Teen Depression

I just want to die.

im 15 n i never had a boyfriend in my miserable life and everytime i lik a guy i ignore him cause i think they r too cool to b loking at me n now i lik diz guy n i tak to him because we use to go 2 skool 2gether wen we were little but i know hell never like me caz im not skinny nor pretty so i alredy know dat us can never happen

ITS NOT THE TEARS THAT MEASURE THE PAIN SOMETIMES IT THE SMILE WE FAKE TO SHOW OTHERS WE ARE OKAY

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Hey Im 15 and im going through some hard time in my life. My mom told me to find a friend that i can talk to about anything. But its hard because im scared to tell people about my life cause they mite not like me anymore. IM SCARED.

hi. i'm 13 and this sight has got me thinkning that i actually might be depressed. even in a group of friends i feel lonely and isolated, but i dont tell them how i feel cause they wouldn't understand.

l im 15. i havent been diagnosed with depression, not sure if i am depressed. its just that my parents, especially my dad keeps saying i need to know what to do with my life. like as in career wise. i really have no clue. its 2 years till i graduate and i havent got a clue. everyday i think about it and i still dont know. im scared that all my friends will move on, and i wont. i also dont even hangout with people anymore. last year i would hangout with my friends almost everyday. this year, i just dont feel like it. i have lost interest in doing most things. after me and one of my good friends got in a fight i havent really been the same. i dont talk to her anymore, it kinda made me realize that none of the people i hang around are actually my friends. they dont really like me.

im 14, I feel as if i dont care about anything anymore. Ive lost alot of friends, and my family bc of mistakes ive made that lead me on up to this point. I feel like i need a man in my life to make me happy, and i feel like thats all i need. I dont care about my friends anymore and it makes me sad, mad anger and uset at my self....i just dont see the point in living if nothing can make you happy....-Shelbyyy

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Hi, I'm almost 13,and I haven't been diagnosed with depression, but I'm pretty sure that I have it. My sister was diagnosed with severe depression when she was my age and cut herself and everything. I don't have it nearly as bad as my sister does, but I still feel like... I just don't care about anything anymore. Does anyone have any suggestions on helping me talk to my mom?

Hello, my name is Martie. I have this problem I can't seem to get the thought of suicide out of my mind and I just don't know what to do. And I don't think the people around me do either. I feel like i should just walk til i can find something high in the air and just jump i don't know what to do anymore I HATE LIFE AND EVERYTHING IN IT.

Journal #6: Sry I havent written for a while :( So a few weeks ago I finally got up the courage to ask my parents to get me a therapist because I felt that I really needed help. I tried to explain to my mom my feelings and she said it was all normal and when i told her i have felt depressed she started to cry... I ended up agreeing saying that it was just hormones cause i didnt want to hurt her but things still feel the same. More than ever I feel alone, my friends exclude me from every thing and my best friend is going out with my ex bf, we broke up a month ago. Ugh i ended up going home from school and cried my eyes out, the thing that really sucks is that my mom had to stay on the phone with me cause i would have probs hurt myself if she didn't. My eating disorder is coming back and I just really want to stay home and sleep all day. I just want high school to be over. -ki

"Some parents ignore the signs of depression, thinking it is no worse than the normal rebellion associated with the teen years. It can be a dangerous mistake to ignore those signs. Teenagers do not have the same ability as adults do to seek out help from outside sources. Teens depend on the adults in their life to notice the signs and do something about their depression." -- That is the most true thing I have ever read. I am 14 and I "[know] I need help [and] aren't sure how to get it." I feel positive I'm not the only one either. This article didn't help me in the least but of all the things I've read this is the most informative and made me feel there's at least one adult out there in the world who understands. :)

Elizabeth: Hi again! I'm finally getting some help! It turns out that my aunt was depressed like me when she was my age, and she somehow figured it out over email (how in the world did she figure it out?). The thing that stinks though is that she had to go to the hospital for it, and hers was either just as, or not as bad as mine. And I'm super scared of most docters (long story), espailly(sp?) when they have pictures of monkeys in their room (that's my worst fear). And I need to go to a psyciotrist. I guess I'm a little glad because now at least I don't need to keep it to myself anymore. I don't know. I don't know how to handle any of this. I'm pretty much alone at the moment, except for my aunt and best friend.

my parents are *perfect* role models... :(

my twin sister is severely depressed and is suicidal. can someone please help me before it's to late?

Elizabeth: Hi again! I'm finally getting some help! It turns out that my aunt was depressed like me when she was my age, and she somehow figured it out over email (how in the world did she figure it out?). The thing that stinks though is that she had to go to the hospital for it, and hers was either just as, or not as bad as mine. And I'm super scared of most docters (long story), espailly(sp?) when they have pictures of monkeys in their room (that's my worst fear). And I need to go to a psyciotrist. I guess I'm a little glad because now at least I don't need to keep it to myself anymore. I don't know. Email me, please! I'm izzy35@yahoo.com . I don't know how to handle any of this. You can email me if you just want to tallk too, I'm pretty much alone at the moment, except for my aunt and best friend.

I was suicidal a couple years ago, but never cut myself or did anything obvious to parents and friends, except I wore all black or mostly black with gray. But there were also the mood swings. I could be having the time of my life, and my friend might tell me one little thing or crack one stupid joke, and the rest of my day would be ruined. I got over things with help from my father. Him and my mom were divorced and he lived in Ohio, 1000 miles from my home in Florida. He visited once in a while, and eventually he just bought me a plane ticket one weekend and said that it was too dangerous to live with my mom, as she had been using/doing drugs, alcohol, cigarettes, and many other things, and had an abusive husband, whom she broke up with for a man named Isaac, who was an entire 13 years YOUNGER then her. I got better in Ohio, but now the feelings have started coming back. I feel empty, I have mood swings, and I want to cut myself all the time instead of the couple times I'd done in the beginning. Death is becoming an escape plan again. Depression runs in my family strongly on both sides, and I'm pretty sure I have it too. The problem is that I have no clue how to reach out to my mom or dad and tell them I need help, and right now the most I can do is draw and write poetry to make myself feel better.

destiny: i also been raped 2 and im having problems with my mom i have cut my wrist 1 a long time ago what should i do about these crazy thoughts

Im 11 and my parents are divorced. My mom is a les and i get teased all the time for it. My dad lives in a different city and he married this women who was a COMPLETE stranger to me at the time. I never liked her OR her daughters because they always talk about me in a different language which they don't know i know. They call me ugly and fat. I'm on the cheerleading team and im a flyer. Im 5'5 and i weigh 97 pounds. NOT fat at all. But back to my mum. Her girlfriend and her kids live with us. I cant talk to anyone because my mums girlfriend and kids all call me stupid and worthless. They've never abuse me. I dont cut myself but i think about it. And im about to fail out of 6th grade because im so un- confident. I also dont eat lunch. I have a 19 yearold brother that im related to but he's in rehab due to a OD. He's the only one i can talk to but i cant anymore. I need help. ***I know my story isnt half as bad as yours and im ABSOLUTELY NOT looking for attention but i want some help***

Hi, it's Elizabeth again. 3 years ago I was almost raped and I can still feel the man touching me, could that worsen depression? I'm not trying to get attention, I just can't write anything anywhere else because my brothers keep finding my diary & reading it. Does anyone have any advice?

I am a mom of a 17 year old girls who has been suffering from depression since the summer of grade 9 she is now in Grade 12. My heart goes out to all of you suffering, family friends and especially the teens that have depression. It is not easy but know people out there love you and suicide is the most selfish thing you can do. The world will not be a better pplace without you because the world has not even got to know you yet!! Hang in and keep reaching out. We will get you throuhg this.

im depressed. im 14 and recently had an 11 month relationship ended abruptly by my gf. ik she still loves me becuz she told me. however she refuses to even stay friends with me. i am suffering because of this. i want to move on but icant find it in my heart to leave her behind. this is causing me to start cutting and insomnia is taking hold. there is literally nobody who takes me seriously. teachers parents counselors friends ive tried them all. none of them listen.

My name is Bailey. I am a 200 pound 13 year old girl. I am a freshman in high school so nothing about my weight is easy. I used to cut myself and I still think about doing it. I have had suicidal thoughts but I have never done anything to pursue them. I used to be on the honor roll ever report card then I started to get picked on and teased because of my weight, I still do and my grades are and have been ever since 4th grade terrible. Before reading this I thought that it was just my weight making me sad but now I have really thought about it and it is way more than that. I feel like my life is just one crap storm after another and I have no idea how to control it. I want to tell my parents that I believe I am depressed but I just have no idea how to. I have piles and piles of homework every night and I was just recently asked to a homecoming by a guy I went to elementary with and he goes to a different school now........then he found another date and told me I didn't need to go but I could if I wanted to. A family friend of mine was killed in a boat crash in 2006 then y grandpa past away of cancer in 2008. My mom is laid off, my dad has to work in Ohio, my brother treats me like crap until his girlfriend comes over. I really like someone that I have liked for 3 years and he goes from girlfriend to girlfriend but never me. My grandma lives with me now and he is paralyzed from the stomach area down, my parents have really bad credit and we have 6 people living in our house with a very small paycheck. I just don't know what to do. I always put on a fake smile and I want to be an actress because obviously I am good at playing emotions that I don't really feel but I'm not the right size for that. I just need to figure out a way to tell my parents, it could break their hearts.

