding. They will teach you alot of things also. If anyone needs to talk, I'd love to lsiten. I have been depressed and gone through alot. Each person has alot to offer---no matter how you are feeling. Tommorrow is anew and better day!

Posted on 6/19/2008 8:02:00 PM by Anonymous

Okay so I'm not depressed but I have been. Last year I had major family issues, pretty screwed up friendships, my own demons and so on. I had began crying for no reason at any part of the day, I constantly felt like doing nothing, like I was nobody and didn't see the point in anything. I would scream at people I cared about and was constantly angery. When I went to school I felt like a blur and either just didnt pay attention or didnt show up for class' and when I skipped I didn't do anything to be proud of, more or less ashamed. It got so bad that I began thinking that if I just threw myself in front this or cut myself with that (which i did begin cutting) then no one would miss me. I felt so extremely alone that evrey part of my body ached for the slightest bit of comfort. My school counselor had recomended a therapist and I saw her a few times but what I found was all she wanted to do was put me on anti-depressants. Personally, I don't believe in anti-depressants (no offence to people they may be helping) so I kinda just never went back. I had moved and changed my view of the world. It did make me happy to change the scene and it made alot of things easier. Now its a full year later and I'm begining to go back into my little "fuzz". SO much has changed since last year and now that I look back I had done alot of damage to myself and my family and thinking about it I didn't just move away... I ran away. I think about it and everything I did was just a bandaid. A quick fix for my promblems and like bandaids they would just fall off eventually and in the end it made me feel worse. So here I am again full circle came from being extremely sad to extremely happy to...? I don't know but anyway the main reason I'm typing here today was to let people know that what your going through doesn't only affect you, its not just your little world that seems to be falling apart. Alot of people go through depression. And once its got you and starts taking over your life it goes on to hurt other people such as your parents (adoptive or not), your siblings, your friends, your significant other, family etc. ect. So I'm here to say YOU DESRVE TO BE HAPPY and so does everyone else in your life. I've just started recieveing help once again and this time I'm not going to run away or use the same "bandaids" because I'm not useless. I do have my bad days but since I've started thinking more about changing my mood and concentraiting on being happy I have this calmness in my heart that lets me know I will be alright : )

Posted on 6/11/2008 1:20:00 PM by Anonymous

I have depression and its not an easy thing to live with. I also have borderline personality disorder and oppistional deifiant disorder. I dont really know what those two are but I intend to find out. Living with depression as a teenager is hard. I often have days where I dont want to get out of bed and do anything. A few times I even tried to stop taking my medicine because I didnt believe that I had depression which pretty much meant that I did. I've been going to therapy and taking antidepressants for almost a year and I feel so much better than I did before. Although I still have my ups and downs with my other disorders I'm on my way to recovery.

Posted on 6/4/2008 7:49:00 PM by Anonymous

i have a 14 year old daughter whos my only child and she has never met her father. she says she does not want to meet him and says it does not bother. she too is a very loving child but is very angry all the time and has become incresingly defiant and disrespectful. she sleeps all the time and does not want to hang out with frineds anymore. shes currently in councling but its only for 3 sessions. she only has one session left. any suggestions on how i can help her ?

Posted on 6/3/2008 7:38:00 PM by Anonymous

My 13 year old son is showing some of these sympoms mentioned here. He is a sweet, loving & caring boy but can be very angry and hostile and I am positive it's because he doesn't have a good relationship with his father. He is in his first year of high school and is doing very poorly. He doesn't want to apply himself and doesn't care about school. He was very active in football and played for 4 years. Now, all of a sudden he does not want to play anymore. He is hanging around a new group of friends and doesn't want anything to do with the friends he's known since kindergarten. When I talk to him about this, he tells me that he is not depressed and loves life. My son and I have a great relationship and he has always been able to talk to me about anything. He assures me not to worry about him. Others tell me it's just a phase he's going through. I am going to keep a close eye on him and may consider getting counselling for him.