Journal 4# Dude can I just say how amazingly strong u are. My goodness I couldn't handle that! I find that making a list helps alot, or just writing down ur feelings. It's like ur writing and pushing out every emotion and sending it to someone else to deal with (but not actually sending it). Somedays I can feel that the world is completely overwhelming, I take three deep breaths and try to plan out my day so that I can stay on track. As much as we try to connect with our parents its hard for them to relate. "No one can ever understand unless they have been there". I guess your mom cannot understand what you have been through like u can't understand what it was like for her in some instances. Power through high school as best as you can. Getting your diploma is something no one can take away and that you can be proud of. Your in control of your future never the less of your past. In some cities they will have teen clinics where you can go and talk to someone without having ur parents notified. I am looking into it as well but it sounds like a good deal. It is important that you talk to a professional before your mental health becomes worse. Talking can really help and it will let u clear ur head so that you can focus. I hope that will help. -ki

Journal #3 Its a never ending cycle. I can be soo excited and end up being totally depressed. I have no idea how to keep my emotions in tact. Also I never seem to be able to commit in a relationship. I seem to have some weird fear about being able to stay with a guy. Like I can find a perfect guy but find some reason to break up with him. I get these gut wrenching feelings that I should feel guilty for being with them. Also I cannot stand when a guy touches me. It freaks me out and brings back those awful feelings from when I was Sexually Abused. I dunno how to deal with my roller coaster emotions. xoxo ki

Journal #2 Control. An emotion, state of being, something many fear yet others want more than anything. I always felt like I had no control over who I am or what my choices were (i still sorta do). Parents choose how I should act and present myself. While my friends do everything my parents are against. I am close to my parents but when I listen to them I loose my friends interest. I felt that i had no control and resorted to how I ate. It was something I could control. However the effects on my body were brutal and my depression got worse. How could one word effect my entire being... I strived for a year trying to control how my friends acted and ended up being hated for it. I guess I believed that if I could control them I could control my family and overall myself. Control, a simple word with so many definitions. I am trying to find balance in myself this year, learn that somethings are just out of my control and overall I need to only worry about myself (not being controlling over my friends lives). xoxo ki

Sometimes kids especially girls will do anything to get a reaction out of someone. When they say ur too skinny or ugly maybe, they wanna see how far u will go to make them happy about themselves and get approval. I mean i don't know u nor these kids but maybe they want more attention. Like if your skinny, girls would die to be like u and that probably gets to ur so called friends. Also with them forcing u to eat until u got sick isn't cool. I mean in the end when ur friends are gone Ur friends may be rebelling to you as well, Like maybe they feel they are being replaced by ur bf. Its important you make time for them and let ur bf know how much he means to u but that ur friends mean alot as well. If he's a good bf he will understand. Another thing u need to remeber is that if u and ur bf break up your gonna need ur friends. They won't always be there if u are always with ur bf. I understand that how much frustration and how lost u are feeling. But do things that benifet yourself. If u wanna dance, dance. Find something of ur own that u can always count on. Where u can grow personally and not worry someone will take it away. Things will get better, just find balance in urself, family, friends , bf and school. anyway i hope i helped a bit :) xoxo ki

journal 1# Ever wondered about the path u choose? maybe that the path u could have chosen would have lead to the same path u were at? I know I sure do. I wonder if it is destiny. That maybe everyone is put through tests like ours. I moved schools in 4th grade. Only to be sexually abused by someone i thought i could trust. However as time goes by I meet my old old friends who i find suffer some sort of depression like my own. It makes me think, if i stayed would i have been bullied, raped or anything like their own? Its an odd thing to believe that so many friends i lost, and re-found are being tortured through depression. I guess that goes to show ur not alone. xoxo ki

im 14 years old and i used to be constantly depressed. i felt sorry for myself and i didnt want to take control of my life. instead i decided id rather end it. but luckily i didnt and i was admitted to a mental heath facility for kids to get back on their feet. they prescribed my antidepressants and i saw a therapist every 2 weeks. throughout the summer i stoped taking all medications and a break from therapy and i feel good about life. it takes a different way of thinking and i still feel quite lonely sometimes but happiness can be a text or phone call away. if you feel depressed don't let it go anywhere. Don't cut or atempt anything stupid for attention. its not worth it trust me and haveing someone who knows your problems can sometimes be the best cure. so talk.

i was depressed a few years ago majorly, i spent every night crying over nothing. might of been my desceased father, or acholic stepdad, druggie mom even idk. but i was depressed for years and at the tipping point in 5th grade it was horrible. i felt outta it. like i stuck out in the crowd and that everyone was always looking and judging. i felt like i was popping out of my skin, i had darks thoughts and angry poetry, but i was too humilatied to tell anyone. i meen i was just another girl who was starting drama or making a big deal outta nothing. i was completely lost, but then i went out for soccer and tho it didnt help as much it helped a lil. i met some people who i flet understood me, and from there i dont know what happend but i felt better, especially with a bit of church. and i turned my life around without anyone knowing what was happening in the first place.

my daughter is 18 years old and has been talking to a 40 year old on line for 2 weeks since she met him at walmart. sha says she has strong feelings for him and spent a night with him she says nothing happened, but i'm afraid for her and she seems to think theres nothing wrong because shes an adult now help!! any suggestions on how to help her understsnd?

my daughter has ben seing a christian counselor for depression for about a year and has been on lexapro for two months... she is almost 16 and has had diabetes since she wa 13months old... she is a habitual liar, was caught stealing at walmart a year ago, stealing large amounts of $ from her dad and i, and lost a summer job for stealing... i originally started her in therapy because she was cutting herself... she writes beautifully but it's almost always about blood and / or suicide... she fell in love witha a guy when she was in the 9th grade (she was homeschooled until then) and he left the school after that one year. since then he doesn't give her a thought but she continually writes how much she loves him and life without him isn't worth living... she SEEMS to be trying harder to cope with being part of this world lately but her writing still insists that that is just a cover so we will leave her alone and stay out of her business... i'm worried! mostly for her living life but also for her life away from the lies and stealing... she knows that i love her no matter what and i've told her that being trusted is the most important thing we can lose... What else can i do and how can i help her to love and respect herself enough to give up this guy and realize how loved and special she is so i won't have to worry about suicide or jail???

hi my name is jeff i been felling sad and taht i want to die my heart hurts i feel out of place like im an outcast i know i need help i been cutting my arms and legs please someone help me.... my email is xixjefferyxix@yahoo.com

Shygal: Hey everyone. Sorry it's been awhlie. Ok I've seen so many "Comments" about sexal abuse. First cutting youself is not fun! Who ever posted that really needs to GET HELP! Cutting yourself is not a solution. I feel so bad for the people who have been sexally abused. It's not right. No one's a physco's, just people who want attention and NEED as much as help they can get. People, quite judgeing people like that! Please! It's not right and get s them down even more! For those people that are sexally abused, go to the police! Your own family abuseing you is not right. And you should not be living with them. get the help that's needed. Worry about yourself at this time.

hii. my name is charice and i am depressed. i have been in depression for about three years now. each day i think about how i can take myself off this earth. i feel as i am not wanted and no one is looking out for me. that noboody even cares. my depression first started when i was melestad by my father. he had stuck his penis in my face and i cryed. he made me perfrom oral sex on him. when i didnt tell my mom he thought that it was okay so he would do it again. it eventually got to the point where he would rape me at night. and i was wide awake he said that i liked it becasue i closed my eyes. i told him that the only reason why i was doiing that was becuase i was holding back tears. he would reape me around four times a week. then it got worse when my mom started abusing me cause when i finally told her that i was getting melasted and raped she would get mad and not believe me so she would usually punch me in the arm or in the face. it was horrible. then i went to a mental instituion cause i tried to murder my parents but it didnt work. i got abck three months ago and my father iis doing the same thing and my mom will stab me if she is in a bad mood. but i feel better talking about this and i need it. thankks

Hey everyone. If anyone just needs someone to talk to, feel free to email me at tymiller_009@yahoo.com. I'm not another adult here to tell you how you're a beautiful child no matter what. Yes you should believe in yourself but sometimes you want more advice that just hope. Just me hope is a lovely thing too but to me that just doesn't feel enough at times. If anyone needs to let something off there back with someone to actually listen to them and understand them. Feel free to talk to me. I'm just a teen like all of you ( except for that women a few post ago:) ) and I know how to put myself in your situation and understand it. I've give through some horrible times too, and I'm actually going through a really really tough time now. But I just feel like reaching out and helping someone. Like I said, feel free to talk to me.

wow you dont sound depressed you sound trashy commentor below

im 14 years old and i was sexually abused. I was about nine years old at the time and i had no idea what had happened. The worst part is that it was by my best friend who was also a girl. Im not a lesbian or anything. She told me never to tell anyone and when I finally found out what was going on I told her that I wouldn't tell anyone if she got out of my life. She's my next door neighbor and goes to my school. Everyday I see her and I want to scream and tell her how she's made my life a living hell. My parents still don't know and I have no idea how to tell them. I get these awful depression cycles its like im on a rollar coaster. I tried killing myself when i was younger and i often feel so worthless and stupid for letting it happen. All of friends, teachers and family see me as a happy teen. i don't drink or do drugs, i get average grades and im asst. captin of both volley ball and basket ball teams. I'm an up beat person on the outside but i just have these awful break downs. Ive made myself sick at school, and gone days without eating. I think i have depression, or bipolar but i have no idea what to do. My parents think of me as the greatest kid in the world but all i see is this stupid naive girl who is dying inside. I really need help, some advice. thanks.

To all of you beautiful young people,I'd first like to say that I came to this site to read about teen depression because my son (16) is displaying behavior that I'm unable to understand. I am not posting this to help with him though, I am posting this because after reading all of your entries I became so sad. I am only 33 yrs. old, I gave birth to my son at 17 and I've done the best I can, graduated high school, and even went to college, altough it was a challenge.I'd like to make an attempt to shed some light on why you are confused, as I am still young enough to remember the confusion and pain of being an adolescent, yet old enough to have some wisdom. While growing into adulthood, things I have realized is that (and parents will hate to see that I told you this) ALTHOUGH ADULTS HAVE MORE LIFE EXPERIENCE THAN YOU, AND CAN OFFER SOME ADVICE...WE DO NOT KNOW EVERYTHING AND DO NOT HAVE ALL OF THE ANSWERS ABOUT LIFE. I frequently tell my kids (1 boy, 1 girl) that I don't know. I'm not all that much different than they are, I just have to work really hard and I've lost the ability to be carefree. I often find myself wishing that I was young again, although I hated it then, I realize that I had time on my side then. IF YOU ARE SUFFERING AND ARE IN PAIN, PLEASE REALIZE THAT YOU BELONG IN THIS WORLD. WE ARE ALL A PART OF NATURE, WE WERE ALL BORN THE SAME WAY, WHETHER YOU ARE PHYSICALLY BEAUTIFUL OR NOT YOU HAVE A PURPOSE. TRUST YOURSELF AND TRY TO GIVE MORE THAN YOU TAKE. I PROMISE YOU THAT IN LIFE (MAYBE NOT RIGHT NOW) IF YOU CONTRIBUTE POSITIVE ENERGY, IT WILL COME BACK TO YOU. TAKE ENJOYMENT IN SIMPLE THINGS (PUPPIES, SUNSETS, THE OCEAN, THE MOON, KITTENS...JUST NATURE, ECT...) DON'T LOOK SO HARD FOR PEACE, AS IT LIES WITHIN. YOU CANNOT CHANGE THE WHOLE WORLD, BUT YOU CAN START WITH YOURSELF AND RUB OFF ON OTHERS. DO NOT JUDGE PEOPLE WHETHER THEY ARE GAY, STRAIGHT, FAT, SKINNY, BLACK, WHITE...YOU GET IT. BE GENTLE WITH YOURSELFS, YOU ARE CHILDREN OF THE UNIVERSE AND YOU HAVE PLENTY TO OFFER. FIND YOUR PASSION AND MOST OF ALL....LOVE YOURSELF

I'm 11 and have HUGE thoughts that I am going through puberty because I keep arguing and yelling at my parents- mostly my mom. I've always had a hard life - ever since my parents got divorced when I was 4- and I don't think m,y mom understands that it's puberty. Maybe this website will help. I thank God for this website!!!

ok so you dont need to read this i know that there are so many and i just really need to talk so you can or cant it dont matter to me but thank you for reading if you do and thank you if you dont.My name is robbie,im 15 years old and i really dont know what is wrong with me i want too die but i just cant do that too me family and as well my self. im a gay teenager and i live in a small town were i am one of the most disliked people here i cant stay here anymore i just wish that i was never born and i was sexual assulted when i was really young. over and over and then that man passed away and then i was assulted again by a diffrent man and no one knows that i just cant tell anyone with out them getting mad.my life really sucks i just hate it and then i go and see my friends going out with someone and here is me alone. i...i just feel unwanted, unloved, and not cared about and i feel like i have no care about anything and i just have to make myself go do something and then sometimes i will just breakdown and yelll and start crying out of the blue. i love to make people happy and i know that i can do that easly and its killing me to see them say oh my life sucks and blah blah blah when only something little happens when they have no idea what went on with me. i cant handel it any more they all want comfort and wont give me any i hate it i hate it i hate it. i need someone to be here for me so bad.

Okay im going to be 13 in september, ever since my little couin died when he was one (almost a year now) i have been feeling like i dont belong here and i shouldnt be in this house my life is pointless is the thing that runs through my head when some one is yelling at me in my house there is frequent yelling even though i have a new boyfriend now i feel empty should i tell my boyfriend?? I cry myself to sleep at night sometimes or break out crying at school dances.i havnt told my parents how i feel becuase they wont understand.7/13/09 i know i need help

i wiish that there was more to life than thiis...i wish i knew why i was put on this earth..for what purpose? my dad definantly doesnt know why~i am consatnly being shut out~sam (sammy3xo)

Im 14 years old and I am always depressed but I cover up the pain all the time. If you asked my teachers or friends, they'd all say I'm enthusiastic and happy. I am happy and I am grateful but all my life I've been feeling like I'm wishing on a broken star. Like theres no hope or strength left in me. I want a different life and i never discuss my feelings so i dont know what to do anymore. I cry at night when everyones asleep, I try to make my father proud of me so much. My brother gets all the attention in the house and i feel like I'm a doormat. I cant explain how i feel but I feel like my life is like a ticking time bomb. I am grounded all the time its like a hobby for me but if I tell someone why im grounded, they'd look at me like i had two heads. I cant even blink the wrong way without getting grounded for a month, and im not happy. I feel like my life is broken or something. I cant explain how i feel so why try? I am so depressed and i dont want to tell my parents or friends.

Tm: Ok, I'm in a really screwed up situation. I'm 15 about to be 16 in 4 months. About 7 and a half months ago I met the girl I love today. Our parents introduced us. Our parents were starting to date. From the first time we say eachother we could feel something was there. That night I called her and we talked for 8 straight hours until the sun came up. We went against our parents wishes and dated ourselves without them knowing anything. Her dad never sayer with any of his exgirlfriends so me and my girl didn't think they were even gunna last. Her dad cheats on my mom when she isn't there and she doesn't believe me. Me and my girl r perfect for eqchother I know we are, but it seems like it is impossible fir us to really be together. I get to stay the night over there aometimes with my mom and we have to put on a front so they don't suspect anything. All of our friends that know about us think we r destin for eachother. I never want to lose her. About a month ago the parents found hickies on her neck. Yes, we had sex, we thought we were ready. I had to leave and stay home. The parents had serious talks with the both of us individually and wanted us to "quit the bullshit." So we stopped talking for about 2 weeks. But we just couldn't stay apart. I'm serious! Like these feeling are way to strong for me to just hide. Just yestirday the parents talked to us yet again. I'm punished for 2 weeks atleast and they say I can never call her again. But we talk through email. We want to get through these 3 years of school and when we are 18 go off and do our own thing. Her dad has threaten to kill me if I ever get back together with his daughter. But we just can't stay away from eachother. I just want this to blow over in three years so I can be with her again. And not to long ago we found out she was pregnant. She is about three and a half weeks pregnant and she wants to get and abortion because we really aren't in the situation for that. The parents well her dad would try to kill me, I can get a job anywhere to help support us, and we r only 15 and still in highschool. I don't know what to do. I wanted to go move in with my dad 1000 miles away but I just can't leave her like that. Never. Someone give me help. And I'm doing this on wifi so it is slow. If u want to contact me to give me help talk to me on my email at tymiller_009@yahoo.com. Please and thank you....

well there is one person who cares and that's the 1 that takes pills 4 her depression

If anyone needs just sum1 2 talk 2 contact me at kelsitherabbit@yahoo.com . Btw same person who posted at 5 am or so.......

I am barely over 12 years old, and already I have attempted suicide twice. I live in a house where my sisters can get away with anything, and their worst punishment is having to stay inside for a day. I have had to deal with my dad trying to ship me off to a boarding school and, more recently, his threats to hurt me. My mom acts like she cares, but, of course, my sisters are far more important than me. She asked me one time if I was depressed, so, unthinkingly, I questioned why she thought that. It was because of a notebook of suicide poems. My dad blames my "emo, depressed friends who hang out with their boyfriends all day." I have one friend who has a boyfriend, and last I heard, they were in another fight. Honestly, at this point, I don't know what to do anymore. Cutting doesn't work, both my attempts at suicide were close, but failed(the car was two inches away from my side!!!!!), my friends don't really care, and the only counselor that I've talked to (school counselor) almost gave me detention for something he knew my friend did. I'm pretty sure I need help, mostly due to the numerous depression tests that say I'm severly depressed, but no one else notices or would ever think I am like this.

Ive had a tramatic childhood...doesnt that just sound lame but for those who can relate to my story maybe it doesnt sound so insignificant. Ive been beaten by my father, molested by a stranger, abandoned at 10 years old when my parents divorced while my dad lost his mind and my mom chose drugs and sex over her numerous children. Ive been screwed over by any friend or family member Ive ever lent my trust to. My ex boyfriend is blackmailing me because I refuse to be in an unhealthy relationship with him. My only true friend just abandoned me when I needed her the most because she cant stand how miserable I am all the time. What a good friend huh? I have Bipolar Disorder, PTSD, and Severe Anxiety which Ive suffered from since I was 8 years old. I have done everything in the book to try to make myself feel better. With negetive coping mechanisms I have done massive amounts of drugs, started smoking at 15, started binge eating, later became anorexic, banged my wrists, cut my arms, and tried unsuccessfully killing myself 3 times now. My mom laughed when she found out I started cutting at the age of 14 and my dad thinks that despite my diagnoses, that Im just being an overdramatic teenager. When I turned 18 I decided to help myself. Ive been seeing a therapist for the last 6 months and while talking to someone whos unbiased is comforting, they cant be there to hold your hand once you leave their office. I started taking prescriptions for anti depression and anxiety but have recently stopped because they made me sick every morning after I took them. I have lost out on an opportunity to love someone as well as a close friend to fall back on. I dont have very many friends and pretty much no family so in light of recent events I feel like a 19 year old loser whose suffocating in her own emptiness. Im screaming, begging for help yet its just silence all around me. I am a wallflower, a whisper in the wind. I am nothing.

ShyGal: To the 18 year old. Right now is a hard time. A highshooler moving on to the next level. Since the guy you like does not wnat to date you, he's propably not for you. When you get to Callege, You'll met new people and more in likely oyu'll have the best guy friend you can ever have. Then most in likely he'll get crush on you. As for home, it's hrad living with a new family that you don't fit into. Your stepmother and siblings are so much different then what you're use too. But as long as you know that your dad is always there, then start making him someone that can be your best friend for now. In college, you'll have new friends that will care for you and help you get through this. Just keep your faith and hope too, You'll get through this soon. Signed ShyGal

ShyGal: If you need any advice, help, or if you like my opinons, email me. I just made this email address for anyone that thinks they need help. EMAIL ADDRESS: shygal24.7help@gmail.com. Signed ShyGal

-- :( Im 15 going to be 16 in 6 months. My parents are forcing me to move with thems to Toronto when we live in Timmins, I have my school here my boyfriend and a job. i have been strssing out crying everyday just thinking about it always staying in my room since not geting much sleep at all. Not eating much puking because im so sad that I get headaches and stomach aches., The moving will begin in late July. I really do not wanan go I love the way my life is at the momment. I just don't know what to do anymore. I told my mom, if I go im goign to hate you and do anythign to not go even kill my self if I have to. I siad that there was no way that im going to want to go. :'( This is not something i would open up to, to people but I just don;t know what to do anymore. I hate my life!

ShyGal : Ok I just got done reading through some of these old "comments" and MOST of them had cutting involed. Why? Why does everyone cut themsleves? I don't get it. It does NOTHING but the loss of blood. And if you don't cut far, it hardly bleeds. So, why scar yourself? I'm not trying to be mean or rude but how come? It really makes no sence. Like I said before, CUTTING DOES NOTHING TO HELP. My advise for those people would be to think about the people around you, and think what they would do. Ask yourself. "Would mom (dad, grandma, best friend, ect.) do this to themselves? Scar themselves to do nothing?"

ShyGal: Don't do that. There's no need to. I know life is hard right now but there is no need. Dieing would just make everyone you love in to depression. Would you want that?

Listen, I know what you are feeling. This is going out to the 16 year old that posted a comment on the 4th of June. I have already posted a comment that is below. I am a 14 year old girl and know what your going through. my advice would be...start making new friends in your school and once you feel comfortable enough, talk to them about you depression. It helps so much. I have maybe about 5 friends and they all care about me. Or you can talk to your old friends about your depression. I feel bad about your dad and I'm very sorry about it. My dad has verys of chances of heart attack and is not paying attention to those facts. I very scared that my dad may end up dead :'(. My depression will worsen. But I know that if you get friends that care for you, you'll have no probalem getting out of this depression. You need to tell your mom that your not just going through a "teen thing" and that your step father is wrong. There is a chance of getting help. Unlike me who can't. Parents may seem busy but if you tell them that it is important, they'll listen. Try to caught them before they go to work or something and have them sit down and they'll listen.

My baby, my fifteen year old daughter, has run away. She has been gone for three weeks yesterday. She left school during lunch and nobody has seen her or heard from her. I just found out that she has only three main friends all from different social circles. She has become a loner this year and I had no idea. I consider us close but I feel such pain that I didn't see what she was going through. Her father molested her when she ws just in fourth grade and visited him out of state for th first time. After many years and a strained relationship with her father the truth came out and now the other states courts are invoolved. She is terrified! I know she met a boy recently and is having sex and I am worried she might be pregant. Her friends tell me she has also been experimenting with prescription pills. I ak so mad at myself for not seeing the pain and confusion she was going through. I wish thqat I could just hold her and let her know that I am here to help her. I miss her so much! PARENTS PLEASE PAY ATTENTION! DON'T DISMISS DEPRESSION AS NORMAL TEEN STUFF! DON'T ASSUME YOUR BABY WILL COME TO YOU LIKE WHEN THEY WERE YOUNG. GET TO KNOW THEIR FRIENDS AND DEVELOPE RELATIONSHIPS WITH THEM!