Posted on 5/21/2008 11:19:00 AM by Anonymous

As a person that was depressed when I was a teen I had a lot of these signs. No one knew what they were. I had to find my own way out of it. My way was listening to Heavy Metal. With in six months to a year i no longer was depressed. Talking to a lot of my friends that listen to Metal they have told me that they to went through the same things as i did until they also got into Metal.It may not work for everyone but it is a lot cheaper to buy your kid ten Metal c.d.'s they 2 doctors visits. What can it hurt to try it.

Posted on 5/9/2008 11:43:00 PM by Anonymous

As some smart person said "This too shal pass and everything will be okay!" Your life is so valuable. Taking it from the peple who who love you the most would hurt them. Don't put them through what your going through.

Posted on 5/8/2008 1:48:00 PM by Anonymous

i think that most teens in the US has a problem with depression including me. i've been diagnosed when i was around the age of eleven. Back then i didn't want help, but know that i have help i'm happy that i have people who cares.

Posted on 4/22/2008 11:41:00 AM by Anonymous

It's not just depression that can cause suicide, it's anxiety too.

Posted on 4/21/2008 6:13:00 PM by Anonymous

Hi all- I feel I have to write something before I leave this website. before I start, I do have a masters degree in counseling , I do take antidepressants for depression, and I had someone very close to me commit suicide when I was younger. I feel like I have to share some of my story with you girls, especially the young ones who feel stuck. I once felt stuck too- my parents were horrible, and very strict, it was almost like being a slave sometimes. I was very derpessed and remember telling my Dad i was thinking about suicide and he said, "Don;t do this to me." and walked out. I was too chicken to do it, but could literally not see into the future, all I could feel was the pain of "now", and I was too young to realize I had a lot of life a head of me and I could make of it what i wanted. So, to the teens, yes, life does suck sometimes, yes, you feel sad and have no where healthy or safe to go- but you know what? You do! You have hotlines you can talk to, you have the counselor at school, you probably have friends who have understanding parents you could talk to about feeling depressed. It is so importatnt to know there is nothing wrong with you, anyone can feel depressed- but it is up to you if you feel like you will live depressed, or live up to the challenge and take care of yourself with the right medication and finding a safe place to talk about things. At this young age, you cannot see it right now, but there is a future. I moved out when I was 17, went to college, started counseling and medication, went to grad school, fell in love, got married, have 3 kids now, a nice family, a nice house. You are just starting your life- beleive me there is so much wonderful coming to you. I think depression is for strong people, people who have depression have to be strong to ask for help from others, they have to be strong to accept medication and take it religiously, just as you would if you had cancer or were diabetic. Another thing you might not know is depression is hereditary- your parents may have it, grandparents, etc. When I started going back in my family history, I realized the depression was there before I was born- it is a part of my genes just as sure as my hair and eye color. It is something that I still have to monitor, i still see a counselor when I feel down, I realize the signs now and my husband will point them out if I cannot see them myself, I take medication daily and i have a good productive, happy life. I even get a long with my parents...from a distance, but we get along. And, as a suicide survivor, I can tell you, suicide is more painful for your loved ones than anyone. When my friend killed himself, I hurt for years, it has been 11 years and it still hurts. It changed me forever. And he is gone, no chance to get meds, counseling, no chance to get married or have children...nothing. He is just gone. Left behind so many people who loved him and blamed themselves- but he couldn't see them through all his pain. if he would have gotten help he would still be here and it would all be a memory, but as it is, he is dead and we are here, struggling. It is so unfair when you think about how much people love you, even though you may not realize, they are there. So, listen, write more, tak mmore, realize THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU! You are very normal! You will be 18 very soon and out on your own to do what you want with your life. You just have something that can be very easily fixed-- I promise you. And life will get better- life goes like this for eveyone, its a rollercoaster, one day you are up and pone day you are down, but most of the time wer just hang around in the middle somewhere! This is how life is- don't miss the good stuff. Peace and love and encouragement to all of you- Jodi

Posted on 3/13/2008 11:38:00 PM by Anonymous

I am 10 and was once depressed. I am home schooled, my best friend moved, and I was miserable. My other best friend stopped treating me right. I didn't see any bright side to this. But then I found a new friend and she is great and I am through with depression. If that is the case with your teen or tween, then help them find a friend! Stellaluna Selene