I actually try to tell people how I feel but NO one even listens to me.... especially my family. I know it's just cause i'm going through so much, but i honestly don't beleive theirs a single person in the world who loves or cares about me....I don't even like going to school cause people there are just so mean and don't care, not even my "friends" I know i'm heading down the wrong road here and that's why i need help so if anyone can help me, please do so.

im 13yrs old. i can really relate to the person who wrote on 5/27/09. i write poems and i am writing a book called The Red Oranges. i know it sounds lame but it isn't. if you're stuggling w/ thoughts of suicide, you should keep a diary, or a ''feeling book'' or something like that

i lost my mom to esophagus cancer when i was 10(in 2005), almost exactly a year later, my best friend and grandpa has a stroke, and for the last 3 years, has been living with little memory and in a living hell, he has dimentia and soon will have alzheimers, later that same summer my grandpa on my mom's side died... now my dad has kidney stone that wont pass, his sciatic nerve is screwed, he needs to lose at least a 100 lbs and he and i fight nearly all the time, but he cant walk and now my grandma who's husband is in the nursing home with dimentia has the same leg problem as my dad, and my other grandma has parkensins and severe arthiritis.... and this is going to sound dumb, but to top it all off i've had 3 girls in the last 3 years break my heart... the girl part doesnt bother me as much, but it sucks too because i cant find anyone to spill all of these feeling to, ive never considered suicide too much, because i dont want to hurt everyone around me with my mistakes, but i honestly dont know wut to do, i just want everything to be like it used to be... help me plz

Hi, I'm not going to say my name, but I will say I'm a 13 year old girl and in 8th grade. I had panic attacks when I was about nine years old, and I'm pretty sure I've had major anxiety issues ever since. Lately I've lots my appetite, and I either feel really happy or I feel like there isn't a point in living anymore. Numbers are always racing through my mind and I have thought about hurting myself. Is something wrong with me? Can somebody help me? please? I'd really appreciate it.

thanks that really helps. im Posted on 5/18/2009 10:48:00 PM and i was hoping someone would respond. my parents want me to go to a theripst, but i cant find one in my area thats a woman. and i wouldnt feel comfortable talking in a group. any other suggestions?

i've never been to this website before but ive found it very helpful. i've taken over a dozen depression quizs but almost hate myself for thinking im depressed when theres people out there with real depression and real problems. ive told my boyfriend who is also my best friend that sometimes i wish i could get dementia, and forget my whole life, and ive told him i just want to run away and start a new life where no one knows me. ive lost intrest in everything and have violent nightmares of rape and dieing and being tortured. sometimes i want to die just to escape everything. when drive by myself i sometimes want to ram my car into the guardrail. i just want to know if anyone else feels this way. and to all the girls who cut, i hope you've found help. the things posted on here seem so genuine, i wish i could talk to and help each one of you. please if someone can tell me if my thoughts are normal.

well we will say my name is nicole. im 17 yrs old and when i was five yrs old my dad started molesting me and it continued until i was nine. one morning my brother(18 now) woke up and went and told my mom that my dad was doing bad things to me. well my mom believed him and she came and woke me up and told me that when i got finished getting ready for school to come to the living room so that we could talk. my dad had always beat my mom even before they got married and he even almost shot her. well i went into the living room and she asked me if there was anything that i wanted to tell her and i told her NO even though i knew what she was talking about. So she said ok and drove us to school. when we got there i broke down crying and i told her that dad had been hurting me for several yrs. so then she took me to the police station and they took me to the hospital. then we left there and on the way home we stoped at chevron and there was my dad he started yelling at us. well we kicked him out of the house and he tried several times to hurt us again. we began taking him to court but my counselor stoped the trial. then he moved to north carolina so that was it for about 7 yrs. then my grandma his mom found out that she had cancer and he moved back. i had blocked out everything that he had done to me becuz i was young and didnt understand any of it. when he came back he kept talking about my breasts and my butt and even tried to start touching me again. then everything started to come back to memory. in october of last yr i started having what they call pseudoseziurs which is from your emotions i was hospitilalized for almost a month. i began cutting and not eating then they put me on medicine for my bi-polar disorder. i also had ptsd. well everytime that my dad would come to visit me i would get worse so then i started seeing several counselors and pschys. and still do till this day. then they put me in a mental institute twice. i came out and i had stoped cutting but now ive started back again im severly depressed im failing school i have only one friend my mom thinks i do all of this for attention now we fight all the time me and my brother no longer talk and i only live across the hall from him. im getting ready to be put in a mental institute again. i just want to be normal and not cut anymore PLEASE HELP ME!!!!! MY NAME IS ASHLEY N

Before I got injured(herniated disc) I was outgoing, athletic, basically an all around happy person. At school with my friends I feel as if I have a mask on hiding my true feelings. It hurts, not only am I in physical pain, but I am also In mental pain as well. I never want to do anything anymore, I don't want to hang out with my friends, my grades are going down, and I'm starting to cut back on food. I'm dropping the weight the I didn't even need to lose. My mom thinks I'm depressed and I can see the pain I have put her through. I'm slowly falling apart. Please help me.....what should I do?

Im 17 years old about to be 18 last year i lost my boyfriend he was my best friend it was hard for me to deal with i was so depressed i used to cut every day my parents paid no attention to the cutts until one day they saw them all the way up my arm, they thought i was crazy and psychotic. I calmed doen eventually and just cried myself to sleep everyday its been a year i have a new boyfriend but its not the same i want my old one back im so depressed still and my parents dont think i need help they think its just a phase help??

I am 16 years old and have never been so unhappy in my entire life. I am the least assuming person with depression. I am outgoing and generally happy on the outside.I am a three season varisty athelete. I make people laugh and cover my unhappiness up with a smile. I have plenty of friends and one best friend who is suicidal and I will always be there for her and love her but with everything she goes through I would never want to burden her with my problems. I don't talk to my parents and when i get home i go up to my room and dont come down. I cry almost everyday when I get home and everynight before I go to sleep. I have awful grades and i just don't seem to care or try. People say I can do better but I know that I can't. I have been living a lie since i entered high school and no one understands the pain i go through inside. There are days when I wish that I were dead. One, to get away from all the stress of life. And two, for people to feel the pain i have. I realize how selfish that is and I dont know why i think that. I do not have a horrible life and i should be happy compared to the lives of others but i cant seem to be happy. I am tired of living a lie and dying on the inside. It hurts even more to pretend that I am happy. I don't ever want to say i have depression but i hate being unhappy. I need help.

i am 16 years old, seventeen in june. i know all too well what its like to be suicidal or depressed, all last year and all my freshman year i was so horridly depressed that i didnt even recognize myself, id like to say that i am happy now, but, i cant without lying. in the past year ive lost a best friend (gained a new one) nearly flunked out of highschool and am feeling ever increasing pressure from my parents. so i recieved my junior paper and immediatly decided to do it on suicide. i thought maybe, just maybe i can reach out to someone through my paper, like my friend and ex-pastor, mark, did for me i dont exactly know the point in which i stopped wanting to die but, i know now that suicide isnt the answer, EVER! i wish so hard every day that things would get easier for me, but so far no luck....im absolutly head over heels in love with an amazing guy and my friendships are stronger than ever. yet still i feel as if something is missing! although im going through sort of a rough time right now i just wanted to let people know that they arent alone in this f-ed up place called earth!!! remember that no matter how bad things seem no matter how much it seems like things will never get better, there is always at least one person that cares. and if you commit suicide you never know what it may do to that person....it could drive them to kill them selves too...so. remember. no matter what , you always have SOMEONE!!!! <3 <3 <3

last year i spent the first three months of my school year, laying awake for several hours, crying and finding everything wrong with my life and never focusing on what was good in my life. at school im loud and overly energetic, so nobody will notice anything. i just tell people im tired. still, this year i'm doing the same things. no matter how long i sleep, im always tired. and i've become so angry with everyone and everything this year, its unbearable. i've found i hate people and the society in general pisses me off so much. the only thing i get joy out of these days is playing volleyball, but even today i find that when i go home from a tournament, the only things i can focus on are the things i did poorly. my grades are incredible compared to most of my school, but they never seem to be good enough for me. i lie to my parents about small things, because im always afraid of being yelled at. im a good kid. i dont drink or do any drugs. and i dont sneak around or exhibit sexual behavior. i know i need help, but im not willing to talk to my mom, because i know she'll yell at me about it...what do i do?

The below comment is not funny. Depression should be taken seriously. One out of 6 teens is depressed. My son has all of the symptoms, has had therapy and it is a constant battle to have him do his school work. Depression is a very common problem and should not be taken lightly

HI my name Cookie. My life hasn't been going to well. My mom thinks i'm depressed and says that i need to go see a physciatrist after meeting with him. My aunt says the sameand that i have the symptoms and i'm getting fat.. but they haven't talked with eachother about it. I think i am ... I've lost complete intrest for photography the one thing that used to keep me going. Now it just doesn't matter. During Spring Break i met this guy online.. im not supposed to have a Myspace but i have one anyways.. i met up with him once and we text all the time. Hes really nice. But sometimes he doesnt talk to me which maKes me think he doesn't like me .. when i ask him he says he likes me.. it confuses me. SO on top of my depression this confusion makes me go crazy. I dont know what the bright side of life is anymore. I'm not sure if there ever was one.

Hi, I am a 13 year old girl in the 7th grade and my life has been hard since the last year or so. . . First of all, I am a mormon and, if you don't know what that is, we are a religion like you. There is nothing different! Why can't people understand that?!? People assume and think we are different things than what we really are and think that since we are different, some people think we are bad people. I go to a school that has 6th, 7th, and 8th graders. There is one mormon in each grade, but I don't think they're really into the church. . . I love my church so very much and I sometimes think that there's no one else out there like me. I want to know that there is SOMEONE like me. At least one! And as much as I love my church, I hate foul language, or as some teens say, cussing. I hate it! It makes me uncomfortable. I'm called terrible names and cussed out and flipped off just because I don't like it. No one has respect and I practically cry myself to sleep every night. I feel like no one understands me or my problems. I feel addicted to a song I recently discovered called, "Never Alone" by Barlowgirls. I feel I can relate to it easily and I think that's why I love it so much. Does anyone know what I can do? I can't run away from anything and I'm falling apart. I can't mend my broken heart. It's shattered in tiny pieces scattered all along the floor and no one can find all the pieces to fix it up. . . Does anyone understand at least a little of what is happening? I don't like the changes that are happening and sometimes I feel like there is no point to this world. I can't find anyway to feel better. What can I do?

hi im a 12 yr old girl and i feel that i really shouldnt be on this earth. because my life has sucked since i started 6th grade. my friends ignore me and when i do something to help them they take the blame for it.my mom says when me and my bro leave the house she is goin 2 divorce my dad. cuz she is in so much pain right now. i think of the life i want to be and how strong i can dream i am. i really try to cut my self and yes it feels good. but i get angry easily and i just start yelling I WANNA DIE I WANNA DIE. and since i cuss alot at school since my parents wont even let my say freakin i have to hold that in 2 which puts even more pressure on me i really dont have anyone 2 talk about what i really think this has really helped alot. cuz my friend in febuary went 2 a mental institution cuz she lost her memory cuz her doctor overdosed her. life has been hard but i still want 2 full fill it.

To...I have a question...I'm the mom of a seventeen year-old who is very depressed. Please, call your friend's parents and let them know. If you can't do that, call your local Contact Crisis center and let them know and they can call his parents. This is not a question of loyalty or betrayal. It is life or death. Choose life. Take care and you are a good friend.

how do you tell your parents you think you might be depressed?

I'm depressed. It all happened so suddenly. Worst of all, I handle it with food. I hate myself everyday.

I read through all these comments and I am amazed of what some of you have gone through and what some of you are still going through right now. I am a firm believer that some people should not be allowed to have children. Every child deserves a loving, safe, nurturing, and educational environment. Depression is not something easy to handle, however, I want you to think about something. There are millions of children out there in this world who have it a lot worse than you might have it. We always think that our situation is the worse and that everyone elses is so much better. There are children in this world who live in wars, who die of malnutrition, who are being sex slaves to grown men, who work for 2 cents 12 hours a day. Open your minds and believe that each one of you can make a difference in this world. This post might sound nothing to you right now, but don't let things get you down. Have faith and believe in yourself. We all make choices in our lives that we live with, make your choice and let it be a good one.

I have all of the symptoms of depressioin listed here and then some, i cut myself and can stop. I think I have depression, but idk if meds willl help me. I have gone to numerous therepists and often think about suicide. none of my old friends take me seriously, they judge me, and are worried and scared of and for me. i need alot of help, but idk what to do- a teenage girl

i have been cutting myslef for over 2 years now and no body know but i can't hide my depression anymore it's just not fair that my parents don't care about me because of the way i dress and i way my makeup looks they just push me aside like some old toy or somthing my mom and dad say i'm worthless on a dailey basis it hurts alot because they are supposed to be the two people you can trust the most but not in my case the only person i trust is my boyfriend and i only trust him because he cuts him slef too

Yo dude i was like the best person before this girl showed up in my life nowsince i ben with her i cant ever get her off my mind i love her soo much, she treated me like crap during the first part of our relationship then i started to gradually slip away then one day i wanted to break up because my parents were not letting me do anything at all and would scream at me for being with her, so me and her went on a break then she all of a sudden starts seeinga foreign exchange student. My heart is so broke she promised tomarry me my parents havent got much better to the point to where they are trying to pick my gfs and wont consider me, i have thought about suicide many times recently i wake up every hour and puke my stomach and chest hurt my heart always beats fast and im really tired of this idk what to do

Hi, I'm 15. I live with only my mom. I grew up with two older siblings who were running away and fighting drug abuse constantly. We moved constantly. I always said I wouldn't be like them, but I find it really hard to keep my promise because I really feel like my family is not really a family. They know my name but they don't know anything about me. They think that I write and draw really bad things, and listen to bad music. They don't ever really ask me questions about how I'm doing. I think maybe they think I'm weird and that I'm just like every other teen. I don't even feel like my mom has a right to make rules for me because she doesn't take the time to care for or love me. My favorite place to be is in a dark car when it's raining, and I can just cry all I want with no one knowing. I spontaniously cry a lot and I never know why. It's not like I'm thinking of anything. It just feels really good to cry. I know that I'm extremely lonely! I don't feel like I'll ever find love in my life and even my friends who say they like me only like something about me that isn't really there. I guess I act like someone else around my friends because I don't think they would like who I really am. I would be really boring to them. I have cut myself once. It was ok but nothing exciting. I would never commit suicide because I believe in God and I think that suicide is considered murder. Therefore I can't die, but I can't live either. I'm stuck in a completely emotionless state of being. A dark, lonely void! All I want to do is LOVE someone! I will find my refuge in GOD..... Since he's beyond human and doesn't love like a human, maybe He'll love me with a love beyond my understanding. Leah, age 15

Hi there, I am almost turning 17 and I live with my two younger brothers and my mother. I suffer from depression almost everyday, and I always isolate myself in my room. I am sensitive from light and noise. I play the piano, which calms me for a while, but I start crying for no reason. I don't know how to talk to my mother, she doesn't understand one thing of how I feel, that's why I keep everything inside my heart. I've cut myself once, not long ago, I have scars now. I look at them and I remember how sad I was. It's hard not to cry while writing this comment... My father left us when I was 6 years old, and didn't care about anything but his own matter. I visited him a few times every week but I moved to another province, so I am not seeing him nor calling him. My sister that was 1 year and a half older than me was a really depressed teen, she had suffered so much from the break up between my mother and my father. She didn't know which way to choose, or what was good for her. At the age of 12 to 17, she never talked to my mother about how she felt, she was always disrespectful and rebelious. I wanted to be with her all the time because I felt like she was the only one who would understand me, but she would rather stay with her friends because she thought I couldn't understand. She tried to kill herself more than once and suffered from bulimia for a while. She is now 18 and lives byherself, far from me, far from everybody, but now I understand what she had been through, she suffered a lot. As for me, I listen to gothic rock when I'm depressed, I do not talk to my mother often, I do not hang out with my friends. I avoid them or people...often, but I love them, I just think I am not entertaining them enough and I don't talk much I've had many suicidal thoughts, but I thought that if I did that, I would hurt my family. I try to think positive, but it's always coming back. I suffer from bulimia, and sometimes and stay without eating 2 or 3 days, my mother thinks I stopped doing it, but I just can't, it's too hard for me. I am lonely, never had someone to love or to hold, and tell them that I loved them I just want to be free. I know there are so many teens going through what I've had been trhough. I hope you guys have a better life in the next coming years, I feel your pain. *Much love*

This could help lol, my email... caroleyesa@sbcglobal.net

I am thirteen. I have had a screwed up life. from when i was a infant to 8 years old my "dad" raped and abused me. My mom has shingles in the right side of her head and tends to take EVERYTHING out on me. Half of my family cant stand to be around me. I am Extremely bi-polar. I am depressed everyday and it never gets better. I put on a fake smile to convince my little brother & sister, and myself life is worth living. Bbut im not so sure anymore. I dont see he point of me being alive at all. But i want to be strong. I always put myself down and i have had my heart broke millions of times. No one wants me. Im not good enough for anyone. I am about to give up. no one hears my call for help so it seems i dont need it. I am going to take matters in my own hands. To write love on her arms!!!!!!!!!!!

I am thirteen years old and depressed for multiple reasons. My whole life so far has been in my words screwed up. From ages 3-7 I was told that someone was my father and I called them daddy because I was an adellescent.at age 12 I had to take a DNA test to know for a fact who was my dad. In that time my mom and my grandmother were fighting over my custody. From ages 9-13.3 years of age my mom was dating . Just last year I saw in the front yard my mom suffer from domestic violence. They went to court a restraining order was filed then dropped . By then I started cutting myself. Now, my mom just recently told me that she is back with this human he is no longer a man in my eyes because a man does not hit on a woman. And also just recently I tried several acts of suicide and rethought some of them. But I also cut up some pictures of my mom because she did not have to back with him. She didn't have to.! And now mainly because of the last several years I am now hurting myself both physically and mentally.

I am depressed and I'm 18 almost 19. I feel like I don't belong in this world. I have alot of problems in which i'm going to tell you about. When I was 7 or 8 I caught my dad cheating on my step mom, and not but a few months later they got into a devorce. So my siblings and I moved in with our new step mom and lived with them for a while. But one day when I was 9 years old I was laying in bed and my two step brothers would not be quiet so I sat up and told them that if they didn't they would get into trouble. Then my dad opens the door holding a belt with huge metal pieces on it. He went and hit my older brother and than he came and hit me. I got hit by one of the metal pieces on my rigtht thigh. The next day I got up to go get dressed and there was a bruise. So later on I moved in with my real mom and step dad. I didn't know at the time but I would soon come to find out that the reason I have gone to 7 high schools in the past two years is because my mom smokes mary jane and so does my dad, but my dad also pops pills. The stress and depression is affecting my school work and my happiness. When I was 13 I was trying to commit suicide I even took up cutting my arms. I have pretty much moved everywhere in the United States do to the fact they can't keep a job because of their addiction to drugs. But when my parents are off of the drugs they are aggressive and mean. My step dad has left bruises up and down my arms before and my mom just does the normal screaming at everyone and anyone. I cry myself to sleep everynight wondering what I could have done to change my life to where it would not end up like this. I'm even thinking of becoming a counciler due to all the stuff I been through I could probably help someone else that might be going through the same stuff I did. I always get flash backs of the past when I sleep and which changes my sleeping paterns. This is my life and I think that no one deserves to go through the stuff that I did.

Im am depressed and i am only 15. I feel i have my whole life ahead of me but i dont see the point in living it i make everybodies life a living hell. Even my mother hates me The Barbiie

so i have OCD and im 14 years old. right now my life seems to suck i am in two plays so you think i would be lucky. but all of a sudden i feel like plays are taking me no where,and i want to take up cheer, but my ocd is killing me. a lot of people think im annoying moy olnly real friends dont go to my school and the boy of my dreams is a dick. tipical high school. i am afraid my ocd is turning into depression. i really cant tall anyone this so this blog is really helping me get it out there.

I stumbled on this website. I am a songwriter/performer. I was looking for statistics about teen depression & suicide, etc., for a song that I sing. Then I got wrapped up into reading all these posts. I'm 42 years old, and when I was a teenager, I experienced many of the things I'm reading about here. I was lonely, just moved to a new place where I was a loser, my dad was an alcoholic, my mom had various mental illnesses, I wanted to die, etc. But somehow I made it, and I have to say that I'm REALLY glad I didn't killl myself. Believe it or not, things do get better. They started getting better a long time ago--you won't have to wait until you're my age! Being a teen can be really shitty. Then it gets better. Just hang on, listen to music, find friendship in animals (they're great friends), and hold on. You'll make it. ~Kris

I suffer from depression and I wear rubber bands on my wrist to help me out. I just pop myself. It works usually. i gotta pop alot sometimes. i hardly cut anymore. I didn't realize i was depressed at first. i thought it was a stage. but i went to the dr. and was indeed suffering from depression. i've got medicine, rubber bands, a counciler, and most importantly GOD. i've learned to see that i am a temple of GOD and if i harm myself..... well you get it. My name is Lizzie.