Posted on 3/11/2008 6:46:00 PM by Anonymous

TO THE MOTHER SEEKING ADVICE you said your daughter seems distant and angry to the world. the fact that you and your husband are divorced and the fact that he is remaried and has started another family probably has some effect on her. i am a 16 year old that also comes from divorced parents and i feel as though i can relate to her. let her know that her dad still loves her even if he is not involved in her life. (i'm not sure if he is or not) tell her that she can talk to you about anything because you've been there too. teens think parents can't understand them but eventually they may realize they can. i still have problems letting my parents in but it's like a bumpy road. we have good days and then we have bad days. tell your daughter about your teen stories and how you got through them. hug her often and spend one on one time with her. try to laugh and have a bonding moment because bonding always brings you closer in the end.

Posted on 3/5/2008 10:17:00 AM by Anonymous

To anyone that has thoughts or feelings of depression and struggles with daily living: Over the past year I have struggled with my own depression that is just as if not more serious than any other illness and everyone should know that there is a way to feel good about life again. The best advice I can give is to get help. Talk to someone. If not your parents then a school counselor or teacher or family friend you trust. It is possible to overcome depression. I have found that I need medication to fix the chemical imbalance in my body. I would like depression to diabetes. Diabetics can't produce insulin. Someone who suffers from depression can't product enough serotonin and dopamine. I hope that anyone that reads this is moved to see help for themselves, and lead the happy life they have imagined.

Posted on 2/26/2008 6:33:00 PM by Anonymous

To Blue Eyed Girl: If you are having thoughts of suicide, it's VERY important that you talk to someone as soon as possible. It could be a parent or a teacher, or any adult you trust. You can also call the National Adolescent Suicide Hotline at 800-621-4000 to get some help.

Posted on 2/26/2008 9:31:00 AM by Anonymous

Alright I think you should inform her what could happen if she continues taking the pills. Tell her you are her friend and let her know you are there for her. Maybe through each others help ya'll can quit together.

Posted on 2/20/2008 11:51:00 PM by Anonymous

hi i know what a lot of you are going through BELIEVE ME. for that lady who asked about her son i think you shjouldn't send him to a shrinl or anything because honestly my parents tried that with me and it just threw me into an even deeper depression. the lady told me that i needed to be on some kind of medicine after just the first meeting!!!! she didn't care and it cost a lotta money. i think that you should just try to get him to open up and go from there. i think that its god you know and that you are concerned but i dont think you should press the issue too much. i thin that when he is ready to tell you what is goin on he will and when he does tell you, DO NOT JUDGE HIM. just accept him and love him because he is your son. and honestly i think that is all you can do. you can do that and pray...

Posted on 2/7/2008 4:45:00 PM by Anonymous

Hello i am a teenager with depression . Last year when i was off my medicine i tried commiting suicide and almost succed .Now i am back off my medicine and thinking about it again i know it is not healthy but i sometimes think that there is nothing to live for and i think being off my medicne is for the best

Posted on 1/31/2008 1:17:00 PM by Anonymous

I'm 12 and I'm sure I had an anxiety attack/panic attack. All signs lead to depression. I don't have any idea on why I could be depressed. PLEASE HELP!

Posted on 1/30/2008 8:29:00 PM by Anonymous

As a mother seeking advice from all of you, Please help me to help my daughter. She refuses to talk to me about how she is feeling. Her father and I are no longer together. He left, remaried, had lots more kids, drinks, does drugs etc..... I am always their for her the best i no how. She is angry at the world. Hates school, Dosnfunction (m) { return ReplaceChar(m); }t want to do anything she use to love, Im pretty certain she has also started purging, I set up an appointment for Family consouling. She dont want to go though I feel I have to take her. I know how if feels to be lonely as a teen. I too have my horror stories growing up. I truely hated that time of my life. However, this is about my very beautiful daughter, who is so very much hurting inside.. Please tell me how do I help her??????????????