Im scared. I get made fun of a lot by my friends but I take it because there all I have. I often get thoughts of suicide and self harm. HELP I FEEL ALONE!!!

I often feel depressed and have thoughts of suicide, Hpwever there is NO way I could tell my parents. It just wouldn't be excpeted. Plus they are part of the reason I feel this way. Where should I go to get help? I'm scared and don't know what to do...

im almost 13 iv been cuttin since about 11/12 cant quite remember.i find my cuts gettin worse as each day passes,i find myself cutting EVERYTIME im upset/pissed last nite i cut myself for the first time in about 2 weeks,me and my mom havent been getting along very well at all,my sister enjoys getting me in trouble.ive been crying since tuesday because my sister got my clothes taken away.yesterday i got my phone shut off and got phisically/mentally abused my mom bit me and her bf hit me my mom also hurt my jaw,i attempted suiside,it didnt work,i find my grades being horrible my mom also called her bf my father last nite which made me cry harder,HE WILL NEVER BE MY FATHER!!!! i have been full of empty promisis all day and im finding myself not eating,i need advice someone give me help my emails kendrathedork@gmail.com

Life is a learning experience and you have to take control. Don't blame other people for your actions. Life is hard but God will never put on you more than you can handle. He is challenging you. He wants you to seek him and no one else. When times are heard call on the name of Jesus and believe in him. Don't let the devil have victory over you. He wants you to be weak and depressed, why ? because is you have faith in God and believe that if you call on him that you won't be unhappy and that is what he wants you to be. Jesus loves you and whenever your feeling down and out call on the name of the lord and watch how things work out. I am not a church person but i have come a long way and wanted to give up, but i asked myself why am i so weak and cannot take control, and it was because i didnt have God in my life. I am not a saved person but as long as i have faith and leave it in Gods hands i have learned that i will let him fight my battles instead of taking it on alone. Luv Ya

I've been having a rough time lately I was recently dumped by my girlfriend that i loved so much. She says that she became scared around me because of my anger I did not realize i came across this way I trying this as a last resort to get back with I need help to control my anger so i dont hurt the ones i love anymore

I have a daughter that just turned 15. I just found out she has been talking to a man (30?) she meet playing a game on the internet.(he lives in another state) we had been without a computer for a while so I guess they started takling on her cellphone. For the past 2 years her grades are sometimes barely passing, she is angery all the time and just seems so sad, unless she is talking to him! I feel like I have failed her. Why would she turn to such an older man? My daughter is also type 1 diabetic. I have asked her to stop talking to him, but now she is sneeking her calls. Maybe the police should be notified but I cant tell that he has done anything .

mane teens are dieing everyday of harm to themselves and that i have tried to do and mane did it hurt my mother and father to see me try and do that stuff to myself

If anyone out here is thinking of suicide, please stop and reconsider. My 15 yr old daughter has a friend that just committed suicide. It has been so hard on all the friends of this person. Just stop and reconsider and give your self one more day. Now my daughter is depressed and she wishes she would have known her friend was in trouble she would have done anything.

Okay im not saying im depressed but im am sad, i do admit i have tryd too commit sueicide but thats bc i hate my life and it seems like nothing is going right, guys just want me for sex, and girls just call me a whore... my own sister calls me a slut and a whore.......It really hurts me. I dont know what too do i when i think about death it makes me feel great! like when im gone so many ppl will miss me and see that they casused me too commit suicide...... i hate life and i dont want too go talk too a doc. or a phys.... bc all i will do is get agravated...........i dont know what too do.??

my son cries alot is whimpy, lets other kids pick on him, won't stand up for himself , is afraid of challinging himself or try something knew. Is this signs of depression?

I have depression and anxiety and I told my mom two months ago. She didn't believe that it was real and thought it was my hormones. I went to the doctor recently and I'm taking two medications. But the medicines only help to a certain degree. No one understands me and my friends are afraid of me now. I have no one to talk to!

you know what some people may think that jesus is the only way to get help, but my medication is WORKING so its not the only way out! ya it may help, but medication and therapy help to! and no matter how much jesus lovesus what if we are non religious and that DOESN'T MATTER?!?!?!

I was a carver. i never cut my wrists or anything like that. I carved words and pictures on my hips and below my stomach. I just told my parents there so upset i didnt mean to hurt them. I stopped, but sometimes i think about doing it. People dont understand that its not about having pain, it doesnt hurt actually its just something in my control i guess. I have a wonderful family and a great life but im still unhappy. I dont know why. Is there places i can talk to other teens like me?

Have your parents died yet? Hope Not

Christian is spelled C H R I S T I A N. I should know caz i am one

Everyone on this site i have your answer it's Jesus. He's the only one that can HELP you no pills doctors or medications can help you. His love and His love alone is all that can help you. Please cry out to Jesus He sees the pain your in and knows what your going through. No matter what you've done His love is so much greater than it.

my granddaughter is having a very difficult time and i need her to go somewhere where she can get some help for her lying,stealing and just not being honest. i think she's bi polar or just downright depressed. i need to help her. can you help me help her? where are you located and what are your prices. sue garavaglia

My life is to be spiraling downward. I want to get away. I've thought about suicide before, but I could never come to actually do it. I'm so depressed because I feel like I am living a lie. I know I am gay, but I am too ashamed to admit it to anyone. I don't want to be more alone than I am now. I have a lot of friends, but I feel like they would all hate me if i actually came out. I always put on a cover, no one knows the real me. I decided that suicide is not the way to go. I feel, now, that it is a easy way out and even though I feel like no one will understand me, I don't want to hurt anyone. I've decided that instead of suicide or other harmful measures, I am going to move out of my small town and live in a big city where people are more excepting. I have never been as low in my life as I have right now and it makes me sick to my stomach. I hate how people treat gays and that is what makes me depressed, that I can never be myself.

im 13 and my name is natalie. ive been having a really hard time since my grandma passed away...my parents dont notice me and my mom called me a fucking little bitch because i didnt let my sister borrow something and whore when i wear eyeliner. my grandma was the person who was more a a mother figure life than my own mother and now that shes gone..i have no one to look up to. ive been cutting since it was ten stopped when i was 12 and then started again but now i dont cut anymore and it makes me feel a bit better of my self. my parents still hate me though and it makes me want to kill myself, ive tred committng suicide about 17 times now and i feel as if im going to lose.how do i get my parents to notice or start caring about when in reality they would rather have me dead?

i have depression and nobody knew it until recently when i started crying for no reason, lost interest in eating, and started cutting. my parents had been trying to block out my problems for almost two years, but then my dad finally couldn't stand watching me suffer anymore and took me to the doctors. i am depressed and i am going to start anti depressants, but i am scared that i will be addicted. I HATE THIS!!!!!!

im 12 years old my mom dosnt even know this article explains me crying alot suffering weight loss grades slip i cant tell her id brake her heart what do i do? i want to die just get it over with. ive been depressed scince i was 5 my life was toen apart by everyone i get adrenalin rushes when i think about i i want to stop it!

Well, guys [and girls], reading your stories is breaking my heart. We (teenagers) feel so alone sometimes, and think that our parents don't/won't understand. And although our friends care, they may not know how to help. Jesus, I know that You know the individual needs and wants of each person on this site. You know them inside out and backwards. You understand our feelings, even when we don't ourselve, because you made us. Thank you for the precious gift of LIFE that You have given every one of us. However, Lord, sometimes it's hard to see the "gift" of it - life seems harder to live than to lose. But Jesus, suicide hurts other people in our lives and it hurts You, who made us for a PURPOSE. You have promised in the Bible: "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." You have promised that, and God, I am holding You to Your word. When we cry out in our hearts for You, pick us up and show us Your LOVE. Thank You for being One who loves and understands when no one else does. AMEN.

Let him know you care. I was like that all last year and my mom ignored me. I constantly asked to talk to her but she said he never had time. Don't smuther him or tell him you understand but it is hard uprooting especially in high school. mY thoughts are join a sports team, a musical or talk to one of those two teachers and ask them to be an advisor on a new club. If he starts a club foro his own inerests it might be fun for him. Don't worry it is hard just keep caring

how can anyone help if you dont have friends? no one can help you fit in.

my name is nicki and i'm 16. for the last three years i have been going through a hard time. my parents don't really notice me much anymore. i stopped spending time with my friends and started to read a lot. the books made me happy. when i was 13 i started cutting. it relieves a lot of the numbness and i get to control the pain. then i lost my appetite. i lost over 20 lbs in two months. thats when my parents noticed that something was wrong, but it only took them a year to figure out that i stopped eating. that was two years ago. i started hanging out with a new group of kids. i've started doing some drugs here and there. i started drinking and am now on a first name basis with all of the cops in my small town. my parents think that i'm a freak and can't stand to look at me. they don't like my friends, but they are the only thing that keeps me sane. i don't know what i would do without them. they literally make my world go round.

most teens like me dont want to tlk about whats wrong because they dont want to burdon others with our problems. and they dont want to hear the truth and they dont want people to know their weakness. two years ago i needed help too and someone who used to be like me who had weaknesses of their own helped me through it, and i relized that i wasnt alone, that i had others in my life who could help me. i depended on this person and i got throught my depression, when he died i went back in to depression but soon decieded that he spent the last 7 1/2 months of his life trying to help ME out of depression, why would i throw away what he did for me? everyday i fight deppression, and everyday i win. i live everyday, one day at a time because life is hard, but im not the only one living it, the people in my life that i hurt when i was in depression, i feel guilty for hurting those people by pushing them away when they wanted to help me, but they have forgiven me and only want the best fro me, they help me fight every day, its hard to go on, but i do. and im proud of myself!

Alot of your knowledge on teen depression and understanding of the endless questions we as teenagers ask ourselves { WHY ? What does cause us to interact with other teenagers the way we do and who is responsible for our actions, Is it a learned or devolped seperation from people different than the home life we are raised in or labeled by the social structure the way we section housing in County Zoning [ meaning if your family is not in a social brackett that it doesnt matter who you are if you are not accepted in a upper-class society not even if you uphold yourself in an ethical manner. if you live in a trailer you are trash even if you had millions you are zoned out of upper-class communites. JUST NOT GOOD ENOUGH!!] Well the answers aren't in medication because the problem is from missplacement in our society's way of placing a child in a social brachett that is learned from their own up bringing

my name is Charlotte. i am a 15 year old girl and im not exactly sure if im really depressed or not. ive never had something extremely dramatic happen to me in my life. i did move when i was twelve and left my best friend and now my other best friend has left my school and i feel completely alone this year. i have two pretty good friends but they just dont understand whats going on with me. people have pointed out that im not as "happy and excited" as i use to be and ive been isolating myself a lot. but my moods change often. like during the weekend ill be very happy and then school starts and i feel horrible again. ive thought about suicide and ive had talks with my mom about being "sad" but she just thinks its because im a teenager and its not really depression. at school i cant pay attention and i dont have the strength to do my homework well anymore, little things have turned into a nightmare. i also have different eating habits, i skip lunch at times and then eat tons of junk before i go to sleep. i also have trouble sleeping because i stress out easily. ive seen a therapist a couple times but i wasnt really willing to talk to her. theres also a lot of fighting going on in my family but its not terrible so im just not sure if maybe its just pms or really depression?

My name is Kay and I sometimes feel like i dont belong in this world. My family and friends think i am crazy but i think about suicide alot. I sometimes cry and dont know why, i want help but i dont kno how to go about it. My sister has been through the same thing and it helped her. She doesnt want me to go through it and i dont want to be hurt and school is making the whole situation worse one boy picks on me all the time and talks about and tries to force me into to doing sexual things with him that i dont want to do. I tried telling my counselor and the school but they do nothing i just want to be helped.....what do i do? and how do i get the help i need?

dear joann i am a 16 year old recovering self harmer i started harming myself when i was 11. yes it is really hard to stop but you can do it. a good way to help is to write whats going on thats upsetting you down in a journal, or maybe even keep a blog. or find another muse when your upset. for example in the summer if something upsets me i go for a run or throw on my roller blades and just go. alot of the time i have no idea where im going but just being away from it all helps and calms me down. i also have OCD and it sucks because that adds to the anxiety. have you talked to your dr about your anxiety? you dont have to tell him your self harming if you dont want to but you may have an underlying condition, like my OCD, there are many different things that can cause the anxiety that you may not know of. and on my personal opinion if your meds are making things blurry and if you just dont feel like your self stop taking them. my best advice for you tho is just to talk to some one. someone who wont freakout and will listen. maybe when you get to college go down and talk to your councler. or find a good therapist. dont worry it doesnt mean your crazy and it does help.

From One Concerned parents....Please, all of you, hang in there! Teenage years are the toughest in life. But you can pull through. And life gets a lot easier, life becomes a lot more enjoyable-please believe me that a bright future awaits you-just hang in there!

I'm koda. i'm 15. im not happy with the way my life has turned out. i have spent a couple months in an institution because of 2 suicide attempts. i hide myself in my room, away from judgement and expectations. i've been on medication for a couple years now and still, i don't feel it's done a lot of good. i still have frequent thoughts of suicide and death but now i don't act upon it. i want to be able to feel as good as i used to.. before the sexual assaults. before i gave in. i turned to substance abuse. it helps me feel better for a bit. that's what scares me. i'm scared of guys because i know what they can do. i hate being afraid and never being able to trust people that actually give a shit. my best friend.. she won't talk to me. i don't know why but im not willing to fight for it. i wish i was and i wish i could fix the mistakes i've made. i need help. i can be patient.. but i know i can't do this alone. Any suggestions..?

Don't give up lanna. There was this girl in my art class who said those same things. You to sit all by herself and wouldn't talk to anyone. She killed herself one day. I have never been able to forgive myself. If only I had tried harder. I still can't talk art classes or even look at one without crying. There is hope lanna. I am so sorry you were raped. There are people who can help you. Don't let all the bad things beat you. You can win. You are strong and an important person and you can make something of your life. Please don't give up. <3 Hope

this article is really great. it really shows the signs really well. I wish parents cared enough to read it. If they did they would know how depressed i am. Maybe they would start to care

if you are looking at these comments you should give them some thought....there r so many ppl who needs comfort asap and if you just let it go on noticed you might lose someone....so stop, look, think and act NOW!!

this all makes total sence . like , some parents don't even notice or they start making their child(s) problems to be what they see it to be in their eyes and just assume the worst of them . i've noticed , obviously they don't understand but that gets me sooo mad . like , depression is a serious thing and esspecially if the person is younger , wouldn't you want to take care of it and get help before it starts getting worse ?

i think my older brother was depressed a few years ago. he had a lot of the symptoms that is stated in this article. i knew he had problems and i think my parents knew too, but we didn't do anything about it. i didn't know what to do and i am not sure how serious it was. although it has passed (he got a girlfriend that has really changed his life), my little brother is starting to get like my older brother used too. this time i am not going to ignore it like i did with my older brother. i hope none of you ignore anything that you know to be true, because trust me it will eat at you later as it has done to me.

To all who are depressed or thinking self inflicted injury,,,,,,You Are Not Alone. There are people you can talk to. I personally lost someone in 2006 due to severe depression. It is the worst kind of pain a person can live with. If I knew then what I know now, he might still be here. So please Talk to someone who will listen. I have met many people who are willing to talk. Self injury is not the answer. John (dreadlockraven).

I think im depressed but like i dont wanna kill myself or anything i have a very low pain tollorence so i cant cut myself but me and my dad fight all the time and my mom is ok but just idk dosent listen and the boy i like has told me that he dosnt like me back now he wont talk to me and im do lonly like i have my friends but even they dont understand must of the time the only way i can get throught the day is bc of music i can always start randomly singing about how i feel and i feel a little bette3r but i want that like feeling of like totol sadness to go away anyone know what i mean?

I use to cut myself to but I got out of it bc Its not worth hurting yourself over your parents or any boy bc one day believe it or not you will get through it and you will get away from it...like me I only have 3 years left with my parents and there way over protective but in 3 years Im gone and Im not coming back!!!!! and hopfully I will still with the great boyfriend that I have had for over a year now!!!!

I guess to all the teens that say they need help I guess the way to get it is....find a really good and close friend that will just listen and not judge you for anything and just tell them everything that is on your mind and if that doesnt work then I know that for a fact when you write it out on paper and tear it up or burn it....it really helps! ive been through alot and Im only 15 my parents split up Ihave step parents and me and my dad dont really have a relationship but I trust in god and I know he is always on my side and through him anything is possiable and im glad that I have him....ohh and find a really good church to go to!!!!

i will talk about 11:00 tomorrow and the after noon during goodnight and rember wat i said daown there i will always be!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeh i understand your hear its just i wishh i could tell my freinds or one of my realatives but im afraid

yea im 13 and i cut myself because i feel angry about everything and i cant tell any one but a few of my freinds i am afraid of dissapointing my parents i feel they would beat me if they found out its like i live a double life i hate it but i dont want them to hate me i hav a picture perfect life but i feel like im an out sider when i get in big crowds all i want to do is sit and huddle in the coner for fear that i will do something wrong, when i cut myself i feel like i can fly above the world and gaze into unkown ......i know nobody will care but it helps to hav somebody read this

It's really scary when you're all alone i the world, with no family to tell you too put put that sh** down. Surround yourself with people, don't go down that road. It's hard being a survivor, too.

the only thing that keeps me from suicide is the knowledge of the pain that it would cause my little brother and mom.

i do wanna killmyself

My almost-13 year old daughter has been experiencing a lot of the symptoms mentioned in your article. I recognized them and have had her seeing a psychologist for several months. She just started having even more severe problems, so I am also getting her in to see a psychiatrist who works in tandem with the psychologist. I had hoped to avoid medicating her, but I think that is what we will need to do. This is a very sensitive subject; she has been able to articulate her feelings and describe physical symptoms to me, but cannot seem to do this with anyone else. She is very worried about her classmates finding out what is wrong with her, yet she can't continue to hide her symptoms throughout the whole schoolday. It's heart wrenching to see your own child having to deal with this miserable disease. I am thankful that there are many professionals who are available to help us and that there are now some pharmaceutical solutions that have proven helpful in young people. Thank you for your article.

I personally think that poetry from teenagers that is depressing should be recognized a lot more because how many times are you going to find a teenager that is that into their writing? So my full opinion is you really should recognize their emotions

I am very worried about my 18 yr. old son who appears depressed. He is very moody with our family and has nonchalantly hinted at suicide on a few occasions. We make every attempt to talk to him and offer help, he has two very supportive sisters as well. It is upsetting the family - I suspect he may have an eating disorder as his eating habits are odd. He would live on junk food rather than home cooked meals and he often takes aspirin for headaches because he hasn't had a decent, healthy meal. I'm a very worried mom.

I love this site, But I have learned that I had to TAKE ACTION to bust through the cage of depression/anxiety. Inaction made me slide deeper. My solution: Get out of my head and into the world. This worked more than anything else. I came to understand that ONLY I could really love myself the way I wanted to be loved -- hard but true. I was taught that I can re-direct my destructive thoughts . I can say no to negative thinking by REPLACING negative thoughts with positive ones. Stay away from negative people, places and things. Leave the room, leave the house for a walk to get away from demeaning people for awhile. Avoid violent movies, depressing friends, music and books. Computer use is VERY isolating and wastes so much precious time from satisfying and important activities. Now I take care of myself by eating healthily, keeping a regular sleep schedule, looking for beauty in the world (it is limitless when you look for it) stretching and exercising each day if I can. I made myself get out: exercising around other people (even in a park), the library -free events - donating blood, cooking a treat for someone who os going thruogh a tough time. And organized religion was created to help people deal with life! Members are good, positive people who will help you even if they hardly know you. Many churches have resources for depression. Churches are free. Others have needs I can help with. I can tell family members or good friends "I love you". Writing grandma who may live alone. Helping a neighbor with shoveling. Giving free babysitting to a single parent now and then. Giving love to any child you have contact with (they need it the most of us). Suicide: This is NOT AN OPTION, EVER! We were all made to enjoy the natural world, be creative, help each other and perfect our world using our numerous abilities and talents. Replace suicidal thoughts by keeping too busy. You can make a life for yourself -- plan now -- you will not live at home forever. Al-ANON and ALATEEN (see the web) have been INVALUABLE to strengthen me to turn my life around. The meetings are free and all that is said is kept "in the room" - confidential. Getting to these meetings no matter how "inconvenient" saved my life. And, you may actually help someone else just by making them see that they are not alone in struggling with life. Love to all and Make a Great Day, one day at a time -- Grace

I am a teen and I do not know if what I am going through is depression or PMS. I am confused but I do not know what to do. I lost my grandfather to cancer, my boyfriend to a car crash and myself to heartbreak. All my friends are gone because I moved, and I lost my love in guitar and writing. I am sick to my stomach everyday, I get dizzy, faint, and feel like I am going to throw up al the time. I sleep three hours instead of seven and I eat only a small dinner, I have lost over four pounds in the last week and I do not drink enough water because I forget. I can hardly ever feel my face move or my feet and hands. My zits have gone bazerrk, cuz I forget to wash my face and taking a shower makes me dizzy but I take one anyway. I can not sing anymore without sqeaking and feeling dizzy. I never feel like I am all there, and my family is not as comforting. Whenever I eat I have to fight to keep from throwing it all up and I lost my dad and four of my friends to cancer from tabacco or drugs or suicide. The only one I talk to is my God. I am sensitive to light and sound. I do not have a doctor cuz I will not go to one. Flavors of food are always mixed with barf flavor and I am starting high school where I know no one. I gave up excersizing but still lose a considerable amount of weight. I am freezing even if it is eighty degrees and when I sweat it is cold. I see people that should not be there, I am scared.