Posted on 1/29/2008 2:24:00 PM by Anonymous

WoW... I am soooo glad to see teenagers write about their troublesome. I am just an average female that been thru a lot while I was young(5yrs till 23yrs). I am now 28yrs old with a child that I love to death. I have studied the streets for years and ignored the actual books that's being taught in Universities.(which having no diploma or degree taught me a baddddd lesson). I would like to say to all teenagers out there, that I understand, feel and see the dark shadow over you. Please give yourself a break and peace thru communicating with an understanding adult and if you are scared of your parents then its understandable, so plz go see a doctor and just open-up with the whole truth...if you still scared, then please try with all the power/energy you have to write it on a piece of paper about the main things that is scaring or troubling you and at the end of the letter write that you would like this confidential(only if you would like too) between him, yourself and the actual helper(could be a family, or psychologist). Please make sure you stay true to yourself and never back-out. Always Stay Strong and I am sure you can clear the dark shadow over you by your honesty!!! For those that are drinking and smoking just remember that those only feels great while you are on it; However, we gotta remember that our PROBLEM is still AROUND!!! Our lives ain't getting any younger, so lets take our lives back with or without any help by first loving ourselves then loving and understanding others. Listen, I am aware that you guys don't know me but I am someone that is willing to help or listen to anyone of need. By the way, I might not have a degree for social worker but I help the kids/youth and parents thru my community in Ottawa, Canada. I can actually say that I Love You guys and I am sure yall gonna follow thru this and in about few mths or so, we will laugh/cry/ and share our knowledge about our situations with others. Well, I am going back to work so yall take care and KEEP YALL HEAD UP WITH POSITIVES!!!! Bye for now.

Posted on 1/22/2008 12:21:00 PM by Anonymous

I might add I am going thru the worst time in my life ...... my son and sister died 4 days apart recently and i can truly say i am drug free and liquor free thankx to God comforting me in my spirit .... no one else can help me like that the most important prayer to pray is Jesus forgive me for everything I have done in life and save my soul and take me to heaven when i die...xxx My son and sis are there and i no ill see them on the other side.........remember God loves you........T

Posted on 1/16/2008 12:14:00 PM by Anonymous

I NEED HELP GROWING UP! It is so hard i dont know how to deal with it.I may be 10 but i know what i am going though. my mom tells me its normal and i know it is and still dont under-stand. Sometimes it hurts bad also i have my 12 year molars i have hair and starting to have bobies! I AM 10 YEARS OLD WILL SOMEONE HELP ME??????????(I HATE PUBERDY)!

Posted on 1/12/2008 11:38:00 AM by Anonymous

wow. we're in the exact same boat. haha, I didn't sleep all night, I just sit up thinking. and listening to sad music. and I started smoking too! depression is the worst. But, my parents are the exact same. well, my dad. He just yells at me, and tells me to get off my ass. I just yell at him back, and lock myself in my room. I haven't even eaten since Wednesday night. It's friday morning. Ha. Yeah, I am also really confused on everything. I need help too. I really need help, but the only person that takes me seriously is my boyfriend, and he lives a couple hours away. I guess I am just depressed because I am lonely. I get bad thoughts too, but, I talk myself out of them. I work out now, and it helps the stress of everything go away. You basically need to just lie on your floor, and stretch. and then yeah, turn on some music. Other times I just turn on music and sit there and think. If you really rack your brain about everything going on in your life, you realize that everything will be okay. a.

Posted on 1/11/2008 7:40:00 AM by Anonymous

All this stuff is sooo true. I am a teen suffering from severe depression. I know that I need help, but I don't know how. No one in my house even realizes it tho. They think that I am just being bad and moody. The fact is that every one in my house is the same way I am. I can't take it anymore. I don't have anyone to talk to. My mom says I can talk to her but I know I really cant. she wont take me serious. I sometimes feel like doing something stupid, and I think of crazy things, but I dont do them. I want help quick before it gets any futher. I dont know were to go.. Can someone help me???

Posted on 1/10/2008 10:50:00 AM by Anonymous