I've found a wonderful book about a woman who suffers from depression, it is raw and dead on, because I suffer from depression. It is called "Dorie's Daughter" by Kim King and is available on Amazon.com for about $15.00. Read it, it'll change your life

Thanks For Putting This Up I Knew I Was Depressed..........Thanks For Helping With This. Im Going To Start Getting In Touch With Old Friends And More Time With Family Thank You

hey there. i could get what you're going through cause i have depression too. i'm not usually used to talking about my problem but ever since my birthday i have been sad for weeks i cried to my self and told no one . I soon started crying for no reason and stopped enjoying , hanging out with my friends. i have started to avoid them more now and is now always lonely having negative thoughts to myabout myself feeling guilty and worthless. i feel so numb right now not feeling like doing anything i thought that was fun anymore.around may or april i found out i had depression i told no one not even my friends or my parents. I'm secretly having suicidal thought haunting me i actually tried several times and never succeded i feel like i'm all by myself most of the time.

Okay so I'm not depressed but I have been. Last year I had major family issues, pretty screwed up friendships, my own demons and so on. I had began crying for no reason at any part of the day, I constantly felt like doing nothing, like I was nobody and didn't see the point in anything. I would scream at people I cared about and was constantly angery. When I went to school I felt like a blur and either just didnt pay attention or didnt show up for class' and when I skipped I didn't do anything to be proud of, more or less ashamed. It got so bad that I began thinking that if I just threw myself in front this or cut myself with that (which i did begin cutting) then no one would miss me. I felt so extremely alone that evrey part of my body ached for the slightest bit of comfort. My school counselor had recomended a therapist and I saw her a few times but what I found was all she wanted to do was put me on anti-depressants. Personally, I don't believe in anti-depressants (no offence to people they may be helping) so I kinda just never went back. I had moved and changed my view of the world. It did make me happy to change the scene and it made alot of things easier. Now its a full year later and I'm begining to go back into my little "fuzz". SO much has changed since last year and now that I look back I had done alot of damage to myself and my family and thinking about it I didn't just move away... I ran away. I think about it and everything I did was just a bandaid. A quick fix for my promblems and like bandaids they would just fall off eventually and in the end it made me feel worse. So here I am again full circle came from being extremely sad to extremely happy to...? I don't know but anyway the main reason I'm typing here today was to let people know that what your going through doesn't only affect you, its not just your little world that seems to be falling apart. Alot of people go through depression. And once its got you and starts taking over your life it goes on to hurt other people such as your parents (adoptive or not), your siblings, your friends, your significant other, family etc. ect. So I'm here to say YOU DESRVE TO BE HAPPY and so does everyone else in your life. I've just started recieveing help once again and this time I'm not going to run away or use the same "bandaids" because I'm not useless. I do have my bad days but since I've started thinking more about changing my mood and concentraiting on being happy I have this calmness in my heart that lets me know I will be alright : )

i have a 14 year old daughter whos my only child and she has never met her father. she says she does not want to meet him and says it does not bother. she too is a very loving child but is very angry all the time and has become incresingly defiant and disrespectful. she sleeps all the time and does not want to hang out with frineds anymore. shes currently in councling but its only for 3 sessions. she only has one session left. any suggestions on how i can help her ?

As a person that was depressed when I was a teen I had a lot of these signs. No one knew what they were. I had to find my own way out of it. My way was listening to Heavy Metal. With in six months to a year i no longer was depressed. Talking to a lot of my friends that listen to Metal they have told me that they to went through the same things as i did until they also got into Metal.It may not work for everyone but it is a lot cheaper to buy your kid ten Metal c.d.'s they 2 doctors visits. What can it hurt to try it.

i think that most teens in the US has a problem with depression including me. i've been diagnosed when i was around the age of eleven. Back then i didn't want help, but know that i have help i'm happy that i have people who cares.

Hi all- I feel I have to write something before I leave this website. before I start, I do have a masters degree in counseling , I do take antidepressants for depression, and I had someone very close to me commit suicide when I was younger. I feel like I have to share some of my story with you girls, especially the young ones who feel stuck. I once felt stuck too- my parents were horrible, and very strict, it was almost like being a slave sometimes. I was very derpessed and remember telling my Dad i was thinking about suicide and he said, "Don;t do this to me." and walked out. I was too chicken to do it, but could literally not see into the future, all I could feel was the pain of "now", and I was too young to realize I had a lot of life a head of me and I could make of it what i wanted. So, to the teens, yes, life does suck sometimes, yes, you feel sad and have no where healthy or safe to go- but you know what? You do! You have hotlines you can talk to, you have the counselor at school, you probably have friends who have understanding parents you could talk to about feeling depressed. It is so importatnt to know there is nothing wrong with you, anyone can feel depressed- but it is up to you if you feel like you will live depressed, or live up to the challenge and take care of yourself with the right medication and finding a safe place to talk about things. At this young age, you cannot see it right now, but there is a future. I moved out when I was 17, went to college, started counseling and medication, went to grad school, fell in love, got married, have 3 kids now, a nice family, a nice house. You are just starting your life- beleive me there is so much wonderful coming to you. I think depression is for strong people, people who have depression have to be strong to ask for help from others, they have to be strong to accept medication and take it religiously, just as you would if you had cancer or were diabetic. Another thing you might not know is depression is hereditary- your parents may have it, grandparents, etc. When I started going back in my family history, I realized the depression was there before I was born- it is a part of my genes just as sure as my hair and eye color. It is something that I still have to monitor, i still see a counselor when I feel down, I realize the signs now and my husband will point them out if I cannot see them myself, I take medication daily and i have a good productive, happy life. I even get a long with my parents...from a distance, but we get along. And, as a suicide survivor, I can tell you, suicide is more painful for your loved ones than anyone. When my friend killed himself, I hurt for years, it has been 11 years and it still hurts. It changed me forever. And he is gone, no chance to get meds, counseling, no chance to get married or have children...nothing. He is just gone. Left behind so many people who loved him and blamed themselves- but he couldn't see them through all his pain. if he would have gotten help he would still be here and it would all be a memory, but as it is, he is dead and we are here, struggling. It is so unfair when you think about how much people love you, even though you may not realize, they are there. So, listen, write more, tak mmore, realize THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU! You are very normal! You will be 18 very soon and out on your own to do what you want with your life. You just have something that can be very easily fixed-- I promise you. And life will get better- life goes like this for eveyone, its a rollercoaster, one day you are up and pone day you are down, but most of the time wer just hang around in the middle somewhere! This is how life is- don't miss the good stuff. Peace and love and encouragement to all of you- Jodi

TO THE MOTHER SEEKING ADVICE you said your daughter seems distant and angry to the world. the fact that you and your husband are divorced and the fact that he is remaried and has started another family probably has some effect on her. i am a 16 year old that also comes from divorced parents and i feel as though i can relate to her. let her know that her dad still loves her even if he is not involved in her life. (i'm not sure if he is or not) tell her that she can talk to you about anything because you've been there too. teens think parents can't understand them but eventually they may realize they can. i still have problems letting my parents in but it's like a bumpy road. we have good days and then we have bad days. tell your daughter about your teen stories and how you got through them. hug her often and spend one on one time with her. try to laugh and have a bonding moment because bonding always brings you closer in the end.

To Blue Eyed Girl: If you are having thoughts of suicide, it's VERY important that you talk to someone as soon as possible. It could be a parent or a teacher, or any adult you trust. You can also call the National Adolescent Suicide Hotline at 800-621-4000 to get some help.

hi i know what a lot of you are going through BELIEVE ME. for that lady who asked about her son i think you shjouldn't send him to a shrinl or anything because honestly my parents tried that with me and it just threw me into an even deeper depression. the lady told me that i needed to be on some kind of medicine after just the first meeting!!!! she didn't care and it cost a lotta money. i think that you should just try to get him to open up and go from there. i think that its god you know and that you are concerned but i dont think you should press the issue too much. i thin that when he is ready to tell you what is goin on he will and when he does tell you, DO NOT JUDGE HIM. just accept him and love him because he is your son. and honestly i think that is all you can do. you can do that and pray...

Hello i am a teenager with depression . Last year when i was off my medicine i tried commiting suicide and almost succed .Now i am back off my medicine and thinking about it again i know it is not healthy but i sometimes think that there is nothing to live for and i think being off my medicne is for the best

As a mother seeking advice from all of you, Please help me to help my daughter. She refuses to talk to me about how she is feeling. Her father and I are no longer together. He left, remaried, had lots more kids, drinks, does drugs etc..... I am always their for her the best i no how. She is angry at the world. Hates school, Dosnfunction (m) { return ReplaceChar(m); }t want to do anything she use to love, Im pretty certain she has also started purging, I set up an appointment for Family consouling. She dont want to go though I feel I have to take her. I know how if feels to be lonely as a teen. I too have my horror stories growing up. I truely hated that time of my life. However, this is about my very beautiful daughter, who is so very much hurting inside.. Please tell me how do I help her??????????????

I might add I am going thru the worst time in my life ...... my son and sister died 4 days apart recently and i can truly say i am drug free and liquor free thankx to God comforting me in my spirit .... no one else can help me like that the most important prayer to pray is Jesus forgive me for everything I have done in life and save my soul and take me to heaven when i die...xxx My son and sis are there and i no ill see them on the other side.........remember God loves you........T

I NEED HELP GROWING UP! It is so hard i dont know how to deal with it.I may be 10 but i know what i am going though. my mom tells me its normal and i know it is and still dont under-stand. Sometimes it hurts bad also i have my 12 year molars i have hair and starting to have bobies! I AM 10 YEARS OLD WILL SOMEONE HELP ME??????????(I HATE PUBERDY)!

All this stuff is sooo true. I am a teen suffering from severe depression. I know that I need help, but I don't know how. No one in my house even realizes it tho. They think that I am just being bad and moody. The fact is that every one in my house is the same way I am. I can't take it anymore. I don't have anyone to talk to. My mom says I can talk to her but I know I really cant. she wont take me serious. I sometimes feel like doing something stupid, and I think of crazy things, but I dont do them. I want help quick before it gets any futher. I dont know were to go.. Can someone help me